I chew my lip as he serenades me in a crowded bar, am contemplating, weighing my options, and pitting the pros against the cons. They stack up pretty evenly. This tour will end and I’ll either have some scandalous memories of being young and reckless that will leave another scar on my already wounded heart or a list of regrets that come from playing it safe.
I glance around and see the carefree smiles of the bar’s unsuspecting patrons. To them I just look like a lucky girl a sexy singer is flirting with. And damn it, I want to be that girl—the one who gets to have an impulsive fling, even though I know it can’t last and I’ll eventually have to go back to being me.
God help this man. God help me.
I let my protective shield fall to the ground and shatter at my feet as I meet Dallas’s intense stare and give him an almost imperceptible nod. He smiles and the relief in his eyes hits me in all the weak places I’ve left exposed.
Yes, I think so loudly it’s a wonder he doesn’t hear my thoughts over the music. I’m going to risk a world of hurt for experiences that might become painful memories. Because I’m pretty sure it will be worth the pain.
I add one more thought in case he really can read them. Be careful with me, please.
For better or worse, I am his, and he is mine—even if only for a little while longer.
21 | Robyn
“WHERE IN THE WORLD ARE WE GOING?”
Dallas showed up at my hotel room right at lunchtime and said we were going out to dinner and that I didn’t need to bring anything except myself. We never made any official plans for today so I’m a little surprised to see him. He apparently wasn’t kidding about waiting for me to initiate the sex in our new arrangement because he walked me to my room last night and left me without so much as a good-night kiss.
We’re supposed to be heading to New Orleans tomorrow morning. I’d spent the afternoon getting some work done in my room so I’d have time for sightseeing in New Orleans.
“You’ll see,” he says, tugging me by the hand to the hotel lobby. He’s still holding my hand when we exit the hotel. He waves the driver off and holds my door open.
Tossing him a questioning glance of apprehension over my shoulder, I slide into the backseat.
“Do I at least get a hint?” The car pulls into traffic once Dallas is all the way inside.
He rubs his chin thoughtfully. “Remember that trip the honor society took in high school? The one that included Italy and Spain that you didn’t get to go on?”
I nod. I do remember. I didn’t get to go because my dad had died.
“You said you were really just upset because you were excited about the food.”
I smile. “This is true. But what does this have to do with where we’re going?” Surely he realizes we don’t have time to hit Italy or Spain before tomorrow morning.
“We’re going to get the food.”
Blue Restaurant and Bar is exactly what Dallas promised.
The menu is divided into locales and there are even more countries on the menu than there were on the National Honor Society trip. I don’t even know how he remembered that. We order dishes from all around the world. Some of them are amazing and some are, well, kind of gross. But we try it all and we laugh a lot. It’s the best date I’ve had in . . . forever. And I’m not even sure it’s a date.
I stare at the table full of half-eaten food. “I can’t eat any more. I’m so full it hurts. The dessert menu is tempting, but I can barely breathe.” Dishes with names I can hardly pronounce fill the table. Foie gras, a fish that’s pan seared, and soup referred to as bisque. It was amazing.
“That’s okay. We’re going to do a little walking, then I have other plans for dessert,” Dallas informs me.
“Oh do you?” I sincerely hope his dessert plans include sex, though I might need a nap first after all the rich food.
He pays the tab, then stands to help me up from the table. “I do.”
“Since when did you become such a planner?”
He makes a low satisfied noise in my ear. “Since now.”
After a gallery crawl in the North Davidson arts district, I am delighted when we stop in front of a French bakery I’ve wanted to visit since I saw it on Food Network.