Errigal cleared his throat, soft and uncomfortable with emotional weight. “Remain here, sir, with your men. Errigal welcomes you, as you always have been.”
“No.” Connley took his wife’s hand. “Lear—you may stay, but not all your men. We will not welcome more than our sister Gaela would allow. We’ll not undercut her authority in the matter. For now we will rule together, and our word is your law.”
“I would rather sleep roofless!” the king bellowed. “I would rather sleep in a barn or pasture with sheep, than sleep one night under a roof with such an ungrateful daughter!”
Errigal took Lear’s elbow. “My king, come away to rest with me.”
“Do you turn out this lying wretch and her snake husband?” The sorrow and hope in the king’s wet, wide eyes took Regan’s breath away. She clutched her Connley’s hand and waited for Errigal to save or condemn himself.
Errigal grimaced. “Lord, no. Connley is my patron, you know, a duke by your own word, and your queenly daughter’s husband. They must be welcome here, by the will of the stars. And your own. As are you!”
As Lear tore free, a piece of his voluminous sleeve caught on Errigal’s belt: it ripped, and the sound seemed to shock him further. “Ah! Ah!” He reeled toward his Fool.
“Come, sir, stay,” Regan said again, feeling the swell of some mean, yet familiar, power. “Let us take care of you, for you are old and need us desperately. There will be a fire for you, and wine, furs for your shaking limbs, and look here, I am certain you can have Errigal’s star-reader at your disposal. Rely upon our generosity, for I will be as good to you as you were to my mother.”
“I am king! My will is as sure as the constellations above!”
Triumph surged like a cold waterfall. “King no more,” Regan said. “But only titled father. And stars can fall, while roots grow.”
“I gave you all,” Lear said.
“And in good time,” Regan answered.
“Who will you pass our crown to, then, my barren daughter?” the king asked, softly, almost as if he were sad. “You and your star-cursed sister, my empty girls.”
Regan stepped backward, unprepared.
Ban Errigal strode out of the shadows, ready to draw. The duke of Connley held his palm toward Ban, low and warning, anger in his tight jaw.
“Get out,” Regan whispered.
“What?”
“Get out!” she cried.
“You are not welcome where my wife has declared it.” Connley backed her with his body, firm at her side. He always had, even when, as now, it crashed his own driving game. He would be a curtain wall around Regan’s heart.
The king threw his hands up. “Ah, heaven! What star is this, rising above worm-eaten branches? First my Elia and now the others!”
Errigal put his arm about the old king. Blotches of red showed against the earl’s rough white cheeks. He said, “I know this pain, royal sir. Stay and I will share its burden.”
“Yes, stay I shall, with my men at my side.”
Regan would not bend, not now, not while her womb clenched with desperation, and while her own father, having seeded this pain, stood condemning her, throwing her greatest tragedy against her even as he warped and twisted his own into destiny. She would never forgive this, as she had never forgiven Dalat’s absence.
Stars had ignored her birth, and so Regan was free, was aflame, burning cold as any star or sword of destiny. She said, “You will stay by my mercy only, Father! Your star is eclipsed. You and you alone—none of your men—can here remain.”
“Then I will not stay!” Lear pressed knobby hands to his face and spoke more, but it was unintelligible. He threw off Errigal’s touch and spun to leave the hall, crowing and crying for his Fool.
He is truly mad, Regan thought, lightheaded herself, as if floating apart from her body—but for the constant ache, ache, ache of her womb.
Errigal paused in his trailing the king to say to Connley and Regan, “I’ll make sure he sets his head down in some safe place, my lord, my lady, have no worries on it.”
“Not in this place,” Regan cried, sick at the poison of his nearness.
“See him out, and no more,” ordered Connley.
The earl frowned before hurrying in the king’s wake again.
Regan saw Ban the Fox in the center of the hall, gripping his sword and staring after the king with something like horror and something like glee. She went to him and touched the hot back of his neck. He startled, but relaxed when he realized it was her. “Good riddance,” she murmured. Her thumb stroked below Ban’s ear, and he shivered.
The great hall door shut behind the three older men, its dull echo making the following silence more profound. Regan felt as if she’d been scathed clean with a rough knife. Ready for new growth.
She should have done that long ago.
“He’ll take the king to Hartfare,” Ban said.
Connley joined them, a sneer of disdain nearly ruining his handsome face. “Not with all those retainers.”
“What did Gaela want from this?” Ban asked, though gently, as if truly asking himself.
“Power,” Regan murmured, heady with it. Though she thought of the line of distress in Gaela’s letter, and wondered if Gaela had truly thrown their father out instead for not knowing how else to react. Her elder sister was a strong fighter, but not always strategic in the moment of passion. But Regan would not reveal that weakness to Ban the Fox. Not yet.
“To discover what you would do?” Ban answered himself.
“And what shall we do?” Connley asked. “We must discover Errigal’s true allegiance—to us or the old king. That will affect our course. We need Errigal firmly before we can act against Astore.”
Ban turned to them. “You know my own.”
Regan nodded slowly, dragging her thoughts off her beloved sister and toward the future. “I have bled all day, so tonight we will go to the heath and make your magic. Tomorrow, we will deal with Gaela, and my father, and yours, and with everything else that will come.”
“You are ready, lady?” Ban asked, earnest eyes studying her.
“Completely.”
“I will go to prepare,” he said sharply, and with Connley’s nod, left them.
Regan did not move. She thought of little but of the angry White Forest her father certainly walked into, where the stars had no power, and of the black sky that would appear overhead soon, when the sun sank. The waning moon would obliterate the stars.
Connley pressed against her back, wrapping his arms around her middle. “Are you all right, my love?”
Leaning into him, she shook her head. “No. But…” She reached up to touch his face, skimming her fingernails along his jaw, to his ear, and finally into the thick crop of golden hair on his head. She squeezed it into a fist, and he hissed his pleasure. “But I will be.”
ELIA
IN SOME PLACES, Lionis felt like a labyrinth, so unlike the flat mud roads and shadowed moors and jagged rocks of Innis Lear.