“Hurry,” I whisper, looking up at him. “Connor. Please, hurry.”
His hand trembles when he curls it around my hip. His knees nudge my thighs farther apart. Then I feel his hardness, his insistent heat, sliding gently up and down over my tight, puckered bud. He licks his fingers, wets the head of his cock, gently moistens me, then positions himself.
With the head of his cock fisted in his hand, Connor slowly presses forward and enters me.
I shudder, groan, grip the blanket. When he freezes, I whisper, “Don’t stop.”
His hand tightens around my hip. He flexes his pelvis, sliding deeper inside me. With his other hand, he reaches around and softly strokes my pulsing clit.
I buck back sharply, taking him to the hilt.
The moan that breaks from his chest is loud, broken, totally undone.
I love that sound.
The thought rips through my mind as pleasure rips through my body. I’m bound, and he’s enormous, but the control is all mine. And all I want is to force that helpless sound from him again. I tilt my hips and find a rhythm, fast and hard, because we’re both so close and I can’t hold on much longer.
With every flex of my hips, he whispers, “Fuck. Fuck. Fuck,” an incoherent chant of bliss. His strokes on my clit get rougher, faster, pinching and sliding. I cry out, losing it.
He grabs both my hips and drives into me so hard, I feel bent in two. Then he bellows and comes, holding me against him as he empties himself in wild, jerking pulses that shake the whole bed.
So good. So good. So fucking good.
I listen to him roar in pleasure as my own pleasure crests over me, erasing all other thoughts. My cries are torn out of me, muffled by the blanket I’m biting down on.
Connor slows. His grip on my hips gentles. He lowers himself on top of me, taking us both down to the bed, covering me with his strength and heat, panting into my ear.
We’re quiet for a while, just letting our breathing slow. I feel boneless and overwhelmed, the intensity of what just happened eclipsing anything I might say.
He kisses me on the shoulder, brushes my hair off my face, kisses me on the neck. “Tell me you’re not hurting,” he rasps.
I whisper, “I’m good. Better than good.”
He reaches above me, unties the belt from my wrists, throws it away. He massages my wrists and arms, and then very carefully eases out of me.
We both softly moan.
He rolls to his side, curling me up against him, the length of our bodies pressed together. He wraps his big arms around me. They’re shaking.
“That was…”
“Intense,” I whisper. “I know. I wish we could do it every night for the rest of our lives.” As soon as it’s out of my mouth, I freeze in horror.
Dear God. The man just fucked the truth right out of me.
Twenty-Six
Understanding I’m utterly dismayed about what just left my lips, Connor clears his throat.
“I’m not saying anything.”
“Good.”
I’m surprised he’s letting it go, and also relieved we’re not going to have a conversation about the future, or commitments, or any of the other million off-limits topics about our relationship. Or whatever this thing between us is called.
Enemies with benefits?
After a moment, Connor adds, “But if I were to say something—”
“I knew it!”
“—it would be that you just made me really goddamn happy. That’s it.”
He peppers sweet, reverent kisses all over my neck and shoulder.
“You’re a romantic, you know that?”
Connor chuckles. “And you’re the only woman who’d accuse a man of that in a surly tone of voice.”
I grunt. It sounds surly.
He turns me over so I’m forced to look at him. “C’mon. Admit it. There must’ve been a time when you weren’t quite so…”
I narrow my eyes. He has the good sense to look wary.
“If I say ‘cynical,’ will that be the last time I’ll ever see my dick?”
“Probably. Tread carefully.”
He cracks a cocky grin. “We’ve already had the conversation about how good I am at that.”
“Hmm. You’re right. You admitted in your letter that you only had one speed. Full steam ahead.”
Connor takes that as a license to bulldoze away. “Yep. And since we’re on the topic, why have you never had a drink before today?”
“We weren’t on the topic.”
“I’m full steaming here. Go with it, woman.”
“Just out of curiosity, how can people who aren’t having sex with you stand to be around you for more than five minutes?”
“Because of my good looks and charm, obviously. Answer the question.”
“Connor—”
“You’ve had my cock in every orifice in your body, Tabitha. Answer the question.”
We stare at each other until finally I say, “Please, for the love of all that’s holy, never, ever say the word ‘orifice’ to me again.”