My jaw nearly hit the table. “You...did what?”
“We didn’t go into detail, Mallory, and we only met with your teachers, the principal and Mrs. Dehaven, one of the counselors,” Rosa explained. “It’s just so they could keep an eye on you, just in case anything happened that we needed to know about.”
Only everyone! Oh my God. Skin tingling and itchy, I sat back in the chair. I stared at them without really seeing them. All I could see was all these people knowing about my difficulties the whole week when this was supposed to be a fresh start.
“They needed to know,” Carl said.
That was stated like it was a fact, and I begged to differ. My tongue untangled.
“We worked out a deal with Mr. Santos during yesterday’s call,” he continued, and my tongue went right back to the roof of my mouth. “He completely understands, Mallory. I want you to know that. He understands how difficult it will be for you to get in front of that class and speak.”
I might’ve stopped breathing.
“Speech is a requirement for graduation, but they’ve made concessions for students before,” Rosa said, her voice soft. “And Mr. Santos was more than willing to do so in this case.”
I stiffened. “But—”
“He agreed that instead of you having to give your speeches in front of the class with the rest of the students, you’ll have a set time to give them only to him,” Carl explained, and I might’ve been having an out-of-body experience. “That way you’ll be able to keep up with the assignments, but on your terms.”
Rosa patted my arm. “This is good news.”
“This...” I shook my head, at a loss. “Everyone...will know.”
Carl frowned.
“The kids in my class will know...that I can’t do it and that I’m getting something...they aren’t. They all...have to stand up there and I don’t? I need to...do it.”
He tilted his head to the side. “Honey, what you need to do is pass the class.”
“What I need more is to...be normal, and giving the speech just to Mr. Santos isn’t the same thing,” I protested as I glanced between them. “I can do this.”
“We know you can. Eventually,” Rosa said, and I jerked back in my seat. Eventually. As in they didn’t believe I could do it now. “But right now it’s baby steps. You’ve already made tremendous strides the past four years. It’s okay to proceed with caution after so much change. Okay?”
I wasn’t okay with any of it, but the burn of the fight was reduced to nothing more than a simmer as I lowered my hands to my lap. “You never had to...intervene like this for Marquette, did you?”
Rosa and Carl stared back at me.
I didn’t know why those words flowed out of my mouth. No idea. I wanted to take them back.
Carl drew in a deep breath. “We didn’t.”
My fingers twisted together in my lap.
Rosa stood, picking up her plate and Carl’s. “You done?” she asked me, and when I nodded, mine was swiped off the table.
“That was nice of that boy to cover for you,” Carl stated, and my gaze flew to his.
“That boy?” I asked.
“Rider,” he corrected, and my shoulders tensed. “Mr. Santos said he left class to check on you. He didn’t come back.”
Oh jeez, could I just start today over and never get out of bed? I wished I was upstairs, finishing the owl I’d started to carve last night. Nothing numbed me out quicker than working with soap. It had helped after everything with speech class and Rider. I’d carved out the tiny body, etching in tiny feathers and small, flat ears.
I drew my attention back to the topic at hand. “He...he made sure I was okay.”
Carl studied me. “Have you been spending a lot of time with him?”
“Just...in speech,” I said, feeling a little guilty about not telling the actual truth. I smoothed it over with something that was true. “But I’ve been...sitting with a girl at lunch who is in my English and speech class. Her name is Keira.”
“That’s really good to hear.” Rosa’s back was to us as she dumped the crumbs into the trash. “Does Rider not share the same lunch schedule?”
“No.” I doubted they’d appreciate knowing Rider had skipped class to spend lunch with me earlier in the week.
Carl was still staring at me like he was trying to read my thoughts. “Is he interested in you, Mallory?”
“What?” I blinked once and then twice.
Rosa spun around, her gaze fixed on him.
“Is he interested in you as more than just a friend?” he repeated.
Oh, my...
Oh my Lord...
My face was going to melt off. “He has a girlfriend!”
It was Rosa’s turn to blink.
“He does?” Relief colored Carl’s tone. “Well, then...” He trailed off as he sat back, smiling. “I think it’s time we got cleaned up and hit the road.”
I stared at him.
Rosa stared at him.