He laughs, completely unoffended.
On the night before I leave for home, Eleanor comes to my room, creeping in the dark, moving in the shadows. Her skinny arms are like limbs, the shadows scraping the walls like dead leaves.
“Calla, I have something for you,” she tells me. I sit up in my bed, startled because I’d never even heard her come in and she’s never been in my room before.
She holds her hand out, and a ring glistens in her palm.
It’s silver and shiny, a plain band, thick and heavy.
I look at her questioningly.
“It was your grandfather’s,” she says simply by way of explanation. I take it immediately, curiously examining it by moonlight. It feels cool in my hand, significant somehow.
“Did my grandfather die because he wanted to?” I ask. “To get away from you?” Because that’s what people say.
Eleanor actually laughs, a husky noise in the night.
“Child, your grandfather never did anything he didn’t want to do. And that included dying. He was like you, you know.”
This grabs my attention with both hands and holds it.
“What do you mean?” I ask sharply. “How was he like me? He was crazy, too?”
She sits next to my bed. “Don’t say you’re crazy, Calla. It’s demeaning and you’re a Savage. You aren’t understood, and I can’t explain it. That doesn’t mean you’re crazy. Your grandfather was a good man, and he was just like you, only he wasn’t strong enough to sustain. He couldn’t keep going on. But I know that you are. Keep his ring. It will hold you to the ground, and help you to always remember where you are. When the time comes, you’ll do what is right.”
This is confusing and I tell her that. She smiles again.
“Give me your hand.”
I obey and she strokes the palm, her brow knitted together as she examines me.
“Your heart line is broken, child,” she murmurs, tracing it with her fingers. “It forks into two, then three. It’s as I’ve always said. One for one for one.”
“What does that mean?” I ask. I’m sure it’s a valid question because how confusing.
She ignores me. “Your life line is long and deep,” she announces. “It indicates you are stronger than you know, that you are cautious.”
“I don’t feel strong,” I tell her.
“I know,” she answers. “But you are. Your life line breaks into many branches, which means you have to choose. You have to choose, child. Never let anyone tell you otherwise.”
“I have to choose what? Choose what? To live?”
What a silly thing.
Eleanor stares at me, unflinching. “Take your grandfather’s ring. It belongs to you more than anyone else.”
It will hold you to the ground and make you remember where you are.
“Who am I?” I ask, and my question is desperate and my words are hot.
Eleanor shakes her head. “You’ll figure it out, and it will all be as it should.”
Her words swirl and twirl, and an image comes into my head, something I’ve never seen, but I have. Somehow.
Files, in a drawer, in Eleanor’s desk. My name, and Finn’s name and Dare’s name.
My eyes meet her and I’m defiant.
“If Dare isn’t real, why do you have a file in your desk with his name on it?”
She looks at me and her gaze is hard, and it’s like rocks, like pebbles, like stone.
“You don’t know what you’re speaking of.”
“I do,” I insist, and I think harder, and they’re like memories, and I don’t know where they came from. “Finn and I inherit your fortune, but Dare doesn’t. Only if we die.”
It’s proof it’s proof it’s proof.
“Calla,” she sighs. “You don’t understand.”
She pulls me up and I go with her to her office and she opens her drawer and there are files in there. Two. One with my name and one with Finn’s. We inherit the fortune, but Dare But Dare
But Dare.
I’m confused and my grandmother’s lip twitches as she stares as me in the dim light from the lamp.