When I failed to move, she pushed to her feet, her hand in mine. I stood and she guided me back to the bedroom where she dropped the towel and lay down.
I stared at her for several seconds, this remarkable woman who I’d go to the ends of the earth for, who I’d kill for if anyone tried to hurt her. I was confident, never thought twice about doing what I wanted, but seeing her lying naked on the bed, her wet hair splayed out on the pillow, her lips still quivering from crying, I was unsure.
And I was unsure because I didn’t want to hurt her and I wasn’t sure if this was what she needed right now.
“Kai. Take off your pants,” she said.
I raised my brows, with a mild twitch at the corner of my mouth. “And if I don’t think this is such a good idea?”
She pushed up on her elbows, which pushed out her breasts and my eyes flickered to them for a second before returning to her face. Fuck, she knew what it would do to me. I had been sleeping with her for five days. Held her. My cock rock hard, but not doing anything about it because she didn’t need that part of me. She needed a part I didn’t know I had. The one that held her close and soothed while she sobbed herself to sleep.
“You do.”
“London—”
She interrupted and she never interrupted me. “If I touch you right now and you’re hard, then I know you want me and so I get you to fuck me. If you’re not hard, then we can lie here until I get you hard and then you can fuck me.”
I grinned, shaking my head and she did, too, but I still saw the pain lingering in her eyes. And I wanted to take that away. I wanted to ease her pain. “No need to touch me to know.”
My hands went to my belt and I unbuckled it. It clunked to the floor. My pants soon followed and then I lifted my T-shirt over my head and within seconds, stood naked beside the bed.
Her eyes roamed the length of me, hesitating on my throbbing cock, so I reached down and fisted it. Her gaze tipped to my face. “I get hard just thinking about you, braveheart.” I kneeled on the bed then straddled her body. “That four letter word isn’t enough for me.”
“Why?” she asked, breathless, as I settled between her legs that quickly wrapped around my hips.
I leaned in as if I were about to kiss her then whispered, “Because you’re my everything.”
Then my mouth met hers.
I’d tasted every inch of her, felt her body quiver around me and heard her moan then cry my name. And I did it twice before I had to get up and meet Deck and the guys.
I leaned over her and leisurely kissed her, my hand slowly gliding down her side to her hip then to her ass where I squeezed.
She moaned and kissed me back, slowly and lazily. Her hand moved up my arm, over my shoulder to the back of my neck where it took a fistful of hair and drew me in deeper.
It was my turn to groan before I pulled back, bringing her with me to a sitting position. “I need to do something.”
“I thought you were.”
I chuckled. “Mmm, I was, but not the something I need to be doing.”
She scrunched her nose and then her face fell as reality leaked its way back inside and I saw the devastation hit her again. She closed her eyes with a ragged sigh.
It was going to be a while before she accepted what had happened to her father. She wouldn’t forget, but she’d learn to live with his loss.
I kissed her again then got up, bent, picked up my cargo pants off the floor and my T-shirt. “I’m meeting Dorsey.” She swung her legs over the side of the bed, sheet held up to cover her breasts. “He’ll tell us the location of the farm if we hand over your father’s formula and the drug we confiscated from the lab.” I walked into the bathroom and tossed my clothes on the bathroom counter then said, “It going down in three hours.”
“Umm, Kai…” I raised my brows at the umm and she half-smiled, rolling her eyes. “I’ve been looking at the formula in my dad’s notes and there are some powerful drugs in there. I think I know why Connor would do whatever they wanted and he probably doesn’t even know it.”
I leaned my shoulder against the bathroom door and crossed my arms.
“Scopolamine. It’s from the seeds of a plant in Colombia.”
“Jesus Christ. Devil’s breath.” Dangerous drug and could be administered pretty much in any form, but the most fucked-up way was just by breathing in the chemically treated seeds that had been made into a powdered substance. Looked like cocaine, but much deadlier.
She nodded. “It steals your consciousness, your free will and your memory of what you’ve done. He’s mixed it with other chemicals though, one being steroids to make Connor feel stronger. I haven’t identified them all yet. But Kai, in the form he’s using, it’s not easy to get. And my dad… he said one component was hard to get.”
I stood up straight. “And he would’ve needed a contact in Colombia to get it for him.”
She nodded.