A little jolt of surprise hits me. “You texted about that.”
“Yeah,” he says gently, because he clearly realizes I’ve had other things on my mind. “But that’s not why I got these tattoos. That was just a sign.” Gray’s thumb strokes along my knuckles. “When I first met you that day at the airport, you seemed so familiar to me, so right, that I thought we were like a pair of amicable numbers.”
Warmth floods my chest. “Gray. That is…” I lean over and kiss his soft lips. “Perfect.”
His fingers briefly touch my cheek as he kisses me back. “The fact is, Ivy, for me, there is one absolute truth. The sum of my existence equals you.”
Suddenly I want those numbers tattooed on my skin too. My vision blurs as I grab hold of him, claim his mouth with mine, whisper his name against his lips.
Love. I’ve been surrounded by it my whole life. I know how lucky I am to have that. And yet it’s always been a comfortable kind of love, expected in the way of family. What I feel for Gray? It isn’t comfortable. It’s so intense and so enormous, sometimes I fear my soul can’t contain it.
I kiss him deeper, my arms twined around his neck, holding him close. Every time I kiss him, I want more and more. I want to draw him inside of me and keep him there. Safe. Protected. Part of me.
Gray cups my cheek, his hand spanning my jaw, fingers curled around my head. His size makes me feel small and delicate, and yet his words, his actions make me feel strong and invincible, even when my heart has been sliced in two by our loss.
He kisses me back. Not frantic, but slow, steady, melting. As if we have all the time in the world to explore each other. As if he could live right here, wrapped around me, lips seeking and tasting.
“I love you,” I say into his mouth. Because he should hear that. Every day.
Gray grunts, skims a path along my cheek with his lips. He kisses my closed lids. Light. Tender. “Love you more, Mac.”
“Not possible.” I ease back to look at him. Gray’s eyes are a little bloodshot and puffy. He hasn’t been sleeping well, all his efforts focused on me. I think of the times he cried with me, trying to hide the fact by pressing his face into my hair. I’d noticed, but had been too soul-sick to do much about it.
Tenderness swells in my chest as I trace one bronze brow. “Hey,” I whisper. “We’re going to be okay.”
Because I know this now. In truth, I knew the second he’d walked in that hotel room after the miscarriage, his focus entirely on me. It had felt like a missing piece of me—one I’d never really realized was gone until then—had clicked back into place. No matter how badly I hurt, or how lost I feel, Gray’s presence makes everything bearable.
Gray’s lids lower a little as he leans into my touch. “Of course we are.” Not even a shadow of doubt in his voice.
I give him a soft kiss. I love his mouth. Love the way it feels against mine.
And Gray sighs. He’s warm and relaxed and holding me as if he’ll never let go.
Love. It’s this fierce thing rushing through my veins, making my heart pump harder. I’m twenty-two years old, and I know with every insistent beat of my heart that I love this man. My rock. My lover. My best friend. “Gray?”
“Hmmm?” Eyes closed, he’s running his fingers slowly up and down my back.
“I wanted to ask you something.” Despite the light tone I use, butterflies war in my belly.
“Lay it on me, honey.”
“Will you marry me?”
Gray’s eyes snap open, his big body going utterly still. Beneath golden lashes, his deep blue gaze narrows as if he’s misheard. “What?” It comes out like a croak.
My heart still hurts from sorrow. But I reach for what happiness I can. Because marriage to Gray no longer sounds crazy. It sounds exactly right.