But it has stopped, she says. Look again. Do you see? And the suit says, Yes, I see, and shoots him up with adrenaline. It didn’t help, she tells the suit. Do something, quick, she says, and with the first pulse of the armor’s defibrillator the soldier falls with a crash.
In the suit’s file system she finds a photo of a pretty blond woman in denim cutoff shorts and a sleeveless T-shirt, smiling hopefully at the camera with a little girl in the crook of each arm, shot in an empty field before ancient listing telephone poles drowning in kudzu, and in a biographical file she learns that her enemy is William T. Boyd of Knoxville, Tennessee, once a lance corporal in the Army Rangers, and that he’s served in Namibia, Persia, Morocco, South Africa; he’s been wounded many times and won numerous commendations that seem like scant compensation for getting himself repeatedly blown up. There are pictures of the girls in Catholic school uniforms and she wonders if he went private to pay for that. Boyd is still fighting for control of the armor, reciting commands in a tense voice, but she’s deep in the fabric of the suit’s software and thinks, Sorry, girls, this, apparently, being her day for regret, as she starts shooting him up with the armor’s entire pharmacopoeia, all the quinine, morphine, tetracycline, meperidine, benzodiazepine, amphetamine, and she worries that some of the drugs will cancel each other out but there isn’t time to worry about it and in any case she’s pretty sure it won’t be good for him, and in fact he goes into a seizure, and voids his bladder, and as she recharges the defibrillator she finds herself hoping that his company gives good death benefits. There’s a document labeled “rules of engagement” reading:
Cleared hot and casualty indifferent with the glaring exception of one Irina Sunden, who is to be secured, sedated and renditioned intact. Management says W&P looks like north of 90% of next year’s revenue, so don’t shoot her in the face by mistake. They also say that if you do end up killing her don’t damage her skull. Yes, her skull. Don’t ask me why, I’m just the help.
She watches his pulse spasming and though he can no longer speak he’s still trying to issue commands with the keypads in the gauntlets and then she finally figures out how to evacuate his air supply while keeping his helmet locked down, and now he’s thrashing like a drowning fish, and she blacks out his faceplate, and the armor is recording his agony, which she can’t let his wife see, so she kills the power to his helmet cam, which makes a red light wink off, and with that he finally gives up, and she realizes that she’s taken the last light from his world.
A second passes in which she tries to rise, fails, tries again, and then she pretends that it’s just some switched-off robot on the ground at her feet. Another second passes. Fuck it, she thinks, turning his oxygen back on.
She scrolls a message down his heads-up display:
Corporal Boyd:
I have you
in the palm
of my hand.
You would never
have seen your
daughters again
and your wife
would have had
your ashes.
Remember that.
—IS
She tries to burn out the motors in the armor’s legs but it doesn’t work and the suit’s immune system is resurgent and on the verge of pushing her out when she notices the twelve missiles in the pods on his back and hacks them one by one to detonate on launch instead of impact but only gets seven before the armor finally manages to shut down its wireless and by then she’s running flat out.
Moiré patterns swimming before her eyes, and she finds she’s on the ground again. She picks herself up, though the corridor is spinning, and it occurs to her that she has a serious concussion, needs medical attention, but this isn’t the time and she staggers out through a door into early morning light over the beach, the waves washing softly over the VTOL’s landing gear as its engines spin up and Fabienne is waving from its open door.
As the plane lifts off she sees black plumes of smoke rising over the villa against the blue of morning and now to her horror the armored soldier walks out the door onto the beach. Oops, she thinks, like a child who’s made a mistake. Seven chances in twelve that he’ll just blow himself up if he tries to shoot down the VTOL. Fabienne is beside her at the window, their cheeks almost touching, and this will be a comforting near-intimacy for the last second of their lives if that’s how things go, and she notices that Fabienne’s children are strapped down in their seats in the cabin and that the au pair seems not to have made it. She wonders if she should tell Fabienne but if it’s going to happen it will happen in a moment and there’s nothing more to be done, and in any case she thinks the kids speak English.
She can’t help flinching when the suit opens like a molting insect and Corporal Boyd swarms out and staggers away in a sweat-dark T-shirt and piss-stained shorts and falls to his knees in the sand.
As the plane gains altitude she sees him throw off his clothes and wade naked into the surf, and he’s short and wiry, not the bulky action hero she’d expected, and large swatches of his skin are the coral pink of recently regenerated tissue. She sees the Sumerian winged lion tattooed on his back, and then has a last glimpse of him ducking his head under a wave.
Just blue water out the windows now.
“Why don’t you go visit the pilot’s cabin,” Fabienne says to her children. “I’m sure he’d like to show you how the plane works.” Contention, questions, complaints, but Fabienne says, “Go on, kittens. Shoo,” and behind her patience is a stoniness that makes them very somber and then she closes the door behind them.
Fabienne sits, looks at the closed door, then breaks into wild, wracking, disfiguring sobs.
Irina sits beside her, tentatively pats her back. “It’s okay,” she murmurs.
“Okay?” Fabienne cries, mercifully sotto voce, and it seems a shame that the plane flies so quietly. “My father is dead. My home is gone. My family is broken, and all because of you. How is it okay? What could you possibly offer that would ever make anything okay again?”
Irina thinks it over. “Revenge,” she says.
41
Oublier
Something is missing, Thales thinks, as the car carries him on into the city, and if he can’t articulate this absence then at least there’s the other car, always ahead and just in view, like a thought not quite in focus.