“And this Story character seems to be on our side.”
Emma had told him almost everything: the perry press, the jobs for the boys at the quarry. She knew he would find out from the children if not from her. She had told him, too, about her job at the Hirsch mansion, because she could not see how that would not come out in the papers (though it never did, for Mr. Hirsch and Mrs. Cohn were as discreet as they had claimed to be). She answered his questions—What in hell? Did they make you clean? Do they really have horns? Did they suspect, about the pears?—but offered no more, just as she did with the children when they asked about dying or intimacy. Like the children, Roland came back for more when he was ready. Yesterday, in the hospital, he’d emerged from a silence to ask, “Did this Story character take a cut out of your nursing job?” and Emma had said, “No,” without clarifying that Story himself had paid her wages or that he’d done it to gain Mrs. Cohn’s favor or that now that Mrs. Cohn was despised, a political liability, he had no reason to continue doing such a thing, though he might pay Emma anyway if she asked him nicely. “He’s been very generous,” she said, fighting off thoughts of Story’s pale, freckled shoulders.
“You’ve got something saved up?” he asked.
“Some. What about you?”
“I did all right. Those runners would rather pay you in booze than cash, though. I had to put my foot down—”
“Somehow I’d bet you didn’t put it down hard.”
“Hey!” Roland made a doleful face. “I swear I did. But most of my stash went down with the fish. At least the whiskey’s safe.” He shook his head, chuckling. He had explained to Emma that he had come back on the Mendosa because of its side business, and that the reason one of the ship’s dories hadn’t made it in until noon the day after the wreck was because as soon as the fog had cleared two men had rowed out to Thacher Island to stash a hundred cases of rye. “You should see the place we picked it all up,” he said, and though he’d already told Emma twice what she knew he was about to tell again, she let him go on. “This little island off Newfie, you see the warehouses before the rock, rising up like a city of booze. You’d think the place would sink with it.”
“Daddy?” Joshua asked, slapping at the chair where Roland’s knee would have been, “Where did it really go?”
“I’ll take him outside,” Emma said, though she was wondering the same thing about the money Roland had made and whether he would in fact see any of the liquor profits. Men rarely liked Roland and she didn’t know if his missing a leg would change that.
This time Roland let her take the boy. She saw him wince with relief. Joshua was too old for lifting but she held him anyway, wanting him close, and maybe tempting Roland to chastise her, to act like himself. It was a confusion, her desire for Roland to be as he’d been, a surface to push against, and her awareness for the first time that the surface could give way. She had brought her older boys up to be like their father, but now she worried her preparation had been inadequate. “It’s beautiful out,” she said, shifting Joshua to her other hip.
Roland twisted to look out the window. “It’s a beautiful day,” he said. “Take him outside.”
“What about a wheelchair, Rolly?”
“It’s not hard to get around in this house. The road’s a load of gravel. Where would I go?”
“We could get a car.”
“A car. How would we get a car?”
Emma started to carry Joshua toward the door. She would treat the question as it was meant, a statement of impossibility. Even if she did deposit Mrs. Cohn’s check, she didn’t need to tell Roland about it: she had opened her own bank account in his absence.
Roland stuck out his right foot, blocking her way. “Emma-bee,” he said, a thing he hadn’t called her in years. “We won’t be going to the old place this year, I’m thinking.”
He meant the Hirsch estate, for pears. “We haven’t gone anywhere since you’ve been home,” she said.
“That’ll have to change,” he said. “You’ll have to get on with things. But not there. All right?”
“Of course. I already decided that. But I think we’re done, Rolly. They were so afraid that night. I was . . .”
Roland grabbed her free arm and pulled her down hard, so that her ear was at his mouth. “Emma-bee,” he said. “The little one . . . Is she . . . This Cohn . . . She’s . . . her mother?”
Even after there were more little ones, he had always called Lucy Pear the little one.
“Yes,” Emma said.
“She doesn’t know.”
“No.”
“And Cohn doesn’t know.”
“No.”
He nodded. “Good.”
“Rolly, please, I’m going to fall over.” He let her go and she carried Joshua out into the crazy light.