The only answer was the clattering of more giant ants moving in my direction. I began to sing again. Now, though, I had higher hopes of finding Meg, which made it difficult to summon the proper amount of melancholy. The ants I encountered were no longer catatonic. They moved slowly and unsteadily, but they still attacked. I was forced to shoot one after another.
I passed a cave filled with glittering treasure, but I was not interested in shiny things at the moment. I kept moving.
At the next intersection, another geranium sprouted from the floor, all its flowers facing right. I turned that direction, calling Meg’s name again, then returning to my song.
As my spirits lifted, my song became less effective and the ants more aggressive. After a dozen kills, my quiver was growing dangerously light.
I had to reach deeper into my feelings of despair. I had to get the blues, good and proper.
For the first time in four thousand years, I sang of my own faults.
I poured out my guilt about Daphne’s death. My boastfulness, envy, and desire had caused her destruction. When she ran from me, I should have let her go. Instead, I chased her relentlessly. I wanted her, and I intended to have her. Because of that, I had left Daphne no choice. To escape me, she sacrificed her life and turned into a tree, leaving my heart scarred forever….But it was my fault. I apologized in song. I begged Daphne’s forgiveness.
I sang of Hyacinthus, the most handsome of men. The West Wind Zephyros had also loved him, but I refused to share even a moment of Hyacinthus’s time. In my jealousy, I threatened Zephyros. I dared him, dared him to interfere.
I sang of the day Hyacinthus and I played discus in the fields, and how the West Wind blew my disc off course—right into the side of Hyacinthus’s head.
To keep Hyacinthus in the sunlight where he belonged, I created hyacinth flowers from his blood. I held Zephyros accountable, but my own petty greed had caused Hyacinthus’s death. I poured out my sorrow. I took all the blame.
I sang of my failures, my eternal heartbreak and loneliness. I was the worst of the gods, the most guilt-ridden and unfocused. I couldn’t commit myself to one lover. I couldn’t even choose what to be the god of. I kept shifting from one skill to another—distracted and dissatisfied.
My golden life was a sham. My coolness was pretense. My heart was a lump of petrified wood.
All around me, myrmekes collapsed. The nest itself trembled with grief.
I found a third geranium, then a fourth.
Finally, pausing between verses, I heard a small voice up ahead: the sound of a girl crying.
“Meg!” I gave up on my song and ran.
She lay in the middle of a cavernous food larder, just as I had imagined. Around her were stacked the carcasses of animals—cows, deer, horses—all sheathed in hardened goop and slowly decaying. The smell hit my nasal passages like an avalanche.
Meg was also enveloped, but she was fighting back with the power of geraniums. Patches of leaves sprouted from the thinnest parts of her cocoon. A frilly collar of flowers kept the goo away from her face. She had even managed to free one of her arms, thanks to an explosion of pink geraniums at her left armpit.
Her eyes were puffy from crying. I assumed she was frightened, possibly in pain, but when I knelt next to her, her first words were, “I’m so sorry.”
I brushed a tear from the tip of her nose. “Why, dear Meg? You did nothing wrong. I failed you.”
A sob caught in her throat. “You don’t understand. That song you were singing. Oh, gods…Apollo, if I’d known—”
“Hush, now.” My throat was so raw I could barely talk. The song had almost destroyed my voice. “You’re just reacting to the grief in the music. Let’s get you free.”
I was considering how to do that when Meg’s eyes widened. She made a whimpering sound.
The hairs on the nape of my neck came to attention. “There are ants behind me, aren’t there?” I asked.
Meg nodded.
I turned as four of them entered the cavern. I reached for my quiver. I had one arrow left.
Parenting advice:
Mamas, don’t let your larvae
Grow up to be ants
MEG THRASHED IN HER GOO CASE. “Get me out of here!”
“I don’t have a blade!” My fingers crept to the ukulele string around my neck. “Actually I have your blades, I mean your rings—”
“You don’t need to cut me out. When the ant dumped me here, I dropped the packet of seeds. It should be close.”
She was right. I spotted the crumpled pouch near her feet.
I inched toward it, keeping one eye on the ants. They stood together at the entrance as if hesitant to come closer. Perhaps the trail of dead ants leading to this room had given them pause.
“Nice ants,” I said. “Excellent calm ants.”
I crouched and scooped up the packet. A quick glance inside told me half a dozen seeds remained. “Now what, Meg?”
“Throw them on the goo,” Meg said.
I gestured to the geraniums bursting from her neck and armpit. “How many seeds did that?”
“One.”
“Then this many will choke you to death. I’ve turned too many people I cared about into flowers, Meg. I won’t—”