THE JUDGE GAVELS the courtroom to order after the lunch break. The morning was spent arguing over the admissibility of my testimony, a bunch of lawyer-speak about the rules of evidence that nobody else in the courtroom understood.
Then I testified for an hour. I told the truth—that my uncle told me that Noah had confessed to him—and then I told a lie. I lied about when he told me. Does it really matter if he told me immediately after the confession or several hours later?
That’s what I’ve been telling myself over and over, anyway, that a handful of hours should not be the difference between a killer going to prison and his walking free to kill again.
Joshua Brody gets to his feet eagerly for cross-examination. My adrenaline starts to pump. I know what’s coming, and it’s something I have to willingly accept, the price I have to pay for testifying.
“Detective Murphy,” says Brody, “you once worked for the New York City Police Department, correct?”
He’s not wasting any time. “Yes. I resigned about a year ago.”
“At the time you resigned, you were under investigation by the Internal Affairs Division, isn’t that true?”
“Yes,” I say, the heat rising to my face.
“You were under investigation for skimming money and drugs during the arrest of a drug dealer, true?”
“I was investigated for it. But I was never charged.”
“You were never charged because you resigned from the force,” he says. “The department couldn’t discipline someone who no longer worked for them.”
“I was never charged,” I reply evenly, “because I did nothing wrong.”
“Oh, I see.” Brody looks away from me toward the jury, then turns his stare back to me. “You just coincidentally decided that it was a good time to move on, at the same time that you were under investigation.”
“As a matter of fact, yes,” I say. “And I would add—”
“There’s no need to add,” he says, patting the air. “You answered my—”
“I would add that the district attorney’s office was free to charge me, whether I worked for the NYPD or not. But they didn’t.”
There is so much more I could say, everything that happened that led up to that bogus charge. But I don’t have the energy to fight.
Brody smirks. He’s gotten all he can here.
“Detective, you weren’t present for this alleged … ‘conversation’ between Chief James and Noah Walker.”
“Correct. I was down the hall from the jail cell.”
“You have no firsthand knowledge of what was said between them.”
“Firsthand? No.”
“You took the chief’s word for it.”
“Yes.”
“And this jury,” says Brody, gesturing toward the jury box, “they have to take not only the chief’s word for it, but yours as well.”
“I’m not sure I take your point, Counselor.”
“This jury has to believe that you’re telling the truth about what the chief said, and that the chief told the truth about what my client said.”
I nod. “I suppose that’s right.”
“They have to believe you, who resigned while under investigation for being a dirty cop—”
“Objection,” says Sebastian Akers, jumping to his feet.
“Sustained.”
Brody doesn’t break stride. “—and they have to believe the chief, whom they don’t get to hear from at all.”
I pause a beat, anger surging to the surface. “That’s right, they don’t get to hear from the chief, Mr. Brody. Because your client killed him before he could testify.”
I brace myself for an objection, for Brody to go crazy, for the judge to excuse the jury and give me a thorough dressing-down.
But to my surprise, Brody doesn’t object.
“My client hasn’t been arrested for that murder, has he?”
“Not yet.”
“As far as you know, there is no physical evidence implicating my client?”
“Not yet.”
“Very good, Detective.” I have no idea why he’s letting my statement slide. Presumably, he’s calculated that every juror—every human being in the Hamptons—has heard about the chief’s murder, and most believe that Noah killed him. He must figure it’s easier to acknowledge it, so he can make his points about the lack of any arrest or evidence thus far.
Or does he have some other reason?
“Can you tell the jury what happened to you the day after this alleged confession?”
“The … following day?”
“Yes, Detective,” he says, approaching me, a spark in his eyes. “Isn’t it true that the following day, you were suspended for one month from active duty?”
The spectators react sufficiently for the judge to call for silence.
“Yes, I guess that was the following day, now that you mention it.”
“Why were you suspended?”