Eventually, I give up, and I open the drapes and look outside.
The evening is quiet, the sky is dark. It gets dark so early here.
The trees rustle in the breeze, and the wind is wet. It’s cold. It’s chilling. I can feel it even through the windows and I rub at my arms.
That’s when I get goose-bumps.
They lift the hair on my neck,
And the stars seem to mock me.
Turning my back on them, I cross the room and pull a book from a shelf.
Jane Eyre.
Fitting, given Whitley and the moors and the rain.
I open the cover and find a penned inscription.
To Calla. May you always have the courage to live free, and the strength to do what is right.
The ink is fading, and I run my fingertips across it.
A message to me? It’s almost like my mother knew I would be here, and she left this very book for me on these very shelves in this very room.
I slip into a seat with it, pulling open the pages, my eyes trying to devour the words my mother once read.
But I’ve only gotten to the part where Jane proclaims that she hates long walks on cold afternoons when I hear something.
I feel something.
I feel a growl in my bones.
It’s low and threatening, and it vibrates my ribs.
I startle upright, looking around, but of course, I’m still alone.
But the growl happens again, low and long.
My breath hitches and the book hits the floor, the pages fluttering on the rug.
A sudden panic overtakes me, rapid and hot.
I have to get out.
I don’t know why.
It’s a feeling I have in my heart, something that drives me from my mother’s rooms out into the hall, because something is chasing me.
I feel it on my heels.
I feel it breathing down my neck.
Without looking back, I rush back down the corridor, through the house and out the front doors.
I’ve got to breathe.
I’ve got to breathe.
I’ve got to breathe.
Sucking in air, I walk aimlessly around the house, over the cobblestone and down a pathway. I draw in long even breaths, trying to still my shaking hands, trying to gather myself together, trying to assure myself that I’m being silly.
There’s no reason to be afraid.
I’m being ridiculous.
This house might be strange and foreign, but it’s still a home. It just isn’t my home. It’s fine. I’ll get used to it.
I look behind me, and there’s nothing there.
There is no growl, there is no vibration in my ribs, there is nothing but for the dim twilight and the stars aching to burst from behind the clouds.
The house looms over me and I circle back, only to find myself in front of a large garage with gabled edges.
There are at least seven garage doors, all closed but one.
To my surprise, someone walks out of that door.
A boy.
A man.
His pants are dark gray and he’s wearing a hoodie, and he moves with grace. He slides among the shadows with ease, as though he belongs here, as though Whitley is his home too, even though I don’t know him, even though I feel like I do. I feel it I feel it I feel it.
“Hello,” I call out to him.
He stops moving, freezing in his tracks, but he doesn’t turn his head.
Something about that puts me on edge and I tense, because what if he’s not supposed to be here?
“Hello?” I repeat uneasily, and chills run up my spine, goose-bumps forming on my arms once again.
I back away, first one step, then another.
I blink,
And he’s gone.
I stare at the empty space, and shake my head, blinking hard.
He’s still gone.
He must’ve slipped between the buildings, but why?
I’m too nervous to find out, and so I turn to walk back to the house. As I do, two enormous shadows bound out of the trees and race toward me, panting and skidding to a halt in front of me.
I’m frozen as I stare at two of the biggest dogs I’ve ever seen.
“It’s okay,” I tell them, as they examine me with dark eyes. “I’m supposed to be here. I’m not an intruder.”
They stare at me.