At this point I stopped reading because my eyes were closing and my body was tight with tension, bursting with the need to come. His words and the thought of him doing what he described pushed me over the edge and I sighed his name as the orgasm crashed through me in blissful, rolling waves.
Then I lay there for a moment, panting and sweaty, until I recovered enough to pick up the phone.
Oh my god
Oh my god
I can’t
Type
Are you breathing?
Heavily
Did you come?
Hard
Did you like it?
YES. My turn.
I rolled onto my stomach, smiling mischievously. If you were here, I’d be begging you to fuck me right now.
Would you?
Yes. You’ve got me hot and wet and wanting you.
What do you want?
First I want my hands on your cock.
I want to feel how big and hard it is.
I want to wrap my fingers around it and wonder how I’m going to take it all inside me. I’m remembering how hard you fucked me years ago, so deep it hurt.
But I liked it.
I think about it all the time.
I make myself come when I fantasize about it. He wasn’t typing back. I hoped his fingers were busy. Can you feel my hands on you?
Yes
Good. Now I want to straddle you and rub the tip of your cock against my *, so you can feel how wet I am.
oh fuck
I take my time, slide down onto you, inch by inch.
I take you all the way in, so deep I can barely breathe.
I move my hips over yours, slowly at first.
I lean over you, kiss you, taste myself on your lips.
You put your hands on my ass, force me to move faster, ride you harder.
jesus fuck
I smiled even wider. This was like directing my own porn movie. I only wished I could see him, his white shirt and black pants undone, his hand on his dick, his eyes dark with lust. God, I could come again just thinking about that.
But I was on a mission.
Now for the big finish.
I can feel you getting even harder and bigger, you’re hitting that perfect spot inside me, the one that makes my entire body clench up, my heart pound. I’m screaming your name as I come on your cock, and I bounce up and down even faster and harder, and it’s so tight and wet and hot and you dig your fingers into my ass and tell me you’re going to come. And then I feel you do it deep inside me and I don’t stop moving until I’ve taken every last drop and feel your body go still.
OK, that had to do it, right?
I waited for him to text me back. It took a minute, and then the messages came in slowly.
Um
Fuck
That was
So hot
I laughed softly. It was.
Be right back
OK
I assumed he went to clean up a little, and I was thirsty, so I pulled on my t-shirt and took a minute to wash my hands and grab a water from the fridge. A few seconds after I got back into bed, he messaged me.
Hey.
Hey.
That was amazing.
Agreed.
I’m surprised I didn’t wake up my kid.
I giggled. Were you that loud?
I don’t know. Maybe. You were very vivid in your description.
It was very vivid in my head. I confess… I may have thought about it before.
You mentioned that.
It’s the truth. I hesitated. Did you ever think about me?
You know I did.
I don’t. Tell me.
I thought about fucking you. A lot.
Where?
Um, wherever I happened to be jerking off.
Hahaha that’s not what I meant. I meant when you pictured it, where were we?
I have no idea. I don’t think I pictured anything but bodies.
I sighed. You’re such a guy. But I’ll take it. I like that you thought about fucking me.
But now I want the real thing. Not in a closet. Not on the phone.
My breath caught. Me too.
Maybe we should go on a date first.
Haha maybe. Although we have already banged in a closet and sexted. The jig is up.
Right. But I would still like to take you out.
My whole body tingled, and I wiggled my toes. OK.
I’ll call you this week.
Sounds good. Night.
Night.
I set the phone on the nightstand and pulled the covers up to my chin, unable to keep the smile off my face. All the worry in my head, and all the tension in my body, had been replaced by something else.
Exhilaration. Anticipation. Hope.
This felt like the beginning of something.
Setting my phone aside, I lay back on my bed and put my hands behind my head, my legs crossed at the ankles. Probably I should take off my pants and hang them up, put my shirt in the laundry basket, check on Scotty…but for a moment, I just wanted to lie there and think about her. Not about today’s minor meltdowns over the yellow spoon or the seam in his socks, or the major ones about the hair-washing and stained pajamas. Not about the conversation with my mother in which she told me I wasn’t severe enough in disciplining my son when he acted out. Not about the arguments with my sister in which she told me I can’t keep letting Scotty make the rules. Not about the email I got yesterday from the school saying they still don’t have his new IEP ready despite the testing results being sent to them weeks ago.
For a moment, I blocked all that out. I wasn’t anyone’s son or brother or father or advocate. I was just a man thinking about a woman.
But just for a moment.