Both disappeared from the window.
Mr. Carter’s car door slammed. He was never home at such an hour. Normally he did not return from work until after five, about the same time as my father. He saw me standing next to the tree, perched high on my bucket, and gave me a puzzled glance. I waved. He did not wave back. Instead, he bounded up his front walk and disappeared into his house.
A moment later Mrs. Carter walked briskly out our front door and crossed the lawn, her hands smoothing her dress as she went. She gave me a quick glance as she passed. I offered her a howdy-do, but she did not reciprocate. When she entered her own house, she did so with caution, closing the front door ever so softly behind her.
I jumped down off my bucket and followed her.
I wouldn’t call myself a nosy child. I was curious, that’s all. So I crossed over to the Carters’ lawn without a second thought. I was halfway to their driveway when I heard the slap.
There was no mistaking that particular sound. My father was a firm believer in discipline, and he had brought his hand to my backside on more than one occasion. Without going into detail, I am willing to admit I deserved a good whack or two on each and every one of those occasions, and I hold no ill will toward him for doing so. That sound was well-known to me, and after being on the receiving end (no pun intended) I also recognized the quick scream that followed such pain.
When Mrs. Carter cried out immediately following the slap, I realized that Mr. Carter had hit her. Another slap quickly followed, then another sharp yelp.
I reached Mr. Carter’s car. The engine still made a steady tick, tick, tick. Heat floated above the hood, and exhaust filled the air.
Mr. Carter crashed through the front door as I stood beside his car. “What the fuck are you doing out here?” he growled, before pushing past me and walking across the lawn toward my house.
Mrs. Carter appeared in the doorway but stopped at the threshold. She held a damp towel to the side of her face. Her right eye was puffy, pink, and teary. When she noticed me, her lips trembled. “Don’t let him hurt your mother,” she whispered.
Mr. Carter reached our kitchen door and pounded the frame with his fist. I found it odd that it was closed. Nearly every summer day, the door was opened in the morning and remained that way until late into the night, with only the screen door to keep Mother Nature’s creatures out of the house. Mother must have—
I spotted Mother standing in a side window. She glared at Mr. Carter on our back stoop.
“Open the door, you fucking cunt!” he shouted. “Open the goddamn door!”
Mother watched him but remained still.
I started back toward the house, and her hand shot up, motioning for me to stay put. I stopped in my tracks, unsure of what I should do. Looking back, I see it was naive of me to believe I could do much of anything. Mr. Carter was a large man, maybe even bigger than Father. If I attempted to stop him in any way, he would swat me as if I were an annoying fly buzzing around his head.
“You think you can turn my wife into your own personal rug cleaner?” He banged at the door. “I knew it, I fucking knew it, you insatiable little cunt. I knew something was going on. Always over at your house. Smelling of your stink. I tasted you on her, you know that? Believe it. I sure as shit could. Now I think you owe me. A tit for tat. Or how about a tit for a twat—if I dumb it down, does it make more sense to you? There’s consequences, you little bitch. There’s payment due. Nothing in this world is free!”
Mother disappeared from the window.
Mrs. Carter began to sob behind me.
Mr. Carter turned and shook an angry finger at her. “Shut the fuck up!” His face burned bright red. Sweat glistened on his brow. “Don’t think I’m done with you. When I finish up over here, you and I are going to have a long, hard talk. Believe that. When I’m done collecting from this hussy, it’s your turn. You think that little scratch hurts? Wait until I come home for dessert!”
It was then our back door opened. Mother stepped out into the light and beckoned him inside.
Mr. Carter stood there for a moment, glaring at Mother. His face as red as a stop sign, his brow all crunched up and sweaty. His hands were balled in tight fists. At first I thought he would hit her, but he didn’t.
Mother peered over his shoulder, her eyes locking with mine for a moment before turning back to him. “It’s a one-time offer. Now or never.” She twirled a finger around a lock of blond hair, then slid it down the side of her neck, a grin playing at her lips.
“Are you kidding me?”
Mother turned back into the kitchen and nodded. “Come on.”
He watched her disappear through the doorway, then turned back to his wife. “Consider this part one of the lesson. When I’m done here, I’ll be home to teach you part two.” He snorted as if he had made the joke of all jokes, then walked into our house, slamming the door behind him.
Mrs. Carter sobbed.
I was but a boy, and I had no idea how to comfort a crying woman, nor did I have any desire to. Instead, I raced back around the house to Mother’s window and hopped back up on my bucket. I found the room empty.
From somewhere within the house, I heard a horrible scream. It had not come from Mother.
17
Emory
Day 1 ? 9:31 a.m.
Emory was going to throw up.
The vomit crept up the back of her throat, thick and vile. She choked it down, cringing at the foul aftertaste.
She took a deep breath, the air catching between sobs.
He had cut off her ear! What the fuck? Why—
The answer came to her in an instant, and she drew in another breath so hard and fast that she whistled before coughing out another sob. The tears welled in her eyes and dripped on her knees. She tried to wipe them from her cheeks, but more came, salty and sharp.
She hiccupped between ragged breaths.
Her body shook with violent spasms. Snot dripped from her nose and mixed with her tears. Just when she thought it was over, her mind would flood with a mix of fear, pain, and anger, and the pattern would start again, lessening only a little each time.
When the fit finally ended, when she was able to reel in a breath and keep it, she found herself sitting in utter silence. Her mind was painfully hollow and quiet, her body sore, muscles aching, her face puffy and red. Her fingers brushed over the handcuffs, searching for some kind of release, hoping they weren’t real handcuffs but the kind you buy in a sex shop or a toy store—her friend Laurie had told her about those, how her boyfriend wanted to use them and she said no way, nohow.
There was no release switch, and the band around her wrist was tight; they weren’t coming off without a key. She could try to pick them, but that would mean finding something to pick them with, and that would mean exploring.