“I was scared we’d missed it during our workout,” Kinsley added giddily. “Andie, can you see okay?”
I glanced up to see them all staring at me again. Why did they keep doing that?
I smiled and shot them a thumbs up. Sure, the chair I’d picked was facing away from the TV, but I’d already seen enough already. The cameras had zoomed in on Freddie during his warm-up. He already had his jacket off, so every inch of his tan chest was being broadcast in HD. His swim cap covered his hair and his goggles concealed his eyes, but his sharp cheekbones and strong jaw were enough to make my stomach hurt. I twisted back around and stared at my sandwich. Somehow I doubted I’d be able to manage another bite.
“It’s starting, Andie!” Kinsley exclaimed.
I nodded and tried on a plastic smile. It felt tight and uncomfortable, but at least no one seemed to notice. I hadn’t filled them in on my break from Freddie or the pregnancy. Part of me was happy to keep it closer to my heart, and part of me was sick of thinking about it at all. For the last two days, I’d analyzed his announcement. Had he seemed happy? Lost? Excited? Anxious?
“Aren’t you going to watch?!” Becca asked.
“Take your marks,” the announcer said through the TV.
I glanced over my shoulder and watched Freddie bend down and grip his podium. His shoulders and back flexed with the effort. His strong muscles rippled and I bit down on the inside of my cheek. The camera zoomed out, the buzzer went off, and Freddie dove into the water.
My heart raced as he swam, though it looked so effortless to him. He was nothing but beautiful lines and hard muscles slicing through the water with unbelievable speed. The other swimmers stayed close, but Freddie seemed to be on another level. He cleared the first lap, hit the wall, and spun around, all before I’d taken a single breath.
Every part of Freddie was meant to be in the water. His speed and grace were mesmerizing, and before I’d fully wrapped my head around his skill, he’d touched the start wall and finished the race. Gold. Freddie surfaced from the water, pulled the goggles from his eyes, and glanced up the scoreboard. My heart pounded against my chest and I pressed my hand to feel the rhythm of it.
He was beautiful, glistening with water and beaming from ear to ear. A drop of water slid down his cheekbone and I found myself smiling along with him, grinning despite my broken heart.
“Andie?”
I spun around at the sound of my name. Kinsley, Becca, and Liam were staring up at me again, but this time it was because I was blocking the TV. Sometime during his race, I’d moved from my chair to stand within an inch of the screen.
“Oh, sorry,” I said, stepping back and taking the seat beside Kinsley on the couch.
She wrapped her arm around my shoulder and shook me back and forth. “I can’t believe he’s won four gold medals already! He’s amazing.”
“And he lo…likes you!” Becca said with a look of amazement. “Don’t you feel special?”
My smile fell, but everyone had turned back to the TV to watch the celebration. “Something like that,” I nodded. “Anyway, that’s probably enough for now,” I said, reaching for the remote.
“Wait!” Becca said, blocking my path and grabbing it before I could. “He’s about to do interviews.”
Oh lord. “I doubt it. He’s pretty private.”
But I was wrong. I’d barely stepped into my room when I heard him speak through the TV. The last time I’d heard his accent, he’d torn my heart in two, but as he greeted the reporter, he sounded like his normal self, confident and sexy. I stood just inside my door, listening to him out of sight of the others.
“Do you care to elaborate on what’s been distracting you?” the young reporter asked in response to Freddie’s answer as to why he’d been able to swim faster than usual.
Another reporter spoke over him. “Is it Andie Foster?”
My gut clenched at the mention of my name. I stared up at my ceiling and waited with bated breath for his answer.
“I’m here to win gold, not hearts,” Freddie answered with a clipped tone.
My breath caught short in my chest. It was the right thing to say, but that didn’t make it any easier to hear.
“So does that mean the rumors about you and Andie Foster aren’t true?”
“…my focus is on swimming, not American football players.”
I stepped away from the door before I could hear another word. My heart was already ripped apart; there was no need to rub salt in the wound. I reached for my phone and locked myself in my bathroom before Kinsley and Becca could pester me with questions about the interview. They were smart girls; they could connect the dots without having to see the hurt in my eyes.
I turned on the faucet of the bathtub and turned to my phone to silence it. Just before I could set it down by the tub, a text from Georgia caught my eye.
Georgie: He’s only saying that so Caroline leaves you alone. REMEMBER THAT.
I typed out Does it even matter? but deleted it without hitting send. I already knew the answer.
CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
Andie