In the end, a pie was made. Polly was great with a rolling pin, and when the crust tore a little bit, which was normal, she listened patiently as I taught her how to wet her fingers and pinch and smooth it back together. She asked if, when that happened, if it was a good time to dance, and I agreed. So we paused for thirty seconds for an impromptu dance break, to Leo’s great delight. Polly didn’t understand why he laughed so hard, and told him, “Daddy, dancing helps sometimes.” How could he argue with that?
He stayed in the background mostly, fielding phone calls on occasion. I was getting the sense that his taking the day off was unexpected, and I wondered for the millionth time where Polly had been, and why she’d suddenly appeared. The note he’d left in my bed this morning referenced moving cows, gathering strawberries, and getting me green. Nowhere was anything mentioned about daughters piggyback riding.
After the pie went into the oven Polly went out to play, stopping just shy of the back door to thank me for letting her help bake. Now, alone in the kitchen with Leo, maybe I could get some answers.
“I’m hungry—you hungry?” he asked, turning away and rummaging in the pantry. Answers would not come quite yet, apparently.
“I’m not so much hungry as I am confused.”
“Confused?” he repeated, seeming to be determined to make me say it all. To put my shit right out there before he did.
“Confused, as in, what the hell, Leo? Why didn’t you ever tell me you had a—”
The front door slammed. “Can we go down and see the chickens? I want to see if they remember me.” Polly came running into the kitchen, and stopped just short of plowing into me. “I mean, when the pie’s done, of course.”
I knew my limit, and I’d just about reached it.
“You know what, I think I’m gonna take off now. Don’t worry, the timer is set, and remember what I said about seeing the juice bubbling up? When the timer goes off, if the pie is bubbling, it’s ready to come out. If not, just give it a few more minutes. You can help her check on the bubbling, right, Leo?”
“Rox—” he started.
I spun for the door. “I’ll get the baking stuff later. Nice to meet you, Polly.”
I all but sprinted for the door, hauled ass across the lawn, and was backing out of the driveway in the time it takes to say there she blows.
All things considered, I thought I’d handled it pretty well. Until I realized I’d forgotten my purse.
I slowed down to the speed limit. There was no way I was going back now.
Chapter 18
I slammed the pan down on the burner. My knife cut angrily through the butter. I tossed a pat or two into the pan, watching it instantly sizzle.
Dammit.
I added olive oil, swirled the two together, then pressed a sixteen-ounce rib eye into the hot pan. I let it char on one side, while I chopped the parsley as if it had done something personal to me.
Dammit.
I listened to the steak sizzle, trusting my ears to tell me when it was time to flip it as I murdered the parsley. The familiar rhythm of chopping distracted me from the thoughts that were rolling around inside my brain like bowling balls? heading down the alley toward my very firmly ensconced pins.
Pin 1. Don’t get involved.
Pin 2. Enjoy the penis. Engage no other organ.
Pin 3. Attachments are for suckers. See also Mom.
Pin 4. Falling in love sucks.
Whoa, whoa, hold the phone there. Falling in love? Who said anything about—
I mentally picked up the bowling balls and threw them through the plate glass window in the bowling alley in my mind.
Dammit!