“Of course we want to fight!” Balt yelps as if insulted. “The fuck else would we do?”
“Leave? Go somewhere else and try something new? Like Lawrence said, it’s wild territory out there. There could be fertile land and fresh water. There could be beautiful places to live that aren’t on anyone’s to-conquer list. Why sacrifice our lives for a concrete box?”
“Because they are outside this box,” Balt says, and I jolt when I notice his finger is aimed at my head. “Yeah, you lanky motherfucker. Thought I forgot about you?” He stands up again; Rosso sighs again. “I didn’t forget, but did everyone else? Did you forget about this rotten piece of shit and all the other flesh-eaters we’ve got hanging around our homes? This ‘cure’ bullshit is . . .” He stabs his finger at me a few times. “Well it’s bullshit!”
Nora stifles a chuckle. Julie is too busy glaring.
“The night before they all ‘transformed’ or whatever the fuck you want to call it, this fuckin’ corpse almost killed me and my buddies. Then he went out and fuckin’ ate one of our guys. And now he’s standing here in our fuckin’ meeting hall like a fuckin’ guest of honor.”
A murmur of agreement runs through the crowd. I feel the focus of four hundred eyes like a laser dot on my forehead. I have to admit, he has a point.
“I’d like to ‘almost kill’ you too,” Julie snaps, pushing herself off the wall and stepping forward. “I know a lot of people who would. So what?”
I put a hand on her shoulder but she doesn’t notice it.
“A lot of shit happened that night,” she continues. “R killed Krauss because Krauss was about to kill him. Everyone in this room has had to kill someone at some point. It happens. So let’s get off the fact that he killed a guy and focus on the fact that he’s a zombie who cured himself!”
“How?” someone in the crowd shouts. “How’d he do that?”
“What about the rest of them? How far is it spreading?”
“How do we know it’s permanent?”
“Everyone, listen,” Rosso says, but the crowd has reached a boil.
“What if we leave the stadium and then they all change back?”
“Yeah, what if it’s a trick?”
“A trick?” Rosso says incredulously. “Okay, this is—”
“We don’t know anything about them!”
“What if they’re faking?”
“What if they—”
“People!” Rosso shouts into the mic, and a piercing howl of feedback derails the runaway Q&A as everyone shoves hands against ears. Bob the sound guy winks and gives Rosso a thumbs-up.
“People,” Rosso sighs, letting the mic fall against his thigh. “These are valid questions . . . some of them. But there’s only one person in this room who might be able to answer them.”
I scan the crowd, wondering who this mystery sage might be.
“So if you’ll all kindly shut up a moment . . .” Rosso looks in my direction—no. He looks at me. He holds the microphone out to me. “Mr. R?” he says to me. “Can you offer any insight into the current state of undead affairs?”
Rosso blurs in my vision and the McDonald’s mural behind him comes into focus. The clown’s small, black eyes. His red-smeared lips. The unfathomable anatomy of Mayor McCheese.
“R,” Julie whispers, nudging me forward. I step onto the stage and stare at the mic. Its dark barrel is aimed straight at my face. I stare at the mic.
“R?” Rosso prompts, pushing it closer.
I take it. “H-hello,” I say, and the sound of my rarely used voice amplified and fired back at me makes my eyes go wide. Imagining it sprayed over the entire stadium into twenty thousand sets of ears makes my jaw fall open.
“Weapons ready, boys,” Balt chuckles. “Looks like he’s about to convert again.”
I pull my eyes away from the crowd and all its mistrustful faces, and I look at Julie. Her face contains so many things. Fear, urgency, a little annoyance, but mostly that emotion I’ve come to know as love. Julie loves me. She believes in me, far more than I do in myself. And she wants me to speak.
My lips brush the mic. An electric spark snaps against them and I jolt back, rubbing my mouth in surprise. “That hurt,” I mumble, accidentally aloud.
“Sorry, what?” Balt says, cupping a hand to his ear.
I look up and blurt, all in a rush, “I can’t answer your questions.”
Not the strongest opening for my great speech of reconciliation. Balt laughs and throws up his hands.
“What I mean is . . . all I know is . . .” My mind races, searching for words to explain things I don’t understand. “I don’t know what . . . cured us, it was . . . different for everyone, but for me . . . I decided to . . . I wanted to be . . . I just tried to . . .”