Out of the Clear Blue Sky

They talked for hours, laughing, telling each other stories. Melissa let her help herself to clothes, because who knew when she’d fit back into them? Besides, she could get new stuff.

All that loneliness inside Melissa seemed to melt away. Sisters. There was no one who knew you better or loved you more.

When Ophelia came home, she dropped her backpack, saw her mother and stood there, dumbfounded.

“Hey, baby,” Kaitlyn said, opening her arms.

“Mama!” Ophelia shouted, then bolted to Kaitlyn and flung herself into her mother’s arms, sobbing.

“Oh, baby, I missed you so much!” Katie was crying, too, and Melissa couldn’t keep her own tears from flowing, either.

It was a lovely scene. It wasn’t that her sister was a bad person. But she just wasn’t mother material. Ophelia was Melissa’s, and there was no way in hell she’d let Kaitlyn take her. No way Melissa was going to let Ophelia Harmony Spencer Finch become Harminee Fawn Cumbo once more.





CHAPTER 26





Lillie



Dylan went back home on January 23, and I gave myself a week to be melancholy and weepy, then got my shit together. It had been a good visit. He did not sleep over at Bralissa’s, though he had dinner there twice and informed me they had a chef bring dinner every day. Every day! He liked Ophelia and said the house was “huge and white” (which I knew from breaking and entering). Otherwise, he offered no commentary, which was mature and irritating.

He also told me about his classes, his grades (two As, an A minus and a B minus . . . pretty good, all things considered). He loved being on the football team, even when they did drills in the snow. The coach had said he might start next year if he worked on reading the plays a little better, but that his speed and defense were great. Dylan described the vast, glorious skies over Montana, and the day he and Chloe had driven to Flathead National Forest and had parked and gone for a hike, the wonder they felt when they saw a wolf not twenty feet away, staring at them. He was considering spending a summer out there, working at Yellowstone or Glacier National Park, and I couldn’t blame him.

And he would be home for the summer, but he was also going to fly to Spain for a week with Chloe’s family.

I was so happy. No. I was joyful. Take that, Brad! I’d always had joy, and its name was spelled D-Y-L-A-N.

But it wasn’t just Dylan. I’d forced myself to be more social these past few months, since I didn’t have the family I once did. After Beatrice had gone back to France, I had Hannah sleep over so she could be near Dylan and cry on my shoulder. Beth and Wanda and I did things more regularly, and I’d gone back to yoga after making sure Melissa didn’t use the same place.

One morning at work a few weeks after Dylan’s break ended, my cell phone rang. Elizabeth Coughlin. Thirty-nine weeks, four days. “Lillie Silva,” I said, already smiling.

“Hi, Lillie.” It was her husband, Tom. “Contractions are every seven or eight minutes, have been for a couple hours. My mom’s here to take care of Willow, so we’re ready to go if you give us the green light. Elizabeth says she’s done laboring at home.”

Because they lived in Truro and the hospital was an hour away, I said, “Sounds good to me. I’ll meet you at the hospital. Don’t speed, Tom!” I hung up, told Wanda that Elizabeth was in labor, and patted Carol on the head as I left.

I made it before them and stopped at the nurses’ station to chat with Tonya, the admin who ran the unit.

“What have we got today, Lillie?” she asked.

“Gravida two, thirty-nine weeks and four days, steady contractions. Mama’s name is Elizabeth, Daddy is Tom. No preexisting conditions, first baby came easily with no pain meds. Pregnancy has been picture-perfect, baby was head down and ready to go when we saw her Monday in the office.” In other words, all signals were go.

“Another baby today,” came a voice, followed by a heavy sigh, as if the birthing center produced calves or ducklings. It was, of course, Carline Schneider, ob-gyn, hater of pregnant women. She really needed to retire. “Where are we putting her? I’ll have to check her, I suppose.”

“No, no. Please have a nap or something. We’ll call you if we need you,” I said. Yes, there had to be an obstetrician at the hospital 24/7 in case of an obstetrical emergency, such as an unplanned C-section or postpartum hemorrhage. No, Carline didn’t need to helicopter around, telling the patient (and me) we were doing everything wrong.

Then the elevator dinged, and there they were. Elizabeth was walking slowly and a little hunched over, but she smiled when she saw me.

“The big day is upon us!” I said, hugging them both. “Let’s get you to your room and we can see where you are.”

“She doesn’t look full term to me,” Carline said. “Were the ultrasounds okay? That baby looks to be mighty small. Microcephaly, maybe?”

See? Retirement. Microcephaly was a birth defect in which the baby’s head was too small, causing a wide range of health issues. And Carline said these things right in front of them! I gave her an evil look. “Elizabeth is full term, and the ultrasounds were perfect. Right this way, guys.”

We got to the birthing suite, which consisted of a birthing tub, obstetrical bed that could be broken down in the middle so the mama could squat or sit, stirrups if she wanted to labor on her back, handles to adjust herself, and a birthing bar she could grab or lean against. The bathroom had an absolutely lovely shower with room enough for the partner, if that’s what mama wanted.

There was the ultrasound and fetal monitoring equipment, suction, infant resuscitation table (discreetly tucked in a closet), oxygen, nitrous oxide for pain control, couch, recliner, rocking chair, labor ball, state-of-the-art music system and adjustable lighting. Even flameless candles. Give me a kitchen, and I could live here quite happily.

I scrubbed my hands, put on gloves and waited till Elizabeth was ready for me to check her cervix. “One and a half centimeters,” I said, and she groaned. “Don’t worry. You can dilate really fast in some cases. In the meantime, do you want to put on your music? Have Tom rub your back?” She nodded, and her husband got to work.

Birthing plans were great, if fragile. They helped the mama feel more in control of a situation that could be overwhelming. For most women, this meant deciding on their support people, knowing who’d watch their other kids if need be, making a playlist, figuring out how to pass the time if labor was slow to progress. Elizabeth and Tom had been practicing hypnobirthing, which would help her relax and give her positive affirmations and visualizations, combined with deep breathing. Tom would massage her lower back for relief during a contraction. She wanted to walk the hall while she could, sit on the labor ball and maybe try to relax in the birthing pool, but she didn’t want a water birth. She’d try different positions while pushing to find the one that suited this delivery the best. After her son was born, she wanted to delay cord clamping for sixty seconds and wait a bit before he got the hep B vaccine, vitamin K to prevent clotting and eye ointment to prevent bacterial infection.

While Elizabeth wanted a medication-free labor, she was open to nitrous oxide and Demerol before she’d try an epidural. A C-section only if her life or the baby’s was in danger.

A perfect plan, in my opinion. She knew how intense labor was from her first go-round, and she wasn’t fixated on any one method. Well-rounded and well-thought-out. As Tom and Liz murmured to each other, I texted Ben and asked him to feed Zeus and, if possible, take him for a walk.

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