She saw her mother and brother trekking down the dimly lit beach with Ripper, Spock, and Uhura leading the way. Her mother ran to her the moment she saw her standing by the hut. Ripper was in no rush. She was carrying Jonah. His arms and legs were wrapped around her like a koala bear, and she was whispering in his ear and making him squeal with laughter.
Zoe scanned the darkness for X—and kept looking for him long past the point where it was clear that he wasn’t there. She felt as if she were watching his absence walk toward her. She felt sadness hollowing out her heart so it could lie down for a while.
Within moments, everyone had fallen into everyone else’s arms. Jonah asked if they could stay for five minutes so he could throw rocks into the ocean. His mother said, “Okay, but just five minutes,” and Jonah said, “I can have five? What about ten? No? What about seven—what about eight?”
He hadn’t been outside in so long.
Ripper ran ahead with Jonah, and Zoe and her mother drifted behind, walking arm in arm. There was too much to say. Where would they even start?
Zoe could barely see her mother’s face in the dark, but it seemed like she didn’t know the truth about her father. Should she tell her that he was alive—that he had abandoned them all? She didn’t want to. She wanted to protect her mother from the facts.
But the truth rose up out of her. She couldn’t keep it in.
“Dad didn’t kill himself like you thought,” she blurted. “That’s not what happened.”
Her mother stared at her, confused and waiting.
And there on the beach, as quietly as she could so that Jonah couldn’t hear, she told her mother everything. The ocean was noisy and black. It nearly swallowed the words.
Up ahead, Jonah was looking at Ripper’s hands and saying, “You chew your fingernails like I do!” Ripper was saying, “Something like that, yes. But I will stop if you will stop. Have we a bargain?”
Finally, they left the beach, and walked off in search of somewhere warm to make a plan for getting back to Montana. Spock whimpered the whole way. Uhura looked back and barked at him, as if to say, Man up! Zoe’s mother was so shocked that her dead husband was still alive, so lost in her own head, that Zoe had to walk beside her and steer her around the bends in the road.
Zoe’s own head felt clearer somehow, like the box at the back of her brain had sprung open and a lot of old, unhappy thoughts had drifted out over the ocean, like that plastic bag.
After two cold, meandering miles through the woods, they found a diner glowing in the darkness. It must have been the place where X had bought breakfast. On the door, there was a laminated picture of cinnamon French toast and bacon. Zoe touched it with her fingertips as everybody else rushed inside.
While they waited for a table, diners began noticing Ripper—her shredded golden dress, her bloodied arms and legs, her tall black leather boots. A ripple of curiosity, then alarm, went through the place. Ripper announced quietly that it was time for her to leave.
Zoe walked outside with her and hugged her a long time. Somehow, saying good-bye to the only person who understood X the way she herself did was too much. She started crying, and couldn’t stop.
“He said he’d come back,” she sobbed. “He said he’d come back unless—unless two worlds conspired against him.”
Ripper held her.
“But two worlds did conspire, dear girl,” she said. “Two worlds threw everything they had between you. The Lowlands cannot keep X from you for long, however. He bid me tell you that he will find his parents and then return to you. And I believe he will, for I taught him myself and I am a marvelous teacher. The last thing he said to me was that he wants to be worthy of you, Zoe—because you have taught him what worthiness is.”
Zoe smiled.
“Well, that’s a little over-the-top,” she said.
Ripper released her from her arms, and dried a tear coursing down Zoe’s face.
“When you see him,” said Zoe, “please tell him that I love him, and that I remember every, every, every time he touched me.”
“I will,” said Ripper.
“Also?” said Zoe. “Help him figure out where his parents are? He’s right—he needs to know who they were. He deserves to, even if it hurts him like finding out about my dad hurt me.”
“I will,” said Ripper.
“And please tell him to clean his clothes,” said Zoe. “They’re getting gross.”
Ripper laughed.
“I will tell him everything you ask when I return to the Lowlands,” she said. “Yet I must tell you that I am in no hurry to see that fetid place again.” She paused, and her eyes shone mischievously. “I have decided not to return just yet. I have decided to run.”