“Please just tell me—”
He charged at her. Long fingers closed around her throat like a cuff. Shahrzad wrapped both hands around his wrist, trying to stay his grip. She stared back into his flame-filled eyes, determined not to flinch.
She was not afraid. This boy—this skinny man-child—was far more afraid than she would ever be. The sweat fell in steady trickles down either side of his face.
“How could you possibly understand?” He was shaking so hard it made his voice quake. “You’re alive. The monster let you live!”
With his other hand, he placed the tip of her dagger beside her chin. The blade was still ensconced in its jeweled sheath.
“Where did you get this?” Teymur examined the delicate etchings carved into the scabbard. He ran his thumb along the seed pearls and the tiny garnets embedded in the hilt. The emeralds at its base flashed with an evil light.
“Teymur—”
“Is it his?” His gaze moved from the dagger back to Shahrzad. “Did he give it to you?”
She said nothing.
“Answer me.” He shook her by the throat. “You promised me answers!”
“Yes. He gave it to me.”
“And if I kill you with it?” His voice drained to a whisper. “Like he killed my Roya.”
Shahrzad swallowed thickly. She knew that name.
One of so many. One in a sea of scattered letters.
In a storm of remembrances.
“I’m so sorry.”
“Don’t you dare apologize!” The tips of his fingers pushed into her skin.
His pain radiated through Shahrzad, from his hand to her heart, touching an old wound that would never fully heal.
Shiva.
“What do you want from me?” she asked, her eyes squeezed shut, barring him from her pain, if only for a moment more.
“The truth.”
She swallowed again. “What do you wish to know?”
“Where your loyalties lie. Do you matter to Khalid Ibn al-Rashid?” He spat the name as though it were a curse. “Does he care for you?”
“I cannot speak to his feelings. He guards them well.” A half-truth. She could manage this, if pressed further. The blood returned to her clenched fingers in a rush.
“Then speak to your own. Does the monster matter to you?”
Lie.
“No.” Shahrzad locked her jaw. “He does not.”
“So you belong to the White Falcon still?”
“I belong to me.”
“Where is your heart, Shahrzad al-Khayzuran?” His voice was coarse in its insistence.
In an alley by the souk. In a night of oblivion.
In the promise of tomorrow.
“With . . . Tariq Imran al-Ziyad.” The lie burned on her tongue. “Where it always will be.” She kept her eyes closed, knowing they might betray her.
Teymur took in a harsh breath. It rattled in his chest, then filled the space between them, hot and fetid. In, then out. Twice more.
At his silence, a sense of unease kindled within her.
He pulled her close. Too close. His warm breath prickled her forehead.
“Did the monster . . . hurt Roya?”
In his sudden closeness, she understood his meaning.
And was horrified by it.
Her eyes flashed open. “He didn’t touch her.”
He studied her in awful stillness. So very close. Her pulse ratcheted in her throat, pounding with a restless incessancy.
“You told him stories. As you are telling me stories now.”
His resolve firmed as he spoke. And Shahrzad knew she could no longer stand idle. Knocking his arm aside, she rammed into his shoulder and made to flee.
With vicious precision, Teymur seized her tight, taking her feet out from under her and slamming Shahrzad to the ground. All the air was knocked from her chest. She gasped once, the pain in her side searing as she struggled to catch her breath.
For the first time, a cold wave of fear coursed down her back.
This skinny weasel of a boy was stronger than she. He was tall and wily. And she could not fight him off forever. Nor could she reason with him.
But perhaps there was another way. A way of diversion and lies.
A surge of fury chased after the fear. Shahrzad gripped the wrist at her throat, digging her nails into his skin.
Whatever lingering pity she might have had for him melted in her rage.
The indelible line had deepened to a chasm.
He was preying upon the basest of fears. A fear Shahrzad had long held in the darkest recesses of her mind.
“What are you doing, Teymur?” She fought to keep her voice steady.
The two sides of the man-child battled for control as he glared down at her. He was so very afraid, blustering and shuddering through this hard-won triumph.
She would not lie here in silence as he warred with his convictions.
“Are you going to rape me,” Shahrzad demanded, “or are you merely trying to frighten me with the thought? And what do you hope to achieve by such uninspired villainy?”
Teymur winced at her boldness. Her nerve at bringing his shameful intentions to light.
Shahrzad knew her taunts were foolish. Knew they might further provoke him. But she could not—would not—comply in the face of such cowardice.