The High King’s personal guard follows us at a distance. Questions run through my mind—how was he poisoned? Who actually put whatever he drank in his hand? When did it happen?
Grabbing a servant in the hall, I send out runners for the Bomb and, if they are unable to find her, an alchemist.
“You’re going to be okay,” I say.
“You know,” he says, hanging on to me. “That ought to be reassuring. But when mortals say it, it doesn’t mean the same thing as when the Folk do, does it? For you, it’s an appeal. A kind of hopeful magic. You say I will be well because you fear I won’t be.”
For a moment, I don’t speak. “You’re poisoned,” I say finally. “You know that, right?”
He doesn’t startle. “Ah,” he says. “Balekin.”
I say nothing, just set him down before the fire in my rooms, his back against my couch. He looks odd there, his beautiful clothes a contrast to the plain rug, his face pale with a hectic flush in his cheeks.
He reaches up and presses my hand to his face. “It’s funny, isn’t it, how I mocked you for your mortality when you’re certain to outlive me.”
“You’re not going to die,” I insist.
“Oh, how many times have I wished that you couldn’t lie? Never more than now.”
He lolls to one side, and I grab one of the pitchers of water and pour a glass full. I bring it to his lips. “Cardan? Get down as much as you can.”
He doesn’t reply and seems about to fall asleep. “No.” I pat his cheek with increasing force until it’s more of a smack. “You’ve got to stay awake.”
His eyes open. His voice is muzzy. “I’ll just sleep for a little while.”
“Unless you want to wind up like Severin of Fairfold, encased in glass for centuries while mortals line up to take pictures with his body, you’re going to stay awake.”
He shifts into a more upright sitting position. “Fine,” he says. “Talk to me.”
“I saw your mother tonight,” I say. “All dressed up. The time I saw her before that was in the Tower of Forgetting.”
“And you’re wondering if I forgot her?” he says airily, and I am pleased that he’s paying enough attention to deliver one of his typical quips.
“Glad you’re up to mocking.”
“I hope it’s the last thing about me to go. So tell me about my mother.”
I try to think of something to say that isn’t entirely negative. I go for carefully neutral. “The first time I met her, I didn’t know who she was. She wanted to trade me some information for getting her out of the Tower. And she was afraid of you.”
“Good,” he says.
My eyebrows go up. “So how did she wind up a part of your Court?”
“I suppose I have some fondness for her yet,” he admits. I pour him some more water, and he drinks it more slowly than I’d like. I refill the glass as soon as I can.
“There are so many questions I wish I could ask my mom,” I admit.
“What would you ask?” The words slur together, but he gets them out.
“Why she married Madoc,” I say, pointing to the glass, which he obediently brings to his mouth. “Whether she loved him and why she left him and whether she was happy in the human world. Whether she actually murdered someone and hid her body in the burnt remains of Madoc’s original stronghold.”
He looks surprised. “I always forget that part of the story.”
I decide a subject change is in order. “Do you have questions like that for your father?”
“Why am I the way I am?” His tone makes it clear he’s proposing something I might suggest he ask, not really wondering about it. “There are no real answers, Jude. Why was I cruel to Folk? Why was I awful to you? Because I could be. Because I liked it. Because, for a moment, when I was at my worst, I felt powerful, and most of the time, I felt powerless, despite being a prince and the son of the High King of Faerie.”
“That’s an answer,” I say.
“Is it?” And then, after a moment. “You should go.”
“Why?” I ask, annoyed. For one, this is my room. For another, I am trying to keep him alive.
He looks at me solemnly. “Because I am going to retch.”
I grab for the bucket, and he takes it from me, his whole body convulsing with the force of vomiting. The contents of his stomach appear like matted leaves, and I shudder. I didn’t know wraithberry did that.
There’s a knock on the door, and I go to it. The Bomb is there, out of breath. I let her in, and she moves past me, straight to Cardan.
“Here,” she says, pulling out a little vial. “It’s clay. It may help draw out and contain the toxins.”
Cardan nods and takes it from her, swallowing the contents with a grimace. “It tastes like dirt.”
“It is dirt,” she informs him. “And there’s something else. Two things, really. Grimsen was already gone from his forge when we tried to capture him. We have to assume the worst—that he’s with Orlagh.