“Are you finally believing White truly loves you?”
“I was before this mess. After his visit in the hospital and our small talk, I think I still do. It’s just hard, Black.”
“Does he know you’re pregnant?” Black asks.
My eyes go wide and I exhale a loud breath. My hand goes to my stomach and I rub it. There’s no sign of a child yet, but somewhere in there is a little miracle that’s a part of White and a part of me, growing and getting stronger every day.
“How did you know?”
“Mom.”
“I should have known she couldn’t keep a secret.”
“She just told me because she wanted me to watch out for you. She’ll keep your secret—for a while. You’re going to have to tell my brother. He deserves to know. He thinks you’ve been on birth control all this time.”
“I know. I plan on telling him. I’m still trying to digest it all. I don’t know how it happened…”
“Kayla, sweetheart, you two have been going at it like bunnies.”
“Yeah, but I thought…”
“What’s the big deal? You two wanted a child, even if you didn’t realize how serious White was. You should be celebrating that little peanut you’re carrying in there.”
“I am. I mean, I’m very happy, it’s just… White is busy trying to figure out what my sister is up to, and there’s so much going on between us. I just wish we had things settled beforehand… you know?”
“So settle it. This crap with Rachel will come to a head quickly.”
“It will? Because she’s not that far along. Your idea of quickly and mine…”
“It won’t go that long. I’ve got a man on her now. All we have to do is follow her enough to find out exactly what’s going on.”
“A man on her? Is that legal?”
“She’s trying to blackmail my brother. It’s very legal. But regardless, other than the listening devices and a few other things, very little of the department’s resources are being used.”
“Except the fact that you have a man on her…”
“Luka volunteered.” Black grins. “But my boss would have sprung for it. When a star football player reports an attempt at blackmail, it’s taken very seriously.”
“She hasn’t asked for money or anything, really…”
“They don’t need to know that just yet. It’s all going to be okay, Kayla. You just need to have faith in yourself and White.”
“That’s easier said than done. I mean, not about White. I love him. It’s just—”
“Kayla I get you went through years of hell at the hands of your stepfather and Rachel. Plus, I’m sure it did things to you to have them leave you behind. But you are not a little kid now. You’re a grown woman who worked hard to put herself through school. You have friends, family, and love. You are not alone. If you had let us know, you wouldn’t have been alone then.”
“It’s hard for me to wrap my head around certain things sometimes…”
“Have you thought about counseling?”
“Even after all these years?” I ask him, twisting my hands nervously.
“It’s never too late and it’s clearly still causing you problems.”
“I might check into it…”
“Do it. You want to be healthy for that baby and my brother, but most of all, for yourself.”
“Okay, Black.”
“Good. Now how about we talk about the important stuff?”
“Like what?”
“Like naming my nephew Black Jr.,” he jokes, and I let out my first real laugh in days.
CHAPTER 61
KAYLA
“Where’d she go?” White growls as he bursts into the room. His eyes are on Black, but when he sees me, I can feel the anger increase. Black and I are hugging because I was getting ready to leave, but with White here, I don’t try and leave. Instead, I walk over to him. He looks down at me and I’m acting on instinct, or maybe I’m just finally letting myself be completely truthful and honest, letting go of all the guards I have between us. I reach up on my tip-toes and wrap my arms around his waist. I give myself a second to breathe in the masculine scent that is all White and then I kiss his chin before burrowing my head into his chest.
“I love you, White.” His arms go around me, and he tightens them in reflex at my words. I feel his chin settle against the top of my head.
“I love you too, Buttercup.” It’s a simple exchange, but for now, it’s enough. I stay there in White’s arms. I think he needs it, but I do too.
“I’m waiting for Luka to call,” says Black.
“I appreciate you hanging your ass out like this for me, man.”
“What are brothers for? Besides, they won’t fire me. I make them boys look good.”