I nodded. “We can.”
He hesitated. I soothed his doubt. “You remember when I had those wicked period cramps I had?” He nodded. I felt sheepish exposing my lie. “It wasn’t period cramps. I had pain because Nas took me to see Pox’s sister. I got a birth control device put inside of me.” I smiled softly, reaching up to run my fingers over his lips. “I’m clean. No babies for me. We can go bare.” I quickly added, “If you want to, I mean.”
That was what I said. What I meant was: If you trust me, that is.
The condom packet was flung across the room and Lev smiled down at me.
He fucking smiled at me.
It hit me with so much force that I forgot I needed oxygen to live. I breathed out a shaky, “Oh my. Your smile.”
I was overwhelmed.
He smiled. And it was aimed at me.
It was all for me.
His smile came down over me and I felt his grin at my lips as he kissed me. It was all I ever wanted, and now that I had it, it made me realize I would do anything to keep it.
He adjusted himself at my core, rose up on his elbows to look down at me, and pushed. The head of him went in smoothly, but soon I was being stretched and it was hard to stop myself from flinching. I gritted my teeth and closed my eyes, breathing deeply. Lev faltered, unmoving a moment, but I smiled up at him, nodding. “Lev, I want this.”
His hands slid under my body to wrap around my lower back. He looked me in the eye. “Slow and steady, baby.”
I braced. “Slow and steady.”
He thrust lightly and my body fought to accept him. I was wet, but his cock was thick and long, and I wondered if this was going to work out the way I’d planned in my head.
I closed my eyes and breathed through the initial lunges. The more he worked me, the easier it became. My body no longer fought, and the friction of Lev driving into me was sending sparks down my spine. I opened my eyes to look up at him and his hips jerked fitfully.
He spoke through gritted teeth. “You feel incredible, mouse. Just a little more.”
My hands gripped his forearms, my nails digging in as he plunged into me, no longer afraid of hurting me. He kept his pace for a long while before I reached up and laid my hand against his rough cheek, pulling him down for a long kiss.
I felt hot and stretched, and his warm touch sent me into a frenzy. “I’m ready.” The naughty words sat on the tip of my tongue until I finally breathed out against his lips, “Fuck me, Lev.”
It became clear that Lev would not be able to get the entire length of him in me. Not tonight, anyway. My guess was that it would take multiple lovemaking sessions to get there. Luckily for him, I was up for the challenge.
Gripping my hips, he drove into me, thrusting as hard and deep as he could go without hurting me. My chest heaved with unsteady breaths. He was driving me crazy. My * throbbed around him and he tipped his head back, groaning.
His arms went rigid, the veins in them sticking out, his brow furrowed as he tried to gain control over himself, but I didn’t want Lev to be controlled. I wanted him to feel as helpless as I did. I wanted him to lose himself in me as I did him. I wanted Lev in all the ways I could get him.
I wanted him in a way that no others had him.
My core convulsed once more and Lev let out a shout, his hips jerking wildly. “Mina.”