“Less than a year ago, I arrived here, all ready to help set up a new business venture. I fully expected to be back in Australia by Christmas.” I cast my eyes down to where Sarah sat beside me. Her blue eyes were shining, and a slight smile was on her perfect, perfect lips.
“Just a few days later, my eyes landed on this beautiful girl sitting right here next to me. No one else has existed since. My world was sent spinning, my heart held captive, my life changed forever. I know to many of you this may seem rushed and ridiculous, but I assure you, from the very first time I set eyes on Sarah Carter, I’ve known that she was my future, my home, the owner of my heart.”
Sarah broke our stare and was looking down at the table.
“Thank you, pretty girl, for agreeing to become Mrs Delaney. Thank you for wanting to share your life with me. I can’t promise to always make you happy, but I promise to do my absolute best to never deliberately make you sad.”
I looked along the table and found Mai, Archie, and Luke, making sure to hold each of their eyes for just a moment. “Thank you Mai, Archie, and Luke for welcoming me into your family. Please trust me when I say that I fully appreciate what an honour it is that this beautiful woman you have raised and protected will now be sharing her life with me. I only hope I can do as an amazing job as you have and make her smile her one-dimpled smile at least once a day.”
I went on to thank my parents for their influence on my life and their contribution to the wedding. I thanked the rest of my family for flying over, the rest of our guests for coming, and our bridesmaids and pageboy. I handed out thank you gifts and flowers, and I thanked the caterers and the florist. When I was sure I was done, I proposed a toast to my wife and finally sat down on my still shaky legs.
The last thing I expected was for Sarah to stand and raise her glass.
“When I was growing up, I always wondered why people stared at me the way they did whilst out with my nan and grandad. They’d tilt their heads and then say something to either of my grandparents before addressing me and asking me how I was doing.”
She smiled and then her eyes met mine. It was a brief look, but so much was exchanged between us. I was so full with my love for her, that my chest expanded beyond the point of pain. There was little room for air to enter or exit my lungs or for my heart to beat in my chest. There was only her. She consumed me, and I never wanted it to change.
She broke the connection first and turned to address the room again.
“I began to call them ‘the head tilters.’ I had no clue why they did it. I wondered if that was the way all adults looked at children. Even my teachers did it sometimes. Eventually, I figured out that they only did it with me.” She paused and looked around the room. “I know some of you here today are probably wondering if you’re one of the people I’m talking about, and yeah, some of you are, but that’s nothing to feel bad about, I don’t hold a grudge. As I grew up, I began to understand the whispered words and hushed comments of ‘how sad,’ and ‘what a terrible thing to have happened.’ I began to feel more confused. Yes, I was well aware that my mum had died, and that did sometimes make me feel a little sad when I saw all the other mums waiting at the school gate, but it was only for a second. Just a very split second, because then, I would see her.”
Sarah leaned around me so she could set her gaze on Nan.
“My nan. Her beautiful blue eyes would light up as I approached her, and all was right in my world. Never in the entirety of my childhood did I feel that I was missing out because I didn’t have a mum. I didn’t need one. My nan and my grandad did their utmost to make sure any kind of loss, void, or emptiness was filled with love, light, and laughter. They stepped up at a time when they should’ve been starting to think about retirement, and they took on a three and an eleven-year-old. They showered us with love and affection, but they never spoiled us. They made sure we never went without but taught us that anything was possible with hard work. With a whole lot of input from Luke, they raised me to be a woman worthy of the love of Liam Delaney. Between them, they are responsible for making me the woman this man wanted to make his wife.”
There wasn’t a dry eye in the room. All I could hear were sniffles and the occasional sob. All I could see was Sarah.
“I promise you, Liam, I will always try to be the woman I was raised to be. I promise you, Nan, Grandad, and Luke, I will always do my best to make you proud, and I thank all three of you from the bottom of my heart for today and every day that you’ve been there for me when no one else was. I ask you all to stand now and raise a glass to Mai, Archie, and Luke, the people that guaranteed I had a future, and to Liam, the man that is my future.”
I wasn’t sure what to do. Was I supposed to stand or sit? Mai’s hand reached out and took mine.
“Do you realise how very lucky we are to have her in our lives?”
She was dabbing under her eyes with a hanky as she spoke.
“I do, Mai. It scares the shit outta me if I’m being honest with ya. I’m so worried that I’ll let her down.”