“I couldn’t have been more than two months. I know it seems silly that I’m so upset about it when I wasn’t so far along.”
“It’s not silly at all,” I reply, firmly. I hate that women are made to feel like they can’t mourn the loss of a baby they miscarried early on. I’ve never been pregnant, but just the idea of finding out my child was growing inside of me makes my heart swell with love; I can’t imagine how it feels to actually see that positive pregnancy test. “That was your baby, Wendy. You have every right to feel sad and mourn this loss and don’t let anyone make you feel differently.”
She takes a napkin from the dispenser between us and wipes under her eyes. “Thank you, Demi.”
“How’s Jeff taking it?” I query, still holding her hand.
“He’s sad. We’re both sad. But in a way . . . maybe it’s best. We’re having so many problems with Grayson, behavioral wise and with Jeff out of work we have no insurance. Money is so tight right now. It isn’t the right time for a baby.”
I frown. How sad that she has to think of money when she’s just lost her baby. I hate that they’re struggling so much. “I’m happy to give you money, Wendy.”
“No,” she states flatly. “I appreciate it, but no.”
I nod once, deciding not to argue with her. I’ve offered before, and she gave the same adamant answer. So instead, I make an offer I know she can’t refuse. “How about I keep the kids at my house this weekend.”
Her eyes dart to mine, riddled with disbelief. A person offering to watch her five children for a weekend are few and far between. I can’t help chuckling a little, even with the grim news she just shared. “Yes,” I assure her. “You heard me right.”
“You do understand I have five children, don’t you?”
“Are those who all those small people are that are always hanging around you?” I jest, my brows furrowed in mock confusion.
“Five, Demi.” She lifts her hand, all five fingers fanned out. “Five.”
“I was there when each of them was born,” I reply dryly.
“You don’t have to do that, Demi. I don’t want to put that burden on you,” she sighs.
“They’re my godchildren, Wendy. And they’ve spent the night with me before.” This is true. Each of them has stayed with me . . . just not all five at once. But I know I can handle this, and nothing would make me happier than to give her some time to mourn and heal in peace.
She gives me a skeptical look. “Are you sure?”
“Positive,” I confirm, pulling my hand away as the waitress approaches our table. After I order two beers—one for me, one for Wendy—and the waitress scurries off, I add, “Connor will be there to help.”
She smiles. “The kids liked him.” I’m surprised she’s so . . . relaxed about her children being around Connor. She’s only met him twice so it’s not like she knows him well. All she knows is he’s a convicted felon.
“So you trust him?” I ask as the waitress places our pint glasses on the table. I don’t know why I’m asking her. Well, maybe I do. The truth is, my brain keeps telling me to be wary of Connor. His past scares me, somewhat. But the more I’m around him, the more I trust him. But how much of that is this attraction to him that I’m trying to deny I feel? Are hormones getting in the way of my reasoning abilities?
She smirks slightly in thought. “I do. I can’t explain it, but I have a good feeling about him. Besides,” she adds, “Blake wasn’t the kind of man to love anyone who was undeserving. If Blake believed Connor is a good guy, it must be true.”
And there it is. My exact thoughts. And that’s one of the things I love about Wendy. She doesn’t buy labels. Just because Connor was in prison, doesn’t make him a bad person. And even if he was a bad person, people can change, right? I mean, everyone makes mistakes. Granted, hurting another person is a big mistake, but deep down I know there has to be more to the story.