“Why?”
“Because”—I pause as the teacher glances at me and wait for her to look away—“I can’t stop thinking about having sex with him.”
Sara bursts out laughing.
“Ladies!” the teacher barks.
I smile and bite down on my tongue, struggling to remain silent for the rest of the hour.
“Apparently they’re speculating an engagement soon,” she says as we roll up our mats at the end of class.
“Oh.”
“See…” She grabs her phone and scrolls through some pictures. “That’s him a year ago. Dubbed the most eligible NY bachelor. Now they’re saying she may have snagged him for good.” She swipes the screen.
“Then this was taken last week.”
I look at the photo. He’s at some sort of posh black-tie event, his blonde at his side laying a hand on his chest as if she’s claiming him.
My stomach aches.
She tucks the phone back into her pocket as we head to the showers. “If you want him, you need to move fast.”
“I’m not making a move. We’re going to be in business together.”
“He hasn’t made you pick…business or pleasure, has he?” Sara challenges with a quirked brow. “Have both!”
“I cannot have both, so stop with this talk. You talk sex all day only because you’re starved for it.”
“No, you know I’m not. I had sex with the sexiest man alive but since I haven’t been able to figure out his name, I’m saving myself until I find him again.”
I glance at her. “Do you really not know his name? How long ago was this?”
“A few months. His room was booked under a company name. They always send different executives. I really don’t know his name. But that’s all right. I bet he can’t top it a second time. If I can’t find him, then I’d rather keep the memory.”
For a moment she looks wistful, and I realize Sara is actually really into this one-night-stand guy.
“See? You’ve gone celibate, so now you’re trying to make me act like a slut?”
“Christ doesn’t want me. If he wanted me, I’d be all over that.”
“Christ-os,” I correct. “And I should never have told you the story,” I tell her. “It wasn’t like he proposed or professed undying love for me. We were in high school. He was just…interested. And I was scared. It’s been forever now. The end.”
Sara shrugs and we undress, get our towels, and step into the showers. I place myself under the spray, and I picture Aaric touching my bare skin, his mouth tasting me. I dislike the fact that I’m thinking about it, thinking of him. I have my own issues to deal with. I can’t sleep without setting off alarm clocks every two hours in case of a fire. I’m afraid to love because losing the closest people in my life was devastating enough. I can’t risk it. One more loss would destroy me.
Aaric is hardworking, relentless, and gorgeous, but even if he were single, I’m not sure I’d have the courage to go for it. Not with my business also on the line. Not with my heart on the line. So I try not to think of sexy things, like how his lips would feel on mine.
What it would feel like to be the woman on his arm.
I push that thought away and madly scrub shampoo into my scalp.
“Wear something tight tonight. I’m pretty sure guys equate the tighter the dress with the tighter the pussy.”
“That’s seriously not why they like tight dresses.”
“Well, it’s a good theory. Who knows what they think? Maybe your friend Becka knows.”
“How do you know Becka?”
“You told me about her. She’s in Austin writing a sexy book. Right? Rebecca?”
“True. I’ll ask her if you can read it now that you seem so interested,” I say, tongue-in-cheek.
“Girl, I need no sexy books in my life if I’m not getting any sexy. What do you want to do with me, make me tackle the doorman?”
“We don’t have a doorman.”
“That’s right, but the building across from us does.” She smirks.
“Oh, Sara.” I laugh and head into my closet, trying to keep the laughter alive and ignore how nervous I am about this meeting with Aaric.
She’s right though. I should definitely ask Becka to let me read her stuff in private late at night or I’ll end up tackling Aaric Christos.
Christos 13 years ago…
“Hey. You there, mechanic boy? Come fix my car,” some douchebag yells.
I’m bent over a hood when something hits me on the shoulder. I glance at my shoulder, then at the floor, where a banana peel has fallen.
I raise my head to find some dude giving me shit. I give him the finger before I notice something move next to him.
Bryn Kelly.
My stomach freezes. She smiles at me apologetically from the front seat.
I don’t smile.
Hell, I can’t stand to see her with him.
I keep working, but the asshole won’t take no for an answer.
“Hey. You. Fix my car now? I have a hot date waiting.”
“Kyle, stop,” she hisses angrily.
I slam the hood closed. She jumps a little. I look at her, then at him, and walk forward.
I knock on his hood. “Open up,” I say.
He does. “Now we’re talking,” he says, clearly pleased.
I lean over, fiddle with the cables, and slam it closed.
“We’re done.”
“How much do I owe you?” He counts his bills.
“On the house.” I smirk as I walk back to the shop then watch him through the corner of my eye as he tries to start it. Nothing happens. “Asshole. I just needed the oil changed. Now it won’t fucking start!”
I grab a cloth and wipe my fingers as I head back to the vintage I’m working on. From under the hood, I hear him ranting.
“I’ll fucking sue you! I’ll sue you for your damned life!”
Bryn has hopped out and is on the phone. Ten minutes later, her father picks her up. She opens the door to his truck and raises her head to look at me. I stop working and watch her.
I watch the way she climbs into the car, the way she nervously explains what happened to her dad, and the way she looks at me before they drive off.
As they pull away, she smiles to herself. A sweet, shy smile I feel all the way down to my goddamned testicles.
Moron Kyle charges forward. “You got a hard-on for Bryn Kelly?”
I say nothing. Bend back over my work.
He’s trying to pick a fight, but I’ve got better things to do.
“She’s too good for you.” He spits on the motor.
I straighten, grab my rag, and wipe it off. He slams inside to speak to the manager. I can get fired—but I know I won’t be. I work weekends, I work nights, I work for free. I work to forget my mom is sick and my future and Cole’s looks like shit. I work because I’m good at it. But despite myself, I frown from irritation.
Because this girl I want? She is too good for me. But I’ve got plans, and a shit ton of ambition, and if I have my way—which I plan to—I won’t always be a grease monkey.
One day, I’ll own the land morons like this walk on.
Bryn