Lair of Dreams

He saw her, went for an automatic wave, and froze.

“Help m—” Ling cried as a clod of muddy ice hit her, hard, knocking her off-balance. Her purse dropped and the clasp broke, scattering the contents as she fell.

“Dirty Chinese! Go home!” the young man shouted as he ran past with his friends, laughing. I am home, Ling wanted to say, but the words were stuck in her throat as she sat sprawled in the wet muck of Forty-second Street.

“Cowards!” Henry shouted. He was suddenly beside her, helping her to her feet, fetching her crutches, gathering her things off the street and putting them back into her purse. “Ling! Are you all right?”

“I’m f-fine,” she mumbled. Her eyes brimmed with tears. “I just, just need to go home.”

“All right. I’ll take you.” Gently, Henry brushed the dirt from her coat. As he did, his gaze traveled to Ling’s braces, her crutches, and the ugly black shoes, and for just a second, his bright smile dimmed. He recovered quickly, his smile too polite, the way people looked when they didn’t want to upset you. And the tears Ling had kept at bay streamed down her face, hot and shameful.

“Oh, hey. Hey, darlin’,” Henry put an arm around Ling, and she stiffened at his touch.

“I’m sorry,” he said, releasing her. “You’re pretty shaken up. How about a cup of hot cocoa first? You like cocoa, don’tcha?”

“I’m fine. Just… point me toward the bus.”

“Well, now, you see, I have a firm policy that I never drink hot cocoa by myself. It’s against my religion.”

“You have a religion?” Ling sniffled.

“Well, no. Not really. But if I did, that would be the first commandment.”

Ling wiped her eyes with the back of her hand and chanced a sideways glance at Henry. He was standing there in his tweed coat, his slim shoulders hunched up toward his ears and a thick plaid scarf wound around his neck, as if he were an overly wrapped Christmas present, her purse dangling from his elegant fingers. He looked ridiculous, and she wished she could laugh, but instead, she was crying. Earlier, her heart had been full of wonder as she watched the newsreel, thinking about a world of atoms and change and possibility. Now the moment had shifted into something else, and she didn’t like it. The snow salted down, coating them both in wet flakes.

“One hot cocoa,” Ling said, taking back her purse. She nodded toward the restaurant window’s NO CHINESE ALLOWED sign. “If you can find somewhere that’ll let me in.”

“Don’t worry. I know just the place,” Henry said and offered his arm.





“Sorry it’s only tea,” Henry said across the small marble-topped table from Ling. “But at least it’s hot.”

They were in a basement speakeasy located on a narrow Greenwich Village street. Ling blew on her steaming tea and looked around warily at the flocked red wallpaper, better suited to a bordello; the women with closely cropped hair and mannish suits; the men sitting close together.

“What sort of place is this?” Ling whispered after an uncomfortable silence.

“A safe one,” Henry answered, stirring milk into his tea. “Why didn’t you tell me the truth before?”

“I didn’t want you to feel sorry for me. I get enough of people staring at me in horror. Or pity.” She took a sip of her tea. It was still too hot. “It’s just… in the dream world, I’m the way I used to be. I can run and dance. I’m strong. Not like here. I didn’t want you to see me this way—weak.”

“Darlin’, you may be a lot of things, but weak isn’t one of them. How long have you been…” Henry trailed off.

“Crippled? If we’re going to have this conversation, there’s no point in being precious,” Ling shot back. “Not long. Since October.”

“And will you always…?”

“It was infantile paralysis,” she said firmly.

Henry nodded. “I’m sorry,” he said after a pause.

“Why? You didn’t cause it.”

“No. But I’m sorry nonetheless. It’s terribly unfair.”

“Nobody promised life would be fair. That’s why I love dream walking so much. It’s the one place where I feel like myself. Where I’m free.”

“Well, I’ll drink to that.” Henry raised his teacup and took a sip. “To the place where we can be free.”

Two men from the corner table got up to dance, hands joined, cheeks pressed close together, and Ling tried not to stare. She hoped her discomfort wasn’t too evident.

“Speaking of free,” Henry said. He took a deep breath. “As long as we’re being honest, I should… I want to tell you the truth about Louis.”

Henry’s heart beat quickly. Why was being himself with another human being more terrifying than anything he could imagine in a dream?