“It’s pretty well destroyed,” he tells me. “Ain’t nobody going to get down there to take a good look for a while. Going to be hours before it’s safe. We might still find bodies.”
I hope not, too. Desperately. I nod, then drink the rest of my coffee in a thirsty rush. “Right. Well, I’m going to go now. Thanks for the coffee.” He stands up with me, blocking my way. I stare at him and slowly allow the corners of my lips to curl, just a little. “Unless you’d like to arrest me . . . ?”
He’s got nothing concrete, and he knows that. He’s bluffing when he says, “Sit down, Ms. Proctor. We’ve got more to talk about.”
I don’t answer. I just walk toward him. At the last moment, he moves. Illegal detention wouldn’t do him any favors, and he’s smart enough to know I can’t be buffaloed into thinking he’s got cause. Yes, there’s a burned-out cabin. Yes, I was inside. But there’s ample evidence that the place had been booby-trapped, and I was lucky to escape alive, and they’ve got lots of tantalizing evidence to analyze that doesn’t have anything to do with me and my maybe-but-not-provable illegal entry.
I don’t break stride passing him. From behind me, he says, “We’ll be talking, Mrs. Royal.” That’s just spite, and I don’t dignify it by looking back at him. I keep going, and as soon as I pass the door frame, I feel a weight lifted. I take in a sharp breath, filtered by the fresh scent of the coffee I’ve just finished, and I dump the cup and go in search of where they’ve put Sam.
He’s still closeted with another officer, and when I look around for Mike Lustig, he’s nowhere to be found. I don’t much like that. I don’t like that he’s abandoned us here to fend for ourselves. I find a seat and wait, watching the door and watching the clock hands crawl. Sam’s conversation goes on at least twice as long as mine does, and it’s nearly six when he finally appears. He doesn’t look bothered, and he’s finishing coffee. He downs the rest in a gulp and tosses the empty cup, then stops beside me. “You okay?” I ask him.
“Nothing I can’t deal with,” he says. There’s a storm circling behind his eyes. I wonder what the cop said to him. Must not have been pleasant.
“Where’s your friend Mike? Fat lot of good he did us.”
“Yeah,” Sam says. “He had to leave and go back to the scene.”
“So what did he tell you, if he told you anything?”
“To go home,” Sam says. “And forget this ever happened.” Go back to Stillhouse Lake, I’m sure he means. Hunker down, guns at the ready, for my husband to come for us. But when I try to imagine that, I can’t see us managing to defend ourselves. I see Melvin appearing, like some evil spirit, behind us. I see him killing Javier and Kezia. I see Sam dead on the floor.
I see me and my kids, alone against the darkness that is their father. And I am not confident that I can save them.
“We can’t just give up,” I say. “Let’s take a look at what we got first. Will Lustig tell us what they find in the basement up there?”
“Maybe,” Sam says, which doesn’t fill me with enthusiasm. “I might have burned a bridge on that one. We’ll see. No, don’t apologize.” I’ve already opened my mouth to do just that, and I shut it, fast. “I’d burn every bridge I ever built to get to Melvin. Understand that.”
I wonder if he includes the bridge that we’ve so carefully built between the two of us. I think I understand Sam, most of the time. But when it comes to this . . . maybe I’m fooling myself. Maybe, despite everything he’s done for me and my kids, despite the fact that I’ve allowed myself to be open and vulnerable around him, and he’s shown every sign of appreciating that . . . maybe, ultimately, if it comes to a choice between me and getting to Melvin, he’ll step over me to get a grip around my husband’s throat.
Fair enough. I might just do the same thing. Probably best we don’t discuss it.
There’s a gauntlet of uniforms around, but we aren’t blocked on our way out. Our car is still there in the lot, and still locked. Sam lets out a held breath as we turn onto the main road, and he accelerates—within the speed limit—heading south. “Right,” he says. “Let’s get the hell out of here. Where we headed?”
“Next town over,” I tell him. “Let’s stay local, but not right under their noses. Find us a motel.” I start to say something midpriced, but then I stop myself. That’s my natural inclination, but if Melvin’s been alerted to this event, he and Absalom will be looking for us. It’s a small pool of choices in this area. They’ll try everything cheap and anonymous first. “Find us a bed-and-breakfast. Something off the beaten path.”
He nods and tosses me a pamphlet. “Grabbed it from the gift shop in the hospital,” he says. “Should be some ads in there.”
6
CONNOR
Officer Graham told me, Never tell about this, and I haven’t. Not because I don’t know Officer Graham was a bad guy—I know that. He scared the hell out of us. He hurt us when he dragged us out of our house, too.
But I’ll never tell because of what he gave me. I know Mom would take it away, and I’m not ready for that to happen.
I leave the phone Lancel Graham gave me turned off. I tried to use it back in the basement in that cabin where he was holding us, but there wasn’t a signal. I turned it off and removed the battery when Mom found us because I didn’t want it ringing, and I didn’t want anybody tracking us with it.
I don’t really know why I haven’t just thrown it out, or buried it, or told someone I have it . . . except that it’s mine.
Officer Graham said, This is from your dad, and it’s just for you, Brady. Nobody else.
My dad sent me something, and even though I know I should get rid of it, I can’t. It’s the only thing I have from him. I sometimes imagine him standing in a store, looking at all the phones and choices, and finding one he thought I’d like. Maybe that’s not what happened, but that’s how I imagine it. That he cared. That he put some thought into it.
It’s lucky that it looks almost like the cheap phone I already carry. They’re both disposables, but I’ve learned to tell them apart by touch—the one Mom gave me feels a little rough under my fingers, and Dad’s feels as smooth as glass. They use the same charger. I keep both of them charged up by putting one under the bed charging when I’m carrying the other one.
But I don’t turn Dad’s on. I just keep it off, with the battery in my pocket, ready to go.
I’ve just taken Dad’s phone out of my pocket—not to use it, just look at it—when Lanny leans in the door of my room and says, “Hey, did you go in my room?”