Solo

Was it Anansi the Spider? Lucy says.

That was it, Lucy. We even made up songs about that dayum spider.

In Ghana folklore, Anansi carries knowledge and stories to help us triumph over challenges.

Come to think of it, Blade, that’s when we knew you were gonna be a rocker.

You’ve been dreaming up your childhood, my dear, Lucy says. Remembering the gift you have. Your father tells me you are a natural storyteller, that you weave powerful songs.

You said that, Dad?

Yeah, he said it, Uncle Stevie hollers. Back from the dead, eh?

Birdie, get this rebirth on camera. Get us hugging, Dad says, and she does just that, and it’s not all that bad to be

in the spotlight

anymore.

We’ve missed you, Mr. Blade, Joy says, kissing me on the cheek.

At the top

of a mountain

across a rainforest in the middle

of the bush

it seems

I have figured out the dream

and discovered

that what I’ve been searching for

has been inside

of me

this whole time.





We walk outside


where the sun blinds

and cures

at the same time.

I wave at the children

and still feel like

I’m floating

through a web

of dreams,

pulling strands

of spider silk

away from the past,

so I can step into

the here

the now.





Conspiracy


A Ghanaian bon voyage feast has been prepared

to nurture our spirits before the long

journey back.

After the meal

Joy says, with devious smile, Perhaps you should play something for us, Blade.

I don’t have my guitar, I hit back, swiftly.

Use mine, Dad says, high fiving Joy and handing me his Custom-Polished-Finish Godin, which no one has ever played but him.

Yes, won’t you play a song for me, Blade? Lucy says, knowing she’s won the second she asked.

Whatchu know about that 5th Avenue Archtop, kid? That’s a vintage guitar right there, Uncle Stevie shouts at me.

Watch and learn, old man, I shoot back, readying myself

to play

the biggest concert

of my life.





Track 13: Landslide


ROCKERS: FLEETWOOD MAC / ALBUM: FLEETWOOD MAC / LABEL: REPRISE RECORDING DATE: JANUARY 1975 STUDIO: SOUND CITY STUDIOS, VAN NUYS, CALIFORNIA.

Stevie Nicks was tired.

In her twenties with a mountain of woes

and a notebook filled with music to help

her climb

out of it.

Hmmm, sounds familiar.

Unsure

if she should continue as a musician or go back to school, she gave herself six months,

six more months to find her song.

She went to Aspen, and with great mountains surrounding her, she wrote a song that became a classic.

And so did she.

And so did her band.

I think I have found my Aspen,

my great mountain, yet a part of me is still afraid to climb

to face myself.

I’m still afraid.

to read

The Letter

like the words themselves

will cause

a landslide

of emotion

that will bury me alive.

What if it’s too much?

What if I let them—her—down?

What if I can’t survive the landslide of love

that I’ve found all around me?





Lucy walks us to the path


we hug goodbye

for a long, long time.

I declare, it’s a weird life, Blade, when your deepest prayers and hopes are fulfilled, she says.

She is everything

I never expected her to be.

And hoped she could be.

And prayed she would be.

Thank you, Lucy November, I say, not wanting to let go.

I love you, is what I want to add, so I do.





Home


The walk through the forest

and down from the mountain’s summit is uneventful and filled

with silence and happiness.

The bus

takes us back to the place we all call home.

We are met

by children and adults who cannot hide their emotions.

We think

they will celebrate our return with feast and dance all evening.

But it’s not a celebration that’s on their minds . . .





Chaos


There is so much commotion.

So many people shouting at Joy

we don’t know where to run who to see

what to do.

It’s Sia, she says to us. She is sick. We must go.

Where, where is she?

We dash

to the local hospital, a thirty-minute drive, and suddenly the rainforest the pineapple the familial reunion seem far, far away and a much easier trek than this.





Diagnosis


Rutherford says he’ll pay the world to save her.

But money can’t buy everything.

Why did you tell me she was okay? he yells at Joy.

We did not know how serious it was, she answers, between sobs.

IT’S MALARIA, HOW COULD YOU NOT KNOW? he continues.

Dad, you don’t need to scream at her. She’s scared too.

We all are.

What are they doing for her? he asks, somewhat cooler.

We are treating the malaria with medication, the nurse says.

This lethal word is like an arrow aimed at chest, cutting through skin and bone, piercing heart

and soul.





The mosquito


is an invisible murderer,

piercing possibility

sucking futures

with its six-sworded

proboscis.

It knows just

where to bite,

which vessels

to attack,

and it shows

no mercy.

It won’t even spare

the children.





What Matters


Rutherford sits on the edge

of Sia’s bed,

holding her hand.

He’s humming twinkle, twinkle, trying to soothe her aches and pains.

I know I could get her the best care back at home. I’m going to adopt her, Blade. Bring her home with me.

I don’t think it’s that easy, Dad.

I don’t care how much it costs.

I watch him

try to get her to eat a little, to drink a little, to laugh a little, to live

a little

longer.





Unlikely, but True


Rutherford holds Sia,

tells her stories

like a father to a child.

She looks up at his face.

You can tell

a smile wants

to find its way

out.

Strange,

even in the most unlikely

of faces you can find

love.





Sia is sitting up


taking broth, baby-sized spoonfuls.

She tugs

on Rutherford’s hair; he leans

into her

and whispers something

I can’t hear.

She grabs my hand, her little fingers pull mine

like they’re triggers shooting love, and with scratchy throat says, Uncle, Game!

So we play I Spy.

I spy something brown and round, I begin.

She points to my eyes.

Then Rutherford’s.

Then hers,

as if we’ve all come from

the same line of tired,

worried browns.

She smiles at us and musters

a beautiful wink.

Our Sia is coming back.

And that warms my doubtful gut.





In a voice


that carries

love, care,

protection

and all the things a father should bring to the world,

Rutherford says You guys don’t need to stay. I’ll be here with her. I’ll keep her smiling. Go on, take the bus, back to the village. Get some rest.

What about you?

Ah, you know rock stars don’t sleep anyway. Plus, I got Birdie and Stevie here to talk trash with while we wait this out. Don’t you two worry. She’s gonna be fine. I promise you that.

Take Travis too, Uncle Stevie hollers. Poor chap hasn’t been the same since the climb.

He hugs me,

and, for once,

it feels right

and good

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