She only knew that when he started talking again she had the urge to put her fingers in her ears.
“Of course I do those things. Having your cock sucked is fucking amazing,” he said, which was absolutely fine. But then he kept going. He kept going. “The heat and the slickness and her looking up at you as she works it with her hands and lips and tongue. Especially the tongue. The tongue is the best part. Watching it curl right around the—”
“Well, okay, it sounds cool when you put it that way.”
God her voice sounded loud. And too fast again, too.
All her words practically jumbled together.
“I don’t know what other way it could possibly be.”
“How about hold still while I fuck your face? Some guy coming right in your eye? Losing a chunk of hair because he pulled too hard?”
“You’re not serious. Tell me honestly. None of that happened.”
Now his voice was bright with amusement.
But it didn’t make her feel any better.
“All of that happened. To me. More than once.”
“Yeah but after…”
“After what?”
“After he came then he…”
He made a circle with his hand, as though she should know that one thing logically followed on from the other. It was all completely easy and obvious.
Instead of the hardest quiz she had ever had to get through.
“Then he what? Gave me cab fare?”
“No. No. After that then this happens.”
She glanced at the thing he was pointing at.
Then had to look away again, quick. At her hands, at the bedspread.
At him, as he oh-so-slowly realized what her sudden awkwardness meant.
“This has never happened to you. Holy shit. You’ve never had a guy go down on you.”
“I have had a guy go down on me. I totally have.”
“Are you sure about that? You don’t look sure.”
“Well, maybe not like this.”
“There’s no other way to do it. This is actually the most basic, ordinary way to go about eating pussy.”
“Yeah, but this seems really exciting and sexy and hot.”
“Going down on a girl is really exciting and sexy and hot. Like I said about giving a guy head? Exactly the same principle. You get to see her writhe and shake and push herself against your mouth. Just like that, just like Sarandon is doing. Look at her. Look at her.”
“I am. I am looking,” she said, but she wasn’t, not really.
She was thinking of the shiver that had gone through her when he said look, soft as butter and so oddly tender. And the way that he was looking himself, eyes almost far away.
Like he was seeing Sarandon, but putting someone else in her place.
“Think about how it must feel.”
“Yeah I can…I get that…”
“Think about his tongue slowly easing over her soft folds.”
“Is that…how…is that what you…”
“Uh-huh.”
“And it works?”
Her voice was a whisper now.
But that was okay. His was, too.
It was so low he had to lean close to ask her questions.
He had to meet her gaze, and she had to meet his.
“What works?”
“It makes her…you know. Come.”
“Oh yeah. But you gotta take your time.”
“I see. I guess that makes sense.”
“Let it build, nice and slow. Start by just stroking her with your fingertips. Work her, you know, until her lips part. And then when she’s all open to you, you just trace the shape of her with your tongue. Lick and lick in these ever decreasing circles until you’re right…fucking…there.”
“Where? Where…where are you?”
She shouldn’t have asked. She knew she shouldn’t as soon as it was out. Their faces were too close together now, and his body seemed to be looming over hers. That was his shoulder, almost nudging her chin. And his thigh, pressing deep and hard into hers. His answer was never going to make any of this better.
Then it came, hotter than molten lava and twice as destructive.
“Her clit. Her slick, swollen clit.”
“I see. That makes sense,” she said, even though that wasn’t what she wanted to go with.
No, what she wanted to go with was more like oh my fucking God this can’t be reality.
“Then you just…stroke it.”
“Uh-huh.”
“Until she’s mindless.”
“Yeah. Yeah.”