“Foxhunting? He will never be a jumper.”
I laughed. “Nor will I, I imagine.”
The owner came forward and took Mesrour’s bridle from me, and my heart fell. “Seven hundred and fifty,” he said.
I walked around Mesrour, feeling his legs, sensing the power in them and in his hindquarters, looking into his mouth. “His age?” I asked.
“Two years.”
“He’s massive for that,” I said, and then added, “A bird in the hand—”
He said nothing.
“Six hundred,” I said.
The owner looked at me seriously for the first time. “I will see your money,” he said at last.
“Of course,” I responded.
The deal was done by noon the next day. Mesrour, the most magnificent horse I have still ever seen, was mine. Foolish purchase, perhaps, but I seldom give in to frivolity, and this was a horse I had to have. Mounted on him, with Pilot trotting along beside us, I felt a new man. Suddenly all things were possible once more.
*
It had been ten years since Osmon and I had seen each other, and we had both aged, I probably more than he. Yet even so, we greeted each other as brothers when we met at the inn. I insisted on taking him first thing to admire Mesrour at the stable where I was keeping him. Osmon knew horses better than I, and I was pleased that he thought I’d made a good purchase, though he asked me what I intended to do with such an animal.
“Ride him!” I replied, and he laughed.
Back at the inn, mugs of rum before us, Osmon reported in great detail about Valley View, lamenting that now that laborers must be paid some kind of wage, the estate was not nearly as profitable as it once had been, though he was making do as best he could. As I had suspected, however, he had grown restless with his position and was ready to move on, but there was the difficult issue of what to do with Valley View. Because it was entailed, it could not simply be sold.
As we talked over possible solutions and the difficulties of the Mason inheritance, Osmon suddenly paused in our conversation and gazed into his mug. I wondered, too late, if he had arranged this meeting with something else on his mind. “Osmon?” I prompted.
“A young man came,” he said. “From America.” His eyes flicked up to mine and then dropped again to his mug, until, with what seemed like a force of will, they rose again to meet mine. “He says he is your wife’s son.”
My hand froze with my upraised mug—for a moment, it seemed, nothing, and no one, moved. So there was a child. And the boy had lived. The shock of Molly’s story, the horror of Bertha’s madness, the rage and frustration of that fruitless search years earlier—all of it rushed back at me in a moment, and I felt the room spin. “From America?” I asked.
“South Carolina, I believe.”
“He has a name, I presume.”
“He calls himself Gerald Rochester.”
A fresh wave of emotion hit me. He shared my name—or had taken it—born of my wife, and yet I was not the father. Who, then? Another suitor of Bertha’s? No, she had been too young, still a child herself, Molly had said. A slave? Unthinkable. Some criminal act, kept secret from the neighborhood? But no, the child would then have had no cause to use the Rochester name. Surely, it had not been my own father. No, but perhaps Rowland: the unwelcome product of Bertha’s childhood crush on my brother?
And further, how did the infant get to America? Who had raised him there and what did they know of his parentage? What did he know, beyond the name of his mother? Would he find me at Thornfield? I stared across the table at my old friend, my mind stuck in a jumble of thoughts. Osmon’s sympathetic eyes were on me. “How old is he?” I asked him. “What does he look like?”
He toyed with his mug before responding. “In his late twenties, I suppose; tall, slim, good-looking, I imagine one would say. Dark—but not as dark as you. Curly hair. He has a kind of arrogance about him. To be frank with you, I didn’t care for him.”
Rowland, I thought. Rowland and Bertha. God have mercy, this is Rowland’s bastard son. Unless… “Where is he now?”
“I sent him to your solicitor—and the late Mr. Mason’s—in Spanish Town: Mr. Foster. I would not be surprised to see him turn up here in England. He seemed a determined young man.”
“I don’t suppose he has proof of a marriage.”
Osmon gave a quick shake of his head. “Not that I saw.”
If he had it, I knew, he would be Rowland’s heir—and Bertha’s. He would inherit Thornfield and half of Valley View. If he didn’t, he would have no claim to anything. He would be legal son of no one, heir of no one.
If Molly were to be believed, it was unlikely there had been a marriage, else the infant would not have been sent away. No, it was clear that pains had been taken to hide Bertha’s pregnancy—because she had given birth to a bastard? I allowed myself to be satisfied that that was the whole of it. It did not yet occur to me that there was more.
Osmon had no additional information to offer, and seeing my distress he kindly tried to steer the conversation in other directions. After a few more rounds of rum, we relaxed once more and talked late into the night. He had married a widow who had brought a little property into the marriage, as well as two children; he had an exporting firm in Kingston in mind and was hoping to accumulate enough savings to purchase it. He asked, gently, after Bertha, and, grateful for his openness in this difficult situation, I told him as much of the truth as I had told anyone, and he nodded and laid a consoling hand on my arm. I praised him for the way he had handled my affairs all those years, and I asked how much more he needed to purchase the exporting firm. With great hesitation he told me a sum that must have seemed huge to him but seemed quite reasonable to me, and in return I shared with him an idea that had been forming in my mind as we spoke. While Valley View could not be sold, it could be rented. “Rent the land to whomever you trust to be good stewards,” I told him. “I will pay you to oversee the arrangements and to be my land agent. In exchange, I will lend you enough to buy your new business, and instead of paying you a salary, I will put it to your account.” Neither he nor I mentioned that such a business deal could be voided by Gerald Rochester’s proof of legal birth.