“Spit it out.”
“You know, your compassionate tone needs a little work.” But Lena must not have been too offended because she sighed. “Not that you care,” she said, “but it’s my birthday tomorrow. My thirtieth.” She said this like thirtieth was a bad word. “I’m single on my thirtieth birthday, which means my life is officially over.”
“I hit thirty this year and I’m single,” Quinn said, “and my life isn’t over.”
Lena gave her a sideways look. “You sure about that?”
Quinn had to bite her tongue. “Okay, listen. Come to the café tomorrow night. I’ll make you dinner.”
Lena shrugged.
“It’s better than being alone, right?”
“I guess.” Lena looked at her. “Why are you being so nice to me? Do I have something in my teeth and you feel sorry for me?”
“Why can’t I just be a nice person?” Quinn asked.
Lena looked at her.
Quinn laughed. “Fine. My parents taught me to be nice first because you can always be mean later, but once you’ve been mean to someone, they won’t believe the nice anymore. So be nice. Be nice until it’s time to stop being nice. Then destroy them.”
Lena stared at her and then grinned. “Damn. That’s good. I should try that sometime.”
“Maybe you can try it on me.”
Lena shrugged. “Will there be cake?”
“Do you want there to be?”
“It’s not a birthday without cake,” Lena said.
“Fine,” Quinn said, even though she was a crap baker. “There will be cake.”
“With chocolate?”
“Sure,” Quinn said. “With chocolate.”
“And male strippers?”
“Definitely not,” Quinn said.
“Well, I guess I can’t have everything . . .”
TILLY WATCHED OUT the window until she saw Dylan show up for work. She’d texted him to come a little early but he hadn’t. She had to be quick to catch him getting out of his car before he entered the café.
“Thought you’d come over and see me,” she said.
“Can’t. I’ve got work. And you have to study for finals this week.”
“I’m taking a day off from studying,” she said.
“No, you’re not.”
She stared at his back as he turned away, hurt to the core that he didn’t want to be with her. “What do you care?”
He turned to face her again, eyes dark, expression dark. Hell, his life was dark. “You think I don’t care?”
She swallowed as he strode back to her and glared down into her eyes. “I spend more time on your schoolwork than mine,” he said. “I check on you every single night that I can get away. I’m working more hours than I have in a day so that after I give most of my pay to my mom to cover her rent, I can put a little bit away for a future that I’m not even sure exists.”
Tilly felt her throat burn. “It does.”
His face softened. “I’m going to go to work, Tee. And you’re going to study. We need the money and the education.”
She held her breath. “We?”
“Yeah.” And then he did something he rarely did—he touched her. He cupped her face in his big, callused hands and dropped his forehead to hers. “It’s all about the we,” he murmured. “Don’t ever think otherwise.”
So Tilly went inside to study. After several hours of that, she got up and stood in the doorway of Quinn’s room staring at her mom’s things, now shoved against one wall.
A small part of her could admit she appreciated that Quinn hadn’t thrown it all in the attic. Or in her mom’s room. Instead she’d left the master bedroom completely alone.
Tilly knew she should be grateful but instead she just felt . . . sad. She didn’t know why she’d lashed out at Quinn about the things she’d moved. The truth was, nothing in this sewing/craft room belonged to her. Not a single thing. She just hadn’t wanted Quinn touching her mom’s things.
Their mom’s things . . .
Her feet took her over to the wall and she nudged a foot against a few boxes. There was one that looked like a small chest. She couldn’t remember ever seeing it before. Dropping to her knees, she pulled the chest to her and opened it.
It was handmade baby clothes—crocheted booties, a small blanket, a lopsided sweater, all things her mom had made.
But not for her. She was sure of it. She had a box of some of her baby stuff and it was mostly hand-me-downs or from discount stores. In fact, her mom had never made her anything. She’d mended the holes in her jeans, but that was about it. She’d taught Tilly to replace her own buttons, and that was the extent of the sewing that had gone on in this house.
Tilly explored the little clothes. The sweater had a homemade label on it.
MADE FOR . . .
And in that spot, someone had handwritten in a name.
Quinn.
These clothes had been made for Quinn, before she’d been born.
And given up.
Tilly shoved everything back in the box, and heart pounding funny and a sick feeling in her gut, took it to her room and shoved it under the bed where she kept her own, very private journal. She flopped onto the mattress and closed her eyes to think.
Sometime later, she came awake to her phone buzzing. Night had fallen and she had a text from Quinn: I turned off your light and left dinner for you in the fridge. Hitting the sack myself. Night.
Another text came in, this one from Dylan.
Meet at the park?
Her heart did a little happy dance. Hell yes, she’d meet him in the park. She tiptoed out of the quiet house and made it to the park in a record-breaking three minutes.
The place was deserted. No one on the swings. So she walked past the swing set to their tree, and the tree house. In the dark, she could see the glow of a phone screen. She climbed up and found a tall, lanky figure sitting there and her pulse sped up even as her smile faded.
He was hiding from the world and that meant he was hurting.
She plopped down next to him. “Hey.”
Dylan lay flat on his back and stared up at the stars. “Wouldn’t mind being an astronaut.”
Her heart caught. He had the grades for it. Or he would’ve had the grades for it if he hadn’t had to work his ass off on top of school. “You could totally do it,” she said, lying down next to him so that their arms brushed. She touched his fingers with hers. “You could do whatever you want.”
He snorted and she wondered what had happened to upset him. She’d ask, but he wouldn’t tell her so she did her best to look him over to see if he had new injuries. Thankfully, she didn’t see any. “You can,” she whispered. “Be an astronaut.”
“Says who?”
“My mom.” Her breath caught. “My mom always told me that.”
He rolled to his side and propped his head up with his hand as he studied her in the dark. “She was trying to be nice,” he said. “Nobody gets to do what they want. When school’s out, I’m going to have to dig trenches for my dad.”
He already worked as many hours a week as he could spare to help his mom cover expenses, she knew. And she hated that for him. “It’s just for the summer. When you graduate, you can do whatever you want,” she said.