She and John. Me and Harry.
It could actually work. It could work so beautifully.
And if I couldn’t have her, did I want anyone else? I was pretty sure that if I couldn’t have her, all I wanted was a life with Harry.
“OK,” I said. “Let’s do it.”
Another car came up behind us, and Harry grabbed me again. This time, he kissed me slowly, passionately. When a guy jumped out of his car with a camera, Harry pretended, just for a split second, that he didn’t see him and slipped his hand down the top of my dress.
The image printed in the papers the next week was tawdry, scandalous, and shocking. It showed us with swollen faces and looks of guilt, Harry’s hand clearly on my breast.
The next day, everyone was printing headlines that Joy Nathan was pregnant.
The four of us were the talk of the nation.
Unscrupulous, unfaithful, lustful sinners.
Carolina Sunset set a record for the longest stay in theaters. And to celebrate our divorce, Rex and I shared a pair of dirty martinis.
“To our successful union,” Rex said. And then we clinked our glasses and drank.
IT IS THREE IN THE morning by the time I get home. Evelyn had downed four cups of coffee and apparently felt wired enough to keep talking.
I could have bowed out at any point, but on some level, I think I welcomed the excuse not to go back to my own life for a little while. Being wrapped up in digesting Evelyn’s story means I don’t have to exist in my own.
And anyway, it’s not my place to go making the rules. I picked my battle. I won. The rest is up to her.
So when I get home, I crawl into bed and will myself to fall asleep quickly. My last thought as I go to sleep is that I am relieved I have a valid excuse for why I haven’t responded to David’s text yet.
I’m woken up by my cell phone ringing, and I look at the time. It’s almost nine. It’s Saturday. I was hoping to sleep in.
My phone shows my mother’s face smiling at me. It’s not quite six her time. “Mom? Is everything OK?”
“Of course it is,” she says, as if she’s calling at noon. “I just wanted to try to catch you and say hi before you headed out for the day.”
“It’s not even six A.M. where you are,” I say. “And it’s the weekend. I’m mostly planning on sleeping in and transcribing some of my hours of Evelyn recordings.”
“We had a small earthquake about a half hour ago, and now I can’t go back to sleep. How is it going with Evelyn? I feel weird calling her Evelyn. Like I know her or something.”
I tell her about getting Frankie to agree to a promotion. I tell her that I got Evelyn to agree to a cover story.
“You’re telling me you went up against the editor in chief of Vivant and Evelyn Hugo both within twenty-four hours? And you came out getting what you want from everyone?”
I laugh, surprised at how impressive it sounds. “Yeah,” I say. “I guess I did.”
My mom lets out what can only be described as a cackle. “That’s my girl!” she says. “Oof, let me tell you, your father would be beaming right now if he were here. Would just be glowing with pride. He always knew you were going to be a force to be reckoned with.”
I wonder if this is true, not because my mom has ever really lied to me but because it’s just so hard for me to imagine. I can see my dad thinking I’d grow up to be kind or smart; that makes sense. But I’ve never thought of myself as a force to be reckoned with. Maybe I should start thinking of myself that way; maybe I deserve to.
“I kind of am, aren’t I? Don’t mess with me, world. I’m out to get mine.”
“That’s right, honey. That you are.”
As I tell my mom I love her and hang up the phone, I feel proud of myself, smug even.
I have no idea that in less than a week, Evelyn Hugo will finish her story, and I’ll find out what this has all been about, and I will hate her so much that I’ll be truly afraid I might kill her.
Brilliant, Kindhearted, Tortured Harry Cameron
I WAS NOMINATED FOR BEST Actress for Carolina Sunset.
The only problem was that Celia was nominated that year, too.
I showed up on the red carpet with Harry. We were engaged. He’d given me a diamond and emerald ring. It stood out against the black beaded dress I wore that night. Two slits on either side of the skirt went up to my mid-thigh. I loved that dress.
And so did everyone else. I’ve noticed that when people do retrospectives of my career, photos of me in that dress always make it in somehow. I made sure it would be included in the auction. I think it could raise a lot of money.
It makes me happy that people love that dress as much as I do. I lost an Oscar, but it ended up being one of the greatest nights of my life.
Celia arrived just before the show began. She was wearing a pale blue strapless gown with a sweetheart neckline. The color of her hair against the dress was striking. When my eyes set on her, for the first time in nearly five years, I found myself breathless.
I’d gone to see every single one of Celia’s movies, even though I was loath to admit it. So I had seen her.
But no medium can capture what it is to be in someone’s presence, certainly not someone like her. Someone who makes you feel important simply because she’s choosing to look at you.
There was something stately about her, at the age of twenty-eight. She was mature and dignified. She looked like the kind of person who knew exactly who she was.
She stepped forward and took John Braverman’s arm. In a tux that seemed to strain at his broad shoulders, John looked as all-American as a husk of corn. They were a gorgeous couple. No matter how false it all was.
“Ev, you’re staring,” Harry said as he pushed me into the theater.
“Sorry,” I said. “Thank you.”
As we took our seats, we smiled and waved to everyone seated around us. Joy and Rex were a few rows behind us, and I waved politely, knowing people were watching, knowing that if I ran up and hugged them, people might be confused.
When we sat down, Harry said, “If you win, will you talk to her?”
I laughed. “And gloat?”
“No, but you’d have the upper hand that you seem to so desperately want.”
“She left me.”
“You slept with someone.”
“For her.”
Harry frowned at me as if I was missing the point.
“Fine, if I win, I’ll talk to her.”
“Thank you.”
“Why are you thanking me?”
“Because I want you to be happy, and it appears I have to reward you for doing things in your own favor.”
“Well, if she wins, I’m not saying a single word to her.”
“If she wins,” Harry said delicately, “which is a big if, and she comes and talks to you, I will hold you down and force you to listen and speak back.”
I couldn’t look directly at him. I was feeling defensive.
“It’s a moot point anyway,” I said. “Everyone knows they’re going to give it to Ruby, because they feel bad she didn’t get it last year for The Dangerous Flight.”
“They might not,” Harry said.