Thud thud thud. Time to go. His kiss with Priya held every promise he wanted to keep, including the one she herself had planted in him: We’ll figure this out. The BeatBix slid down her neck, its song beating between their throats—golden and ferocious—and he wanted to keep listening through to the end, wanted his fate to be this. Eyes on her, lips too, closest joy this side of eternity.
But Eliot was waiting at the hatch, the devil he’d dealt with waiting beyond. The longer he lingered, the more apt Lux would be to increase the forfeit. No doubt there would be a forfeit. The white jumpsuit Eliot wore was flowy in places, but nowhere near baggy enough to hide a book the size of the Rubaiyat.
He was so, so hashed. “This is the first time I want you to have something up your sleeve, and you’ve got no sleeves.”
Eliot laughed—she would be the type of person who reveled in gallows humor—and waved her very bare arm at the door. “Shall we?”
22
THROUGH LIGHTS AND TIME
REPLACING THE FUEL ROD WAS A task for hazard suits with steady hands. Priya managed it well enough, even though her insides matched the cyber-metal songs she was listening to. Clanging chaos CRASH. The playlist—dubbed “Unintelligible Screaming” by Imogen—was usually reserved for workouts, so it was fitting that she felt both the adrenaline and the drain of two dozen crunches.
This stress was beyond the power of tea, and music only agitated it. Loss breathed down her neck. Was this why Far was moving, always moving? Priya knew his mother’s disappearance haunted him, but only now did she connect his forward motion with grief. Stay a step ahead, always, lest it catch up. Waiting for a distress signal to punch across her interface was the last thing Priya wanted to do. (As if she’d ditch anyway: Love was all and home was here.) She paced from one end of the infirmary to the other, trying to outrace the tightness in her throat.
“Hiya!” A wave—Imogen trying to steal Priya’s attention through her headphones. “Need some company?”
Priya pulled back her BeatBix and put on a smile that made her lips feel wobbly. “Sure.”
The other girl flopped onto the workstation stool: fresh flower hair, a sigh that reckoned with savannah rains. “He’s going to be okay, you know. Sure, Lux is scary enough to make a shark shazm itself, but Farway’s wiggled out of worse scrapes. I mean, just take a look at the wall o’ chalky wonders out there. As much as I tease him, he’s got plenty to brag about.”
“This is different.” Far’s talent was never in question. “This is… Eliot.”
“Eliot’s not all bad,” Imogen offered. “In fact, I’m not sure she’s any bad. She’s just really lonely. Can’t you hear it, beneath her words? Every time we talk, it aches… how sad she is.”
There was something, now that Imogen mentioned it, now that Priya thought to listen. Some fragile desperation she couldn’t quite cling to, lengthening, thin, thin as the echoes of the Titanic’s phantom orchestra, threatening to make wraiths of them all. Who was this census-ghost of a girl? Why was she trying to take everything from them?
If anyone had pulled answers out of Eliot, it was Imogen. The Historian could talk a fish into walking. “What kinds of things did you two chat about?”
“Normal people stuff. Eyebrows. Clothes. Cursing. Boys. She thinks I should talk to you-know-who, too. I’m afraid I might have taken the advice to heart.”
“Wait, what? I’ve only been telling you to do that for…” Priya counted up their time as a crew in her head. “Eleven and a half months. What happened?”
“I’m not exactly sure.” Here Imogen launched into a familiar monologue. One Priya had heard dozens, if not scores, of times: all the feels. This was a bonus edition, complete with angst, amnesia, and alcohol. I drank, we danced, what then??? Told at a whisper so “you-know-who” wouldn’t hear. Not that he would—Gram was entirely in his Tetris game, tongue edging his lips as he mashed buttons. Why was it so easy for guys to get lost in screens?
“I take it that’s why you’re in here and not the console room?” Priya asked, once the story reached its inconclusive conclusion.
“No comment.”
“Oh, Im. You have nothing to be scared of—”
“Easy for you to say. You and Far just happened.”
“Not exactly.”
Just happening had happened over months. It was song recommendations and history lessons and late-night interface messages that felt around feelings: HOW’D YOUR EXAM SIM GO? WHAT WAS THE NAME OF THAT TROPICAL HOUSE BAND? TOP TEN FAVORITE DATASTREAMS, AND GO! It was Priya’s heart sparking each time she saw that tell-the-world-I’m-here smile across the examination room. It was that very same grin glowing a thousand watts brighter when she crossed the threshold. It was Far on the night of his failure, tugging the edges of his flowered waistcoat, hope on his face where there should have been heartbreak, saying, I think we both know that we… Well, what I’m trying to say is, I’ve been offered a job, one I can’t do alone, and I can’t think of anyone else I’d rather have with me.
Of course, Imogen had met Priya in this very docking bay on the eve of the Invictus’s debut heist, so she hadn’t seen any of that. Her perspective began when Far took the entire crew to twenty-first-century India on Priya’s behalf—a first vacation that turned into a not-so-thinly-veiled first date.
They’d landed in the city of Varanasi amid Dev Deepawali, a festival of lights of the gods, when the night dripped with thousands of candles and the lush, golden promise of things to come. Fireworks splashed across the sky, birthed again in the reflection of the Ganges River, where the gods were believed to bathe. A brush of the hand led to interlocked fingers as Priya and Far walked through the festivities—marveling at the ghats lined with tiny earthen lamps, steps of flames descending to the water’s edge. She knew then she could keep wandering with him: through lights and time and whatever else came their way.
“Everything looks easier from the outside in. I liked Far for a long time, but when he asked me to join the Invictus, I almost told him no.” It was hard to imagine now: a single-time existence, soundtrack provided by fake BeatBix. “Doing what we do, it puts a lot in peril.”
Imogen nodded. She had her own parents, her own cover job at the boutique. She, too, faced jail time if they were caught by the Corps. “So why’d you say yes?”
Cyber-metal shook Priya’s headphones. She gripped each earpiece; the voice through them was more scream than song, licking her fingertips. “The no would’ve haunted me. Far and I had talked so much about wanderlust, places I wanted to go, times he wanted to see, and there he was, offering all of it. Remaining in Central suddenly felt like half of a life.
“Risk nothing and you’ll stay where you are,” she told Imogen and reminded herself. Her eyes landed on the dead-screen diagnostics machine, Ganesh’s likeness beside it: There were answers out there. Priya just had to trust it wasn’t too late to find them.
She exchanged her real BeatBix for the poseur pair and grabbed her purse.