Even our lovemaking has turned quiet. Nothing but shifting sheets and the sound of our bodies moving together. Even if we do derive pleasure from our bonding, it seems wrong to celebrate. It seems a betrayal to my fallen brothers.
I enter Bunny’s room and take a deep breath. The room smells a little musty—the stale chemical of his paints—closed since the day of his traitorous actions. I’ve had my nose stuck in books or obsessing over the news. Morgan goes to the dungeons to interrogate Anita. I’ve been unable to even walk down the hall and step foot in the place where I allowed Bunny’s escape.
But now I’m at a loss. My books are useless against whatever magic Bunny conjured to pass between realms and shut us out. So now I’m here, hoping to find something that will help us.
I stop before the torn canvas—the one Bunny used as a portal for escape. I ripped it—ruined it—in my haste to stop him. It may have been our only way to the Otherside. For all I know, it may have been their only way back.
The Raven Guard.
I’ve no doubt they’re still alive. Suffering, but alive.
Morgan thinks they’re dead and I’ve allowed that for the time being. She hasn’t said the words, but I see it in the dark shadows of her eyes, and in the tears that slip down her cheeks when she thinks I don’t notice. It’s better that she thinks they’re gone. The alternative is worse. Being a prisoner at the hands of the Goddess of War is like standing in the fiery pits of hell. If she realized…if she understood…
I can barely think of it myself and push back the weight of guilt of knowing they’re bearing it without me at their side.
Which is why I finally caved and came back to Bunny’s studio. Why I’m searching, day after day, for a fucking break—just the smallest clue. We can’t give up on the others. They’re alive, at least physically, and it’s my obligation to bring them back.
*
I’ve completely lost track of time when I hear her footsteps on the stairs. I’ve been staring at painting after painting, castle after castle, trying to see something in the imagery for what feels like hours, when Morgan enters the room. She has smudges of dark under her eyes, either from lack of sleep or losing her power. The sight guts me. Another failure to add to the others.
“Hey,” she says, leaning against the door. Her arms cross over her chest and she watches me.
“How’s the prisoner today?” I ask.
“Fucking deranged.”
“So like yesterday?”
“Maybe a little worse. Now she’s speaking in riddles or something.” She sighs and walks over to where I’m standing. “What’s going on in here?”
“Just trying to see if Bunny left any sort of clue on how he got the portal open.” I pretend saying his name isn’t a punch to my insides, and gesture to his worktable. “He took a bunch of stuff the day he left. Probably whatever I would need to figure out how to get the gate open myself.”
Morgan steps closer and slips her delicate hand in mine. Just the sensation of her skin against mine sends a shock of energy up my spine. “We’ll figure it out.”
“We’re running out of time. Did you watch the news today?” I ask. She shakes her head. “People are getting sick outside of New York now, it’s spreading.”
I hate the look of pain and guilt on her face. It probably matches my own. She squeezes my hand and asks, “What do we do?”
“I’m out of my league here. If,” I swallow, “if Damien was here he could probably figure out the magic, but without some kind of lead, I’m clueless. We’re going to have to find help.”
“Where? Who can help us with this?”
I kiss her on her forehead. “Come on, I think I have an idea.”
Chapter 3
Morgan
If I had to choose a guardian to fight with at the end of the world, I’m not sure it would be Dylan.
Not that I don’t think he’s worthy; he’s strong and capable, quick and smart, confident and secure. But, he’s also emotionally disconnected at times, making it a struggle for us to comfort one another. We’re both a little lost, definitely on edge, and as we walk down the long, narrow hallway beneath Tran’s magic shop, I really miss my other Guardians.
“Find a table,” he says as we enter the seedy, underground bar. A flare of magic ripples over me and I give the bouncer a questioning look.
“Disarming wards. No magic in here,” the burly man replies.
“I doubt I’m much of a threat.”
He looks me over and I can’t help but stare at the twisting rope of tattoos around his neck. They look like they’re moving. “Sure, sweetheart, that’s what dangerous ones all say.”
Dylan nods as he steps through and I feel his fingers leave my back as I step into the room and he walks toward the bar.
Seriously, where’s Sam or Damien when I need them? Ugh, scratch that. The despair that lives around my heart roars.
I know they’d have us in a quiet, unassuming corner already with drinks on the table. I glance back at Dylan, who’s engaged in a conversation with the bartender, a girl with smooth skin and fiery eyes. More than one customer looks between me and Dylan, making some kind of connection. I forget that the Raven Guard is notorious. I wonder if they know what happened to the others—how fast does news travel in the supernatural world?
The place is packed and there’s definitely an interesting vibe. An energy—disabled powers or not. Having never been here, I have no idea if it’s normal or not, but I suspect everyone is aware of the virus ravaging the city and came down here to drink their worries away.
Probably like every other bar in the city.
A familiar-looking man catches my eye as I search for a table; he tilts his head my way. His eyes are so very dark, but there’s a calmness rolling off his person and something that makes me want to go over to him. Even stripped of his magic, I can tell he’s powerful.
“No,” a voice says in my ear. Dylan’s voice. He presses his hand against my back, steering me in the opposite direction. “Not tonight.”
“Who is that?” I ask, feeling the tug as we walk away.
“You don’t recognize him?” An open table appears against the back wall. I’d just looked over here. Did he conjure it out of thin air? I shake my head at Dylan’s question. “That’s the Shaman from the fights.”
“Oh,” I glance back. The Shaman is still watching me. “I thought he was a good guy.”
Dylan laughs as he pulls out my chair. I sit and he scoots it in, like a proper guardian and gentleman. When he’s in his own seat he says, “Everyone in here has various shades. The Shaman can feel your pain. He wants to cure it—but every fix comes with a price.”
“How do you know?”
“Despite this form, I’ve lived a long life, Morgan.” He looks across the room and locks eyes with the Shaman. “He is older than I am.”
The concept is overwhelming. I feel childish and na?ve. Which I probably am, compared to the others in the room. Yet, I sense their awe when they look at me. They must see past my body. Past my flesh and into my soul, where I don’t feel young at all.
“So you bargained with him?”
A flicker of anger tics at his jaw. “Why do you think we agree to the monthly fights? Our talents, tactics, and weaknesses are not meant for display. They are for battles and war.”