The last time I had a proper sleep was with her snoring away in my bed. My bed. She makes it better.
A thought races through my mind, strong and demanding. I kick it aside because it’s rubbish and insane. But desperation makes men do stupid things. And even though I tell myself I absolutely cannot consider what my body is begging me to do, I know I will.
“Fuck me,” I mutter. I’ll take one more night to talk myself out of it. But I’m a man at the end of his rope. I’ll do anything to get back on that boat, even debase myself in the worst way I can imagine.
* * *
Sophie
* * *
The next morning, I’m packing my camera when Gabriel approaches. He’s so stiff, his back appears in danger of snapping should a strong breeze blow our way. Which is saying something. I haven’t seen him this tense since the plane.
“What’s up, sunshine?” I glance at him. “Someone piss in your porridge?”
“Lovely.” He watches me for a second, the wrinkle between his brows growing deeper until he’s full-out scowling.
“Seriously, you look grumpy even for you. Who pissed you off?” I grin at him. “Do I have to break some skulls?”
He finally huffs out a small laugh, his shoulders easing a fraction. “I can see it now, you nipping at someone’s ankle like an angry Pomeranian.”
“So you’re familiar with my methods.”
A low chuckle rumbles in his chest, and he lowers himself to a crouch, handing me my flash. Too soon, his relaxed expression fades back to seriousness. Not that I mind; the man is a freaking work of art when he’s stern. So hot, I hold back the urge to fan myself. I busy myself packing.
“I wanted to talk to you,” he finally says in a low voice.
The anxious way he looks at me, as if he’s dreading what he has to say, sends my heart pounding. God, is he firing me? But he can’t. Brenna’s my boss. Try to remain calm. “Shoot.”
His fingers twitch, and he rises with me. “Not here. Are you free now?”
I pause and really look him over. He’s nervous. I wouldn’t believe it if I wasn’t right here in front of him, watching the color work over his tanned skin and his hands fidgeting at his sides. The fact that he wants to talk right now freaks me out even more.
“Sure,” I tell him past the lump in my throat. “What’s up?”
His lips compress. “I’d rather talk in private. Come to my bus?”
I’m so shocked he wants me alone, I can’t even form a joke, only squeak out a small okay.
The walk back feels like the Green Mile. I’ll set one foot in Gabriel’s bus—the bus he’ll only let his driver and the occasional maid enter—and an axe will swiftly fall to cut off my head. And it suddenly pisses me off. I’ve done nothing wrong. Why the private talk?
I grit my teeth and march alongside a quiet Gabriel, who has solicitously taken my camera case in hand. His other hand hovers around the small of my back, not quite touching but close enough that I feel its heat. He’s guiding me along.
Probably afraid I’ll bolt, I think darkly. But no, I’m going to lay into him something good. I thought we were…well, not friends exactly. I don’t know if he’d even let anyone other than Brenna and the guys be his friend anymore. But we were something.
I’m horrified to realize I’m on the verge of tears. It hurts thinking he’ll soon dismiss me. He might not be doing that at all. Maybe you should chill out.
I glare at the bus as it comes into view, but hold my tongue. Well, I do until he opens the door. I halt, unable to take another step.
“Are you firing me?” That sounded embarrassingly shrill.
He halts too, frowning down at me. “What?” A smile lights his eyes. The fucker. “There you go again with your wild imaginings.”
“Don’t give me that. You’re taking me aside for a private chat. What am I to think?”
“That I want to talk privately,” he suggests as if I’m batty. “Besides, Brenna’s the one who hired you.”
“And don’t you forget it.”
He rolls his eyes and his hand finally touches my back, nudging me forward. “Would you get in here and calm yourself?”
“You’re acting weird,” I counter, but I step inside. “Wow.”
I was expecting black leather and gray walls—standard luxury coach fare. Instead I’m greeted with glossy burled wood paneling, milk glass sconces, and smoke velvet chairs. It’s like a 1930s rail car.
“Have a seat.” Gabriel gestures to the small living area toward the front. I sink into a Deco style club chair and clutch the arm of it. Next to me is a small table where he has a laptop out and a pile of papers beside it.
He moves to tidy it, but his phone rings. Glancing at it, he grimaces. “One moment. I’ve been waiting for this call.”