But that was, he hoped to God, a few years away.
Right then, he had other shit to face.
And he needed to get down to it and face it.
“Babies,” he called, and Zadie’s eyes shot right to him even as she stuffed a piece of pepperoni in her mouth.
He grinned at her and looked to Cleo.
She was watching him soberly and doing it chewing with her mouth shut like her momma taught her.
High leaned forward. “Need to share somethin’ with you,” he told them gently. “Somethin’ important.”
Zadie threw her arms straight into the air as she cried, mouth full of pepperoni, “You got a house!” She dropped her arms and leaned into her hands on the table. “Can we go see? This weekend? After school? Do we have a big bedroom?”
He’d found a house.
But more, he’d got back the woman in it.
“It’s not a house, Zadie,” he replied.
Her face fell like he’d told her the world was coming to an end, but worse, it had run out of ice cream so she couldn’t stuff her face with it until the end of days.
“What is it, Daddy?” Cleo asked quietly, and he looked to his big girl.
“Straight up, worried how you both are gonna take this. So straight up, I’ll tell you again, it’s important. It’s important to me. And it’s important to me you both get what it means to me.”
Cleo’s face went guarded.
Zadie’s eyes got big.
High took in a breath and shared, “There was once a woman I knew who meant a lot to me. We’ve reconnected and found that didn’t fade with the years. We’re back together.”
Zadie collapsed back, ass to heels.
Cleo’s lips parted.
“She was before your mom,” High continued. “Haven’t seen her in longer than you been alive. But we’re back. She’s in my life. And I want you to meet her.”
“What about Mom?” Zadie asked, and High focused on her.
“Mom and Daddy are divorced, Zade,” Cleo informed her sister matter-of-factly before High could get in there. “And since they are, you need to deal.”
“Cleo, baby, be sweet,” High said quietly.
“She needs to deal, Daddy,” she returned.
“You aren’t wrong, Clee-Clee, but you gotta be cool with your sister,” he replied.
She looked away, not miffed, embarrassed.
He and his Cleo were tight. They had a bond. Normally, she could do no wrong in her father’s eyes and she knew it. Blossomed under it. Fucking loved it.
So whenever he laid it out, she wasn’t good at handling it.
“This sucks,” Zadie snapped, and High looked to her. “You and Mom belong together,” she declared.
He opened his mouth but Cleo got there before him again. “Wake up, Zade. That’s so not true.”
“Cleo,” High said low.
She shut her mouth.
“You wake up, Clee-Clee,” Zadie, eyes narrowed at her sister, shot back.
“Zadie, darlin’, look at your old man,” High prompted.
She turned narrowed eyes and pouting mouth his way.
“What your mom and I had is done, baby. She’s moved on. I’m movin’ on,” he explained.
“She hasn’t moved on,” Zadie returned angrily.
“She has, Zade. She’s like, so totally cooler now that Daddy’s not around,” Cleo stated then her eyes darted to her father. “Sorry, Daddy. But it’s true.”
“I get that,” he replied. “And givin’ that to your mom and gettin’ some of that myself is why we split.”
“You’re happier with Mommy,” Zadie declared, and got her dad’s attention back.
“I was happier bein’ with you,” he shared gently. “And now I’ll be happy, you be a good kid, take your dad’s back, meet Millie and open your mind because you meet her, you can’t help but like her.”
“Millie’s a stupid name,” she spat nastily.
The gentle went out of High and he did what he rarely did.
He stared into his baby girl’s eyes, not as her daddy, but as her father.
She fell to her hip in defeat and looked angrily at the edge of the table.
“I’ll be glad to meet her, Daddy,” Cleo said, and got her father’s smile.
“I’ll be glad to meet her, Daddy,” Zadie mimicked obnoxiously, and got her father’s attention.
“Zadie, look at me.” She stared at the edge of the table. “Won’t say it again,” he warned. Slowly, taking her time, she looked to him. “You’re upset, be upset at me. You’re feelin’ a lot and I get that. I know you don’t like what’s goin’ down and I don’t like that, but I can’t help it. All I can do is help you move along with your sister and me, and yes, your mom, but with your mom it’s in a separate way. What you do not do, ever, Zade, is take anything out on your sister. That’s not cool and both my girls are cool. Don’t prove that different.”
He got her with that.
Deb might not have been hip on Chaos but both his girls were brought up in the life. They had their father’s blood.
They were raised in his world.
They knew it was a priority to be cool.
He saw her chin wobble before she dropped her head to look at her lap.
“Hand,” he ordered.
Slowly, but with hesitation, not attitude, Zadie extended her hand on the table.
High wrapped his fingers around her little ones, and feeling their fragility, their warmth, the knowledge he had a part in creating those fingers, the pulse that beat in her wrist, he relaxed.
He also knew she might not make it easy, but she was her daddy’s girl.
She’d get there.
He gave her fingers a squeeze. “I need you to dig deep, Zadie. You got some time to dig deep and get there.” He looked to Cleo but kept hold of Zadie and went on, “But I got you this weekend and we’re spendin’ time with Millie. She’ll give us our space but we’ll be spendin’ a lot of time with her. And you’re my girls. I want you to show her how beautiful you are outside and all the way deep down. Will you do that for me?”
“Yes, Daddy,” Cleo said instantly.
“Yes, Daddy,” Zadie said a lot more slowly, doing that to her lap and tugging her hand from his so he let her go.