The You I've Never Known

Sorry, Garrett, no show for you. You’ll have to do what you always do and find it on pay-per-view.”

I steer Monica around Garrett and Keith, off the sidewalk, and into the parking lot. “What were you thinking?

He could have hurt you.”

No estaba pensando.

I wasn’t thinking. I just wanted to protect you.





I Don’t Care Who’s Looking


I reach for her hand, weave my fingers into hers as we head toward Syrah’s car. “That was dumb. But thank you.”

What’s his problem, anyway?

I shrug. “Maybe you got it right. They say the biggest homophobes are often

closet queers.”

Who says that?

“I don’t know. I just read it somewhere. You take shotgun.”

I let go of her hand, slide into the backseat where I can think.

While Monica explains to Syrah what happened with Garrett, I consider the homophobe theory, which can’t apply to all of them, or my dad would be totally gay.

Pretty sure he’s not, but wouldn’t that be crazy? What if my queer gene came from his side of the family?





When We Get to My House


There’s a strange car in the driveway.

What’s even weirder, Dad isn’t home,

and I don’t see anyone around. “Do

you guys think there’s someone inside?”

I don’t know, says Monica. You and your dad lock your doors, don’t you?

“Yeah. Dad’s all paranoid about it,

in fact. Kind of obsessive compulsive.”

Syrah jumps out. One way to know.

Come on. There’s safety in numbers.

We circle the house, looking for any

sign of a break-in, but the windows

are intact, both doors still locked, and we find no hint of possible covert entry, so I use my key and one by one, we cross the threshold to take a look inside. The house is empty. Let’s check out the car, Monica suggests. Hope there’s no dead bodies inside.

That’s dumb, says Syrah. Who leaves corpses in some stranger’s driveway?





We Don’t Find Corpses


But on the front seat

of the candy-red Ford

Focus is an envelope,

and it’s addressed to me.

Inside is a thank-you

card, and a note which

reads:

DEAR ARIEL,

I REALLY CAN’T THANK YOU

ENOUGH FOR WHAT YOU DID

FOR HILLARY. PLEASE ACCEPT

THIS GENTLY USED TOKEN

OF MY THANKS. I’VE TAKEN

THE LIBERTY OF REGISTERING

THE CAR IN YOUR NAME AND

PAID UP THE INSURANCE FOR

SIX MONTHS. ENJOY!

CHARLES GRANTHAM

P.S. I TOLD THEM YOU WERE

MY NIECE, SO PLEASE LET’S KEEP

THAT OUR SECRET. ALSO, TO BE

HONEST, THIS WAS HILLARY’S

CAR. SHE’S GETTING A NEW ONE.

IT WAS HER IDEA TO GIVE THIS

TO YOU.





No Freaking Way!


Hillary Grantham’s given me

her car? This has got to be

some kind of joke. The girls and I exchange incredulous

looks. “This can’t be real, can it?”

Sure looks real to me, comments Syrah. And “gently used” is right.

The odometer only has 38,000 miles. She opens the glove box and pulls

out the owner’s manual.

It’s a 2012. Hillary must’ve only driven it to school.

“I don’t think I can keep

it. It’s way too extravagant.

Besides, I didn’t do anything to earn it. Not really.” Even if I did, what’ll Dad say?

What? You saved Hillary’s life. Do you want to hurt her feelings? Anyway, you gotta keep it. He put it in your name and everything, so it’s already yours.





Every Argument


I can think of gets shot down: “I still don’t have my license.”

So get one. All you have to do is pass the driving test. You know how.

“Dad’ll have to sign for it.

(Which means he’ll have to

approve this whole thing.)”

Talk him into it. How can he say no? He won’t have to take you places.

“Even with the insurance

paid, I’ll have to come up

with money for gas.”

Do what everyone does.

Go out and find a job.

“Dad doesn’t want me

to work. He insists he’s

responsible for my needs.”

Point out if you’re earning your spending cash, he’ll have more of his own money to spend on booze. Or maybe say Zelda instead. No need to underline the obvious.





Excellent Point


Not that I’m sure it—any of it—

will work. But, hey, what have

I got to lose, and I already know where I can apply for a job I’d like.

Syrah hatches a more imminent

plan. Let’s take her for a spin.

The keys are in the ignition.

You might as well get used to her.

“You think we should? What if

we get caught?” We most definitely shouldn’t, of course. But I really, really want to. I still can’t believe it.

No cops out here, insists Monica.

Anyway, don’t drive like an ass.

They can’t tell if you got a license just by looking at you, can they?

Another excellent point.

“Okay. Let’s go.” The girls argue over shotgun, and eventually

reach a compromise. Syrah

will claim it first, then switch, with Monica on the inbound.

It takes a few minutes to orient

to the strange vehicle, figure out important stuff like how to turn on the heater, not to mention

the radio. I let Syrah take charge of choosing the station. It’s late afternoon, and the November

light has faded into an auburn

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