Two guys ride on bikes in front of us. Two behind. It’s like our own messed-up version of an honor parade.
Pigpen takes the wide curve on my dad’s property and my bike’s sitting pretty under the carport of the garage. It shines in the evening sun, sparkles even. I was told it’s been buffed up, gassed up, and it’s ready to go. Everyone knows I’ve been staying with Cyrus, so the fact that they dropped my bike off here feels staged.
Pigpen pulls off the gravel road near the house and severs the engine. I go to open the door and he stops me. “Talk to me for a second, and I don’t mean me talking and you nodding your head like that’s acceptable conversation.”
I release the handle of the door and look in his direction. It’s the best I got at the moment, especially with the cracked code weighing on me: RMC equals the calling card of the Riot Motorcycle Club.
A million questions form in my mind. How current are those codes? Do they have anything to do with my mother? The detective said he found them recently, so it may not be related to her, but could be shit going down with the club now: the Riot shooting Eli this summer, the detective coming to town, the RMC running through the streets of Snowflake when they’ve never done that before...
“What’s going down in your brain?” Pigpen asks.
“Who shot me?”
“We don’t know.” The way he makes direct eye contact, he’s not lying.
“Do you have ideas?”
“We got shit we’re looking into, but nothing definite. You gotta trust us that we won’t let you down.” Which means they aren’t letting me in. It also means I could dump what I learned about the Riot onto Pigpen and he’d once again shut me out.
I stare out the front windshield and watch as Dad greets the guys who drove over with us. That woman, the one with the blond hair, she walks out of the house in a black tank and a pair of jeans and smiles when she wraps herself around Dad. “What’s she still doing here?”
Pigpen taps his steering wheel. “He’s in love with her, but he won’t fully commit until you’re on board with her or at least talk to him again.”
The muscles in my neck tighten. “Commit? Commit how?”
Pigpen inclines his head for the obvious answer and I swear. “He doesn’t know how to commit. Do you have any idea the amount of women that’ve been through this house?”
“He married your mom and was with her for over thirteen years before she passed.”
I could ram my fist into Pigpen’s face for bringing up my mother, but because of club code, I’m not allowed to strike a brother. “Yeah, Dad did commit, but that was before she drove herself off a bridge. Where’s the keys to my bike?”
“That’s not how it went down. You gotta learn to let this go, because if you don’t—”
“Save the bullshit.”
“It’s not bullshit. You need to trust—”
“You want me to talk?” I cut him off. “How about this? You weren’t part of the Terror when my mom was alive and you sure as hell weren’t there when she cried herself to sleep and you sure as hell weren’t there when Dad brought home his first drunk chick to sleep with. So you can shut the fuck up about what I should or shouldn’t do.”
Proving he’s a crazy son of a bitch, Pigpen flashes me that guilty-by-definition-of-insanity grin. “See, was talking so bad? A few weeks with me and you’ll be ready for full-on family therapy.”
“Fuck you.”
Pigpen goes silent and that causes my bones to quiver. The two of us get along because I’m the silent one and he’s the one who can’t shut up.
“Your dad would do anything for you. He’s been arguing with the board. Disagreeing with them. I shouldn’t be telling you this, but this fight you got inside you, it’s not with him.”
I’m terrified to believe him because if he’s wrong and I let myself have hope that my dad and I could work through this...that false hope could kill what’s left of an already weary soul. “Keys to my bike would be nice.”
“Your dad has them and you can’t drive until tomorrow. Guess you’re stuck here.”
With another curse, I’m out of the truck, slamming the door to piss Pigpen off. He follows as I go up the stairs, then brushes past me when I pause.
He grins at me from over his shoulder before opening the screen door. There’s a loud round of laughter and, in a house as small as ours, it doesn’t take long for the noise to be unruly. The scent of meat loaf teases my stomach and I turn away. That’s my favorite and I’d bet this new girl is trying with me...again.
My heart clenches and I bend over to rest my arms against the railing. Attached to it are the flower boxes that have remained empty since Mom’s death. Every fall she’d plant mums. Different colors and sizes. Every year I’d help. I never got enough of being beside her.
The screen door creaks and Dad steps out. I focus on our property and the surrounding woods darkened with the fading evening light. He leans on the railing beside me and the creak makes me wonder if the failing wood can handle both of our weight.