“God, you’re so perfect,” he whispered. “I could live inside you and never want for anything.”
Ella clung to him, her fingertips digging into the dense muscles of his back as he moved above her, destroying her one deep stroke at a time. Her body seized in a contraction of endless pleasure that went on for what felt like forever. She had never felt anything quite like it.
“Ella,” he whispered. “I love you so much. Love you.”
She couldn’t speak over the huge lump in her throat, so she held on tight to him as he lost himself in her.
The slide of his lips over the dampness on her face was the only indication she had that tears were rolling down her cheeks.
“Sweet Ella. How did I survive before you made me fall in love with you?”
Ella burrowed her nose into the nook between his neck and shoulder, breathing him in. She needed to get up, to get moving, to get to the office for a couple of hours before she headed to Burlington to hopefully meet her new niece or nephew. But she couldn’t bring herself to move.
“Are you okay?” he asked, gazing down at her with sweet concern in his eyes.
“I’m way better than okay.”
“Why the tears?”
“I can’t help them when you say the things you do while you make love to me like that.”
“I’ve never said those things to anyone before you.”
“I still feel like I have to be dreaming that you’re saying them to me.”
“You’re not dreaming.” He kissed her lips, her cheeks, the tip of her nose and then her lips again.
“I have to go.”
“I know.”
“You have to let me go.”
“I know.” He said the words but made no move to withdraw from her.
“Gavin . . .”
“I don’t want to let you go. I don’t want to have to live without you for two days.”
“I’ll be back before you have time to miss me.”
“No, you won’t.”
“Will you be okay tomorrow? I know how hard the holidays have to be for you and your parents.”
“We’ll get through it. We always do.”
“I wish I could be there with you. I’ll come home early to have dinner with you guys.”
“You should have dinner with your family. I’ll be waiting when you get here.”
“I’ll leave as soon as I can. I promise.”
“Call me tonight?”
“Yes, yes, I’ll call you.” She would have to borrow a cell phone from Lucy or Cameron. “It might be a New York number, so make sure you take the call.”
“I’ll take the call because it might be you. I feel like a lovesick fool because I don’t want to let you go for even a couple of days.”
“I’m okay with that.”
He smiled, kissed her and finally withdrew, leaving her feeling bereft without the heavy feel of him inside her. “How about a shower?”
“A platonic shower?”
“Completely,” he said with a wicked grin that let her know there’d be nothing platonic about it.
What did it say about her that even after having him three times overnight and with a thousand other things she needed to be doing, she followed him willingly into the shower?
She had it bad, and bad had never felt so good.
CHAPTER 20
Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn
hope that if you just show up and try to
do the right thing, the dawn will come.
—Anne Lamott
Though she was sleep-deprived and eager to get to Burlington, Ella put in a couple of hours at the store, making sure everything was in place for the official day-after-Thanksgiving start to the holiday shopping season. She hadn’t missed a Black Friday in the store since she graduated from college. Only for Gavin would she consider missing this one.
Charley popped her head in Ella’s office just after nine thirty. “Heard anything more from Burlington?”
“Not yet. You?”
“Nothing. What time are you heading over there?”
“I’m shooting for noon.”
“Could I hitch a ride with you? My car needs oil, and I haven’t gotten around to getting it into Nolan’s.”