“Kidnapping is against the law, Skull, and I’ve had enough of men keeping me against my will. I want to take my daughter and leave,” she growls.
That pulls my attention to her face instead of the way that damn robe is caressing her body.
“My daughter stays here. She’s not leaving this compound, Beth.”
“Bullshit. Living in a club with a bunch of horny bikers getting their rocks off is no place for a small child.”
“I can remember a time you didn’t mind it.”
“I’m not that woman anymore, Skull.”
“A pity. I actually liked that woman,” I tell her, and I can see the exact moment my words hit her. She flinches. You would think that would bring me some sort of satisfaction. It doesn’t. If anything, it bothers me that it hurt her. Which, in turn, just makes me mad for still being a fool when it comes to her.
“Something about being lied to, held captive, almost dying and killing someone, changes you. Go figure. You said you weren’t turning me over to Colin,” she states, waiting for me to answer. I want to yell at her, shake her and ask if she ever knew who the fuck I was. How could she even think I would do that? How? God, I wish I could hate her.
“I’ve had enough of this bullshit,” I growl, turning to leave.
“I’m not staying, Skull. I’m going to leave, and I will take my daughter with me.”
“If you think I will ever let you keep my daughter away from me again, Beth…”
“I don’t want to keep her away from you,” she says, and the shock in her voice is not fake. I study her face, looking for signs that she’s taking me for a ride, but don’t find any.
“Then she stays here. You need to be close to her, so you need to be here too, at least for now. Problem solved. Now, if you’ll excuse me…”
“I’m not staying, and you’re welcome to see and visit Gabby anytime.”
“That doesn’t work for me,” I tell her, turning to face her fully.
“Too bad. Gabby and I can find a home close to your club. You can see her anytime and you can keep her and spend time with her within reason.”
“Will you listen to yourself? ‘Within reason’? This is my child we’re talking about. A child that you kept hidden from me. I’m not about to give you that chance again and no one, Beth, will ever keep my child from me again!”
“I’m not trying to keep you from her! But, I’m not about to give her up either. We have to learn to work this out, Skull! For Gabby!”
“She’s here and you’re here and that’s it. It’s worked out!”
“It’s not worked out. You can’t stand to look at me! Your girlfriend is outside waiting to…”
“To what, Beth? Go ahead say it! I dare you.”
“It’s none of my business what you choose to do with her,” she growls, her face red and her hair scattered across her shoulder, rumpled from her being in bed. I shouldn’t find her sexy in the midst of this fight. I shouldn’t even notice it, but I do.
And my dick does. Motherfucker.
“You got that right. Christo! You lost the chance to care about who was in my bed when you lied to me and planned to leave me that day in Beast’s hospital room! Anything that has happened since is on you, Beth. It’s all on you.”
“Bullshit! What would you have had me do, Skull? I was nineteen, scared of my father. I was ready to tell him to fuck off, to leave me alone. In fact, I had. But he had one last card to play. My sister. Did you expect me to just let him kill her? I couldn’t do that. I still wouldn’t, even if I could go back, I’d help Katie. I’d save Katie!”
“And that’s the problem, isn’t it Beth? You chose Katie over me. Over a life with me and my daughter. You turned your back on me. You didn’t give me a chance to try and save Katie for you. You didn’t trust me with anything!” I growl, her words wounding me, cutting open holes in my soul I thought scabbed over, creating pain where I had finally thought I was dead.
“How was I supposed to trust you could save Katie? Your own man was the one who helped my father. You couldn’t even protect your own club! I did what I had to do to protect my family!”
Her words are truthful. She’s just saying aloud the very thing that I have struggled the most with, the very reason Pistol is still drawing breath. I should have ended the fucking asshole way before he got the chance to betray me.
“Me voy de aquí,” I growl. I can’t do this with her. I can’t. I know my failures are the last thing I want to hear Beth throw in my face.
“Go, but it doesn’t matter. I’m leaving, Skull. I’m not staying under the same roof with you.”
I’ve turned so my back is to her. I take a breath. I don’t want her here either. She’s right. I can’t go on like this. Que así sea.