“He told us where the old king kept the really good bottles,” says the Bomb, pushing back her white hair. “Not to mention a stash of jewelry that belonged to Elowyn. He figured that in the confusion, no one would notice if it got lifted, and so far, no one has. Easiest job the Roach has ever done.”
I want to scream. They weren’t supposed to like him, but why wouldn’t they? He’s a prince who’s treating them with respect. He’s Dain’s brother. He’s Folk, like them.
“Everything is spiraling into chaos anyway,” says Cardan. “Might as well have some fun. Don’t you think, Jude?”
I take a deep breath. If he undermines my position here, if he manages to make me an outsider, then I am never going to get the Court of Shadows to go along with the plan that is still jumbled up in my head. I can’t seem to figure out how to help anyone. The last thing I need is him making everything worse.
“What did he offer you?” I ask, like we’re all in on the same joke. Yes, it’s a gamble. Maybe Cardan didn’t offer them anything at all.
I try not to seem like I’m holding my breath. I try not to show how small Cardan makes me feel.
The Ghost gives me one of his rare smiles. “Mostly gold, but also power. Position.”
“A lot of things he hasn’t got,” said the Bomb.
“I thought we were friends,” Cardan says halfheartedly.
“I’m going to take him in the back,” I say, putting my hand on the top of the chair in a proprietary fashion. I need to get him out of the room before he gets the better of me in front of them. I need to get him away now.
“And do what?” asks the Roach.
“He’s my prisoner,” I remind them, squatting down and slicing through the strips of my dress still tying his legs to the chair. I realize he must have slept this way, sitting upright, if he slept at all. But he doesn’t look tired. He smiles down at me, as if the reason I’m on my knees is because I am curtsying.
I want to wipe that smile off his face, but maybe I can’t. Maybe he’ll go on smiling that way to his grave.
“Can’t we stay out here?” Cardan asks me. “There’s wine out here.”
That makes the Roach snicker. “Something bothering you, princeling? You and Jude don’t get along after all?”
Cardan’s expression shifts into something that appears to resemble worry. Good.
I lead him into Dain’s office, which I guess I’ve just commandeered for my own. He walks unsteadily, his legs stiff from being bound. Also possibly because he has helped my crew down several bottles of wine. No one stops me from taking him, though. I close the door and turn the lock.
“Sit down,” I tell him, pointing to a chair.
He does.
I walk around, settling myself on the other side of the desk.
It occurs to me that if I kill him, I can finally stop thinking about him. If I kill him, I won’t have to feel like this anymore.
Without him, there’s no clear path to putting Oak on the throne. I’d have to trust that Madoc had some way of forcing Balekin into crowning him. Without him, I have no cards to play. No plan. No helping my brother. No nothing.
Maybe it would be worth it.
The crossbow is where I left it, in the drawer of Dain’s desk. I draw it out, cock it back, and point it at Cardan. He draws a ragged breath.
“You’re going to shoot me?” He blinks. “Right now?”
My finger caresses the trigger. I feel calm, gloriously calm. This is weakness, to put fear above ambition, above family, above love, but it feels good. It feels like being powerful.
“I can see why you’d want to,” he says, as though reading my face and coming to some decision. “But I’d really prefer if you didn’t.”
“Then you shouldn’t have smirked at me constantly—you think I am going to stand being mocked, here, now? You still so sure you’re better than me?” My voice shakes a little, and I hate him even more for it. I have trained every day to be dangerous, and he is entirely in my power, yet I’m the one who is afraid.
Fearing him is a habit, a habit I could break with a bolt to his heart.
He holds up his hands in protest, long bare fingers splayed. I am the one with the royal ring. “I’m nervous,” he says. “I smile a lot when I’m nervous. I can’t help it.”
That is not at all what I expected him to say. I lower the crossbow momentarily.
He keeps talking, as though he doesn’t want to leave me too much time to think. “You are terrifying. Nearly my whole family is dead, and while they never had much love for me, I don’t want to join them. I’ve spent all night worrying what you’re going to do, and I know exactly what I deserve. I have a reason to be nervous.” He’s talking to me as though we’re friends instead of enemies. It works, too: I relax a little. When I realize that, I am nearly freaked out enough to shoot him outright.
“I’ll tell you whatever you want,” he says. “Anything.”
“No word games?” The temptation is enormous. Everything Taryn told me is still rattling around in my head, reminding me how little I know.
He puts a hand over where his heart should be. “I swear it.”
“And if I shoot you anyway?”
“You might well,” he says, wry. “But I want your word that you won’t.”
“My word isn’t worth much,” I remind him.
“So you keep saying.” He raises his brows. “It’s not comforting, I’ve got to tell you.”
I give a surprised laugh. The crossbow wavers in my hand. Cardan’s gaze is locked on it. With deliberate slowness, I set it down on the wood of the desk. “You tell me whatever I want to know—all of it—and I won’t shoot you.”
“And what can I do to persuade you not to turn me over to Balekin and Madoc?” He lifts a single eyebrow. I am not used to the force of his attention being on me like this. My heart speeds.
All I can do is glower in return. “How about you concentrate on staying alive?”
He shrugs. “What do you want to know?”
“I found a piece of paper with my name on it,” I say. “Over and over, just my name.”
He flinches a little but doesn’t say anything.
“Well?” I prompt.
“That’s not a question,” he groans, as though exasperated. “Ask me a proper question, and I’ll give you an answer.”
“You’re terrible at this whole ‘telling me whatever I want to know’ thing.” My hand goes to the crossbow, but I don’t pick it up.
He sighs. “Just ask me something. Ask about my tail. Don’t you want to see it?” He raises his brows.
I have seen his tail, but I am not going to give him the satisfaction of telling him that. “You want me to ask you something? Fine. When did Taryn start whatever it is she has with Locke?”
He laughs with delight. This appears to be a discussion he isn’t interested in avoiding. Typical. “Oh, I wondered when you would ask about that. It was some months ago. He told us all about it—throwing stones at her window, leaving her notes to meet him in the woods, wooing her by moonlight. He swore us to silence, made it all seem like a lark. I think, in the beginning, he did it to make Nicasia jealous. But later…”
“How did he know it was her room?” I ask, frowning.
That makes his smile grow. “Maybe he didn’t. Maybe either of you would have done as his first mortal conquest. I believe his goal is to have both of you in the end.”