Zeke laid Jilly down on the cot. Her eyes were closed but she whimpered, her little face contorted in pain.
“It’s not exactly like it was with Butchie,” he said. “Butchie couldn’t breathe. She’s breathing all right, at least so far.”
“I can’t lose another baby,” Honor said, more to the air than to either Zeke or myself. She stood at the end of the cot in a brown and gold dress, rubbing her hands together, her gaze on her daughter. Zeke went to her side and put his arm around her.
“She’s gonna be all right,” he promised her, as though he could somehow make that a reality.
I pulled a chair across the room for Honor. She looked like she needed to get off her feet and indeed she sank into the chair almost before I had it behind her. I began a preliminary examination of Jilly, taking her temperature, which was very high, and checking her reflexes, which were normal, at least so far. I knew how quickly polio could worsen. I’d seen too much of it in the past few days. I jotted my findings down on a chart.
A few minutes later, Dr. Matthews came out of the curtained area and walked immediately over to us.
“This is Honor Johnson and her brother, Zeke, and Honor’s little girl, Jilly,” I said. “Honor’s son, Butchie, passed away from polio four weeks ago.”
“Five weeks,” Honor corrected me.
“Unlikely it was the same virus after all this time,” Dr. Matthews said gruffly as he checked my preliminary findings on Jilly’s chart. “Just bad luck.”
I’d come to think Dr. Matthews was a good doctor who dealt well with his young patients, but he didn’t have the best bedside manner when it came to the parents. He was also very tired. We all were.
He examined Jilly, whose eyes were now open and who submitted to his poking and prodding with little more than a whimper, while I jotted his findings down on her chart.
“I believe it’s polio,” he said after a few minutes, “but her reflexes are very good. It appears to be a minor case.”
“Minor?” Honor asked. “She’ll get better?”
“It’s encouraging, Honor,” I said. “Hopefully it will be very mild.”
Dr. Matthews looked at me. “We’ll admit her,” he said. “Call someone to take her to the ward.”
“Can I go with her?” Honor asked. There was so much hope in her eyes, but I could tell she knew better, having been through this once before.
I shook my head. “I’m sorry,” I said.
“She’s just a baby.” Honor choked on the word, and I rested my hand on her shoulder. I ached for every parent who had to leave his or her child with us, a group of strangers, but knowing what Honor had gone through with Butchie made her pain even more palpable to me.
“I’ll get assigned to her,” I promised. “I’ll be the one to take care of her.”
She turned her face away from me to look at her brother as though he might be able to change what was happening.
“I’m working here,” he said to her. “I can go into the ward. I’ll watch her.”
I nodded. “That’s right. That’s good,” I said. Zeke was doing much of the maintenance in the hospital, and there was plenty to do. “You can carry her into the ward, if you like, Zeke,” I said.
*
I settled Jilly in the ward. It saddened me to see her so lethargic, too tired even to cry when her uncle Zeke had to leave her alone in that crowded ward filled with bustling nurses, sleeping—and often weeping—children, and the ever-present whooshing of the iron lung. Once she had fallen asleep, I carried my egg salad sandwich outside to eat it on one of the rudimentary benches that had been constructed in the shade. Through the trees, I could see men, my husband included, working on the military tents that would become our new wards.
I spotted Honor sitting alone on a nearby bench. I had no idea she was still on the hospital grounds. I walked over and sat down next to her.
“Are you waiting for a ride home?” I asked.
She shook her head. “I’m not going home,” she said, wearing a determined expression. “I’m staying right here. As close to Jilly as they’ll let me.”
“You need some rest, Honor,” I said. “It won’t do Jilly any good if you get sick too.” How many times had I said those words to how many mothers in the past few days?
“I’m fine,” she said, but then she began to cry, her head buried in her hands.
I rested my palm on her shoulder. “Dr. Matthews doesn’t think it will be like it was with Butchie,” I said. “Most cases of polio don’t result in paralysis. Most children recover completely.” I prayed he was right. I didn’t want to give her false hope.
She finally lifted her head, tears dangling like jewels from those long black eyelashes. “We got rid of all Butchie’s things,” she said. “We did everything we were told to do. How could she get it? How? It’s just not fair.”
“You’re right, it’s not,” I said. “I guess there’s still a lot we don’t know about polio, but I do know she’s in the right place. The doctors here are good and we have plenty of nurses now. We have people doing research to try to figure out what causes the disease and…” I stopped myself. She didn’t need to hear all of that. She was only thinking about her little baby girl.
“Jilly’s father,” I said. “Del, right? I know you couldn’t reach him after Butchie … passed away, but I wonder if there’s a way to get him home now? They have compassionate leave in the service. I know it’s hard to get, but maybe under these circumstances—”
“I don’t want him to know,” she said. “He’ll be worried. He doesn’t need more to worry about.”
“I understand,” I said. I thought of getting her mind off Jilly. “How did you two meet?” I asked.
She looked into the distance, toward the woods. “I’ve known him all my life,” she said. “We came up in the same church. Our mamas were friends.” A small smile played on her lips at the thought of him. I wished I could tell her about Vincent. I wished I could tell her that I understood how it felt to love someone you’d known all your life.
“I’m sorry he’s so far away,” I said instead, and her look darkened again.
“All my baby girl’s toys and dolls have to be destroyed,” she said.
“Yes,” I said, thinking of the doll Jilly loved so much. “And I’m so sorry you and your mother will be under quarantine again. It must be—”
“No,” she said with a shake of her head. “The public health man came out to talk to me and said we don’t need to be quarantined this time. We’re most likely immune, he said. But he still said I can’t go in the ward. I don’t understand why not.”
I didn’t really understand either. I thought the rules were being applied haphazardly these days. Why could Zeke come and go in the hospital but Honor could not? Why, for that matter, could I come and go as I pleased? But the rules were the rules and none of us seemed to have the time or energy to buck them.
“I know it doesn’t seem to make sense,” I said, “but—”