“I hope so,” she sighed. “He certainly gives me mountains of the same in return. So while I wouldn’t say he is excited about a gathering, he did suggest it.”
He lifted his brows. “That’s wonderful.”
She nodded. “I must encourage it. Honestly, it will mostly be friends.”
There wasn’t something about the way she said the last sentence that made Baldwin examine her more closely. He knew his sister very well and he could tell when she was plotting. Right now Plotting Charlotte sat across from him, trying to look sweet as sugar and innocent as a newborn lamb.
“Mostly?” he repeated in a warning tone.
She shrugged. “Yes. Mama will be there. James and Emma, Simon and Meg, Graham and Adelaide. Matthew will be there. I’m trying to coax Hugh, as well. Have you spoken to him of late? I saw him at Mattigan’s Bookshop and he—”
“Charlotte!” Baldwin interrupted. “What does mostly mean?”
She pursed her lips. “You needn’t be so cross about it. Aside from our friends, we have invited…the…Americans.”
Baldwin froze. “The Americans,” he repeated slowly. “You mean Mr. Shephard and his daughter. What is her name? Cora? Cassandra?”
“Charity. And they are bringing along Charity’s cousin, Helena Monroe,” Charlotte added, and there was no hiding how she watched him as she said Helena’s name.
It was almost impossible for him not to react to the same. Helena. He’d been thinking of her for days, since his garden party. Since she’d found him in his study and made him want to do incredibly scandalous things to her.
“In truth,” his sister continued. “We only wanted Helena, but Charity and her father come along with her, so sacrifices must be made, it seems.”
Baldwin glared at her. “You only wanted Helena.”
“Why wouldn’t we?” she said with a light laugh. “She is a delight, Baldwin—have you had a chance to talk to her?”
“Very little,” he said as he pushed to his feet and paced away. “When have you had the chance?”
“We sat together at your party a few days ago, of course. Then all the duchesses were on an outing and we stopped by to say hello. Had the most marvelous tea and a lovely chat with her.”
Baldwin shook his head slowly. Of course he was not opposed to the idea of Helena becoming friends with his sister and the wives of his friends. Only he was aware of the ulterior motives his sister was capable of concocting. Especially when she had no idea of the circumstances he was in. “Charlotte, why are you so invested in this?”
She leaned back with a falsely insulted expression. “Invested? Whatever do you mean, Baldwin?”
“‘Whatever do you mean?’” he repeated in a singsong voice. “You are meddling. You’ve thrown this girl in my path more than once.”
Now Charlotte actually did look offended. “Thrown her? It seems to me you’ve done a fine job of stepping into her path.”
He folded his arms, trying not to think of his offer to close the study door when he and Helena were together. That was certainly putting himself in her path, there was no denying it. At least to himself.
“That is an argument of semantics,” he snapped.
“No, it isn’t,” she said with a laugh that ignored his ill humor. “Do you like her?”
Baldwin hesitated, long enough that he would wager she had her answer. She’d always been able to read him so well. “I have hardly talked to her,” he repeated, exhaustion in his voice and in his body. “Once at the Rockford Ball, twice at the garden party. I don’t like or dislike her. I don’t know her.”
But he wanted to. Fiercely.
Charlotte’s expression grew worried and she moved toward him. She reached for his hands and held them gently in her own as she stared up into his face. “You are so troubled, Baldwin. Please, please talk to me.”
He shook his head and glanced away from her. “It is…complicated.”
“Father died years ago,” she said softly. “It’s been complicated ever since. I’ve seen you change, Baldwin. I’ve watched you grow more and more serious, more and more concerned. I’m not so stupid that I don’t make the connection between his death and your slow descent into worry and regret.”
He drew a deep breath. “I would never say you were stupid, my dear. Your sharp tongue and quick wit are too undeniable when turned on me. But you don’t…know.”
Her face twisted a little. “Because you won’t tell me. Nor anyone else.”
He sensed the frustration she was trying to rein in, trying to soften in an effort to empathize with his situation. In an effort to uncover the whole of it.
He hated himself for causing that emotion, but the other option was to crush her down to her very soul. To make her doubt what she’d known about her father, about him.
“I love you,” he said instead, leaning down to kiss her forehead.
She was clearly fighting to stay on topic, but at last she sighed. “I know that. And I hope you know that my interference, such as it is, is also born from love.”
“I do,” he said, and meant it. “I will come tomorrow, though I think you should let go of any notions you have in your head about me and Miss Monroe. She is charming, as you say, but there is no future there. I have other obligations that I must fulfill.”
There was a flash of disappointment over her face, but she wiped it away. “Whatever you say, Baldwin. You are certainly well capable of making your own decisions. We look forward to seeing you tomorrow. Now I must go—I have to make a stop to call on Mama and then Ewan is expecting me.”
Baldwin barely stifled a sigh of relief that she would go. He loved seeing her, but she laid bare the problems in his life, without even meaning to. He followed her into the foyer where he kissed her cheek. But as she turned to go, he said, “And why don’t you let me talk to Brighthollow?”
“If you think Hugh will listen to you and accept our invitation, I shall do just that. Send word of his response, though, so I may plan accordingly.”
He nodded and she squeezed his hand one more time before she hurried to her carriage and left him in a cloud of sweet perfume and bitter worries. About the future. About the past. And about a woman he really couldn’t have.
Hugh Margolis, Duke of Brighthollow, looked up from the letter on his desk and smiled as Baldwin stepped around his butler and into the room. Baldwin returned the expression even as he studied his old friend’s face.
Brighthollow had always been stern. There was a hardness to him, an edge that none of their other friends had. Of course, it was bound to be there. He’d been duke the longest, taking on the title when he was just seventeen, after his father and mother died in a terrible accident. He’d been left with a sister in his charge, twelve years his junior.
Brighthollow had grown up very quickly.
“You look like hell,” Hugh said with a chuckle.
Baldwin glared at him. “Thank you. I appreciate the kind concern, you lout.”