Murder Notes (Lilah Love #1)

“Why did you ask if you thought I’d say no?”

“I thought I’d have to nag you for a few days.”

“I’ll go. I assume the damn thing is formal?”

“Yes.”

“Oh yippee. I get to dress up and play Hollywood.” I grimace. “I’m hanging up. I need pie right now.”

“What? You need pie? What the—”

I hang up, set my phone down, open the lid to the pie, and dig a fork in. Strawberries, whipped cream, and a shortbread crust have me moaning. “So good,” I murmur, taking another bite. I stand there, shoving bites into my mouth, and I don’t let myself think of anything else. This is my yoga, the calm in the storm that de-juices my brain. I’m halfway through the pie when my stomach starts to stretch. I close the lid, start to put it in the fridge, and decide better. Me, my fork, pie, and gun make our way toward Purgatory, where my MacBook and that confession transcript hopefully await.

Once I’m there, I walk around the desk, my intent being to set down my pie on the desk, fork on the lid, ready for more action. And I do just that. Pie down. Fork down. Cujo still hanging out for backup. My MacBook waiting for use. All is well until I pull my chair out, and freeze-frame. In my seat is the plastic Baggie with the first note I’d received inside it. On top of it is another note that is open and reads: D is for Deception.

“F is for aren’t you fucking funny.” I scoop up both notes, careful to touch only the Baggie, but I really don’t know why. I am never sending in something for diagnostics that might implicate me in a crime. Junior knows that. I skip placing the new note in the Baggie and shove them both into the drawer.

I sit down and grab Cujo, cocking it and ensuring the bullets are still inside, and they are. Interesting. I’ll decide how interesting later. I grab my computer and pull it to me, intending to pull up the camera footage, in hopes that it grabbed something before the lights were killed. My e-mail flashes, and sure enough, my brother is in my inbox.

Sidetracked and with good reason, I pull up the e-mail: Agent Fucking Love,

Here it is.

Love,

Chief Fucking Love.

Transcript

Thursday

12:01 a.m.

This is Kevin Woods. She didn’t have to die but she’s dead now, you assholes. This wasn’t the way things were supposed to happen. I’m not going to let you kill me over this. I’m gone. I won’t be back. If you come for me, I will make a deal with the devil, and see you dead first.

That’s it.

That’s it?

That’s not a confession. He didn’t say he killed her. He said she didn’t have to die. Like he’s talking to the person who killed her. But the message was sent to Alexandra, and if she were involved, she wouldn’t turn over the recording. Exhibit A: The notes in my drawer that I’m not about to let anyone see. That call makes me think that he knows he’s being framed. And that she’s the ADA, married to Eddie, the detective handling his case, and that one or both are setting him up. But if that were the case, I still don’t believe she’d turn over this recording. Unless . . . that’s exactly what she wants me to think.

I shake the thought off and shove aside Kevin Woods for a moment, switching my screen to the security footage, tabbing through screens and timelines. Fifteen minutes later, I find the spot where it cuts off. There’s nothing worth seeing. My elbows go to my desk, my fingers laced under my chin. Why cut the power if the security code was hacked? Unless you knew I had a camera. Which means there has to be a camera somewhere in my house. Somewhere near the cameras I installed. But probably here, too. I start tearing apart the office, looking for bugs. Looking for any kind of surveillance equipment I can find.

Nothing. I find nothing.

I head down the stairs and start searching every room I frequent and end at the sliding glass door. My camera is still in place, and I look for angles that an additional camera would be placed to have seen me install it. But I find nothing. And yet, somehow Junior knew to cut the power. Maybe it’s a coincidence, but per my mentor, they don’t exist. One thing for certain is that Junior is trying to scare me into a corner and onto a plane. And the list of people that fit that profile seems to be growing by the moment.

I decide to give Junior a message of my own. I walk to the sliding glass door, open it, and exit, stepping to the center of the patio, certain Junior is lurking. “You’ve made things interesting,” I call out. “I’m staying. In fact, I might not ever leave.” With that announcement, I start walking, and I don’t stop until I’m standing in the very spot that night happened.

“Challenge issued,” I whisper, lifting my arms into the cold wind, my hair blowing around my face. “Game on.” And now, it seems I’m not the only one that can see where the blood once pooled at my feet. Maybe Junior can even spy my sea of blood. Maybe that sea of blood is why Junior is a coward and stays in the shadows. But whoever Junior is, they won’t be there for long. I’m going to rip him or her from that shelter and strip away those unisex clothes.

I don’t know what happens once I do, but I’ll figure it out.





CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

I must have fallen asleep on the floor of Purgatory, because that’s where I wake up, lying on my back, staring at the ceiling, with the sound of my phone ringing, my body stiff and cold. I reach for the incessant-ringing beast and roll to my side to grab it, pictures of dead bodies and note cards now crumpled beneath me. Grabbing the phone, I sit up, a note card stuck to my hand that I shake off, and eye the caller ID, only to realize it’s not a call. It’s my alarm. I actually decided to sleep here because I had no energy to find my way to bed. I sit up and put my hand in the remainder of the strawberry pie, which is basically crumbs and whipped cream.

“Fabulous,” I say, licking whipped cream from the side of my pinky finger before checking my phone app to confirm I have no calls, and indeed, I have no calls. Which does not please me, considering I’ve called my brother, Eddie, and Alexandra numerous times about this Woods situation. They’re territorial. I get that. It’s a fairly normal reaction when the feds show up, except that I’m not just any agent. I’m flipping family. I also get that my father now wants to be a big-time politician and that he wants the case closed with as little press as necessary.

What I don’t understand is that phone call to Alexandra that makes me think she knows Woods, or why that call would be grounds for anyone to assume Woods’s guilt. Lord help me, this smells bad, and people I love are in the middle of it, which is why I need to get to Manhattan and try to expand my view before someone tampers with it.

I glance at the time on my phone: 4:40 a.m., otherwise known as too damn early. Unless, of course, you haven’t arranged a chopper and don’t want to drive three hours to Manhattan to investigate a murder, and therefore need to make one of the only morning trains out of this place, and I do. I push to my feet, grabbing a note card now stuck to my sticky hand and reading it: KAREN ADAMS—WOODS’S EX-GIRLFRIEND. Of course, I won’t be the first one to go and see her, but I am the first one who can bond over an ex with an unwanted relationship with law enforcement.