Lily sits—uninvited—on the stool next to mine. “I’m glad. I wanted to make sure you enjoyed the show, because I’m new here. I only started a few weeks ago.”
The revelation surprises me. “Never would’ve guessed. You’re a natural.”
Her smile gets wider. “Wow, you’re so sweet.” Her voice drops to a whisper, as if she were about to spill top-secret information. “But I’m not really a stripper, you know.”
I look around the room. Then I look her up and down. “Is it some elaborate game of make-believe?”
She laughs. “I’m a student, actually. This is my last year at the University of Nevada.”
I remark drily, “A student stripping her way through college? How very stereotypical of you.”
She rolls her eyes. Not unlike the way Kate does frequently. “I waitressed at Hooters for a year. But with the economy the way it is, they had cutbacks. And I got let go last month.”
“I always thought tits and ass were recession-proof.”
She shrugs and sips her drink. “Didn’t we all.”
I toy with the napkin on the bar, feeling Lily’s eyes appraising me. “What?”
“You just . . . you’re nothing like the other grooms I’ve seen in this place. They acted like I was their last meal before the execution. But you’re different. It’s nice.”
Although she seems sincere, I’m suspicious of the nice-girl-just-trying-to-get-by act. Strippers get naked for money—that’s the job. They get more money if the customers like them—if the stripper can make them feel they’re special. Different. “I don’t do this for just any guy,” they say, and—bam—before the loser knows it, his whole paycheck is down the drain.
Or up the crotch, in this case.
Lily puts her hand on my leg, and she starts to rub—moving higher and higher. “How about we go in the back for a private dance? I’ll even do you for free. It’ll be my pleasure.”
What’d I tell you? Can I call them, or can I call them?
I stop her wandering hand with my own. “I can’t.”
She leans toward me and tries again. “Sure you can.”
But I hold my ground. “I could. But I won’t.”
She stops, finally getting the point. Looking a little confused, she asks, “Do you have one of those crazy, controlling fiancées? The kind that makes you promise no lap dances, even at your bachelor party?”
I shake my head. “Not at all. I don’t think she’d be pissed. But . . . I think she’d be hurt.”
That’s what no one tells you about being in love. Sure it’s grand and amazing and feels fucking fantastic. But there’s stress too. Obligation. Responsibility. The knowledge that someone else’s happiness—someone who means so much to you—can be made or destroyed by the choices you make. By the things you do.
Or in my case, the things you don’t.
“I’ve done that before—made a bad call. Hurt her. And I’m determined not to ever do it again.”
Lily’s eyes glaze over with admiration. She’s probably not used to talking to a guy who isn’t a complete and utter dickweed. For her, it must be like when those scientists in the sixties first realized apes were capable of learning sign language. A revelation.
She kisses her fingertip and presses it to my cheek. “I hope your fiancée knows how lucky she is, Drew.”
I smirk. “I make sure to remind her every day.”
She smiles longingly. Then her gaze turns to the other end of the room, where an expensive-suit-wearing older gentleman sits by himself, looking all kinds of lonely.
She hops off the bar chair. “Duty calls.” In a flurry of dark hair, she walks away.
My eyes follow her as she goes. And, thank Christ, my dick doesn’t move an inch.
Before she reaches her destination, I get an idea. Practice makes perfect—and there’s no better practice run than a newly minted stripper.
I call her back. “I’m gonna pay for that private dance after all.”
Her eyes light up. “Okay.”
“But it’s not for me.”
I guide her to the back room, where Warren is playing poker—badly—with Steven, Jack, and Matthew. “Hey, douche bag, have you ever had a private dance?”
Suspicion washes over his face, probably thinking I’m setting him up to be the butt of a joke. Not that he needs any help in that department. “No, I haven’t. Why?”
I smile and motion to each of them with my hand. “Lily, this is Billy. Billy—Lily.”
Warren stands and Lily loops her arm around his. “First timer, huh? I’ll take good care of you.”
I’m just racking up the good deeds today, aren’t I? I tap both their shoulders. “You kids have fun.”
As they walk away together, I hear Warren ask, “Have you heard the one about the priest and the rabbi in a bar?”
I close my eyes and shake my head. Fucking hopeless.