Closing my eyes, I relish the release from pain. I intend to sleep, but Kali’s grave stare blooms in my stream of thought. The rest of her materializes next, her willowy frame, thick dark hair, and delicate face. I reach for her, and the second my fingertips touch her cheek, her expression changes to hurt. She backs away and runs into the shadows.
I set out after her, calling her name, and my surroundings transform into snowy woods. I run through the dark forest, and a snap sounds behind me. I round a tree and stumble to a halt. A fox lies dead at my feet, scarlet staining the snow around it, a snare wound around its leg.
The door to my cell creaks open, bringing me back to the present, and a hulking figure comes in. I drum up an ounce of strength to clench my fist in defense.
“Hello, Captain,” Yatin says. I uncurl my hand, and my friend pulls up the healer’s stool. “I cannot stay long. The guards check the prisoners’ tents twice an hour. The Galer guards may start listening to us, if they aren’t already.” Yatin lays his wide palm on the top of my head. “I am sorry I didn’t stop them.”
“My punishment was just. You did nothing wrong.”
“Neither did you,” he asserts.
“That’s a matter of perspective.”
Yatin leans forward and clasps his hands. Shadows play with my sight, revealing sections of his solemn face. Yatin is the youngest of six children. His older siblings are all sisters, and his mother a widow. Like me, when he joined the imperial army, he was more accustomed to women than men. I was brought up at the Turquoise Palace, surrounded by nursemaids, courtesans, and ranis, an experience my mother insists made me the peacemaker I am. Yatin is even more of a peacemaker. I admire his long-suffering temperament and belief that every soul is fundamentally good. He speaks carefully, with deliberate thoughtfulness. “The vizier announced the trial tournament to the men . . . I don’t understand. Why is the kindred competing?” His words carry another question. Don’t you love each other?
I lick my parched lips. They feel dry, like tree bark. “Do you remember when we were camped in the lower Alpana Mountains, traveling with Rajah Tarek to the Samiya Temple?”
“That was before Rajah Tarek claimed Kalinda,” Yatin recalls.
“I was on watch one night. It was snowing and especially still, the snowflakes muffling the noises of the forest. In the distance, beyond the quiet, I heard scratching noises. The rest of the men were asleep, so I took a lantern into the woods and came upon a trapped fox. A hunter had set a snare, and the fox had the misfortune of finding it. When the fox saw me, it growled and tried to wrench free. In its struggle, the snare wrapped tighter around its hind leg, and blood soon flecked the snow.”
I wet my dry lips again. My body is dragging me over a cliff of exhaustion, but I hang on to consciousness. I need Yatin to understand. “The fox was unharmed other than the snare strangling its leg. I knew if the animal worked itself free, it would survive, but it would not calm down and outsmart the snare so long as I was near. So I walked back to camp, and soon its growls and yips ceased.
“The next morning, I rose before dawn and returned to the trap. As I got closer, I heard no sound of struggles. With some dread, I thought the fox had died trying to twist free. But when I reached the trap, the fox was gone, and the snare had been chewed apart. Tracks led into the woods. The fox had wriggled and gnawed its way to freedom. When I returned to camp, Rajah Tarek asked me where I’d been, and I told him about the fox. He said I should have harvested its pelt. He saw the trapped fox as something to take advantage of.” I shake off the memory of Rajah Tarek and go on. “Last night with Kali, I remembered that fox. She asked me to go with her, and I was tempted. But that snare . . . It would have still been around her leg.”
Yatin processes my meaning. “You think Kalinda can break free from her throne?”
“I think she has a better chance if I leave her be. The closer I am to Kali, the harder she resists the snare that has her.” For two moons I have tried to find a way to release her from her throne, but her fate belongs to the gods. “I cannot save her, nor should I try.”
“Even if it means walking away.” He is silent a long moment. I begin to drift off, but his low voice tugs me back. “Will the prince exercise his first rights to Kalinda?”
“He will try.” I despise Prince Ashwin for dangling Kali’s freedom before her for his gain. He is like Rajah Tarek was with the snared fox, extorting control over another’s pain and misfortune. “But she will find a way to break free.”
“What if she doesn’t?” Yatin asks.
Exhaustion pulls me toward sleep, but I rasp out one more answer. “Then I have failed her.”
13
KALINDA
A host of servants rearranges the terrace into an outdoor banquet hall with low tables and candlelight. The sultan dines among his wives and courtesans, away from the rest of the attendees. Eunuchs stand guard around them, scrutinizing any patron who comes too close.
Prince Ashwin is seated at a table on the dais, and my competitors and I are invited to feast beside him. He saves the floor rug to his right for me, leaving the left one open. Princess Citra plunks down on it before Indah and Tinley have a chance.
While servants set dishes of food before us, down the short steps a toddler seated with the sultan’s court screams and throws food at his nursemaid.
“Who is that?” I whisper to Ashwin.
“The heir to the sultanate. Kuval has a lot of daughters, but that is his first son.”
Princess Citra must be fifteen years older than the young prince, yet her baby brother is to inherit the throne. Such dynamics seem unfair given the princess’s loyalty to her homeland. The nursemaid picks up the screaming boy and paces with him out in the garden.
Citra scoots closer to Ashwin’s side, drawing his attention. “What did you think of my token, Ashwin?”
“Ah . . . it was unexpected.”
“Was it?” she purrs. Indah laughs at her from across the table. Citra scowls. “What?”
“You’re exactly as your reputation portrays.” Indah’s gaze slides across the table. “All of you are.”
“Oh?” Tinley sits forward, her light hair gleaming under the chandelier lantern. “What have you heard?”
“I’ll start with you, daughter of Chief Naresh,” Indah replies. “You cut your teeth on mahati bones and learned to fly when you were only four. At age eight you hatched Bya and have since spent most of your time on your falcon in the sky. Your proficiency is with the crossbow, you enjoy anything that has to do with heights, and you tug at your tresses when you’re uneasy.” Tinley swiftly unthreads her fingers from her silvery hair. “Ever since your father’s second in command cornered you in the tanning hut, you distrust men. If you lose the tournament, you’ll negotiate for better trade for your people. However, if you win, you do not intend to live with the prince. You’ll settle in a mountain outpost and spend the rest of your days patrolling the empire’s borderlands from the sky.”
Ashwin stops chewing. “You wouldn’t stay with me in the palace?”