EDWARD HAD SET OUT cardboard boxes preemptively, to tiptoe around the idea of leaving, so that when the time came to pack he could rise to the occasion without much effort. Meanwhile, he stepped around the empty cubes and cursed, sometimes sent them wheeling with his foot and felt satisfied watching their failed attempts at flight. He had bawled at the thought of moving and run his hand over doorways and faucets, remembering the person he’d been, nearly twenty years before, when he’d first signed the lease.
In those days, he’d spent most of his time in a T-shirt on which he’d drawn, in Sharpie, an empty pizza box. He’d moved in with little furniture and found two orange school chairs on the street, their nubbled plastic coating marred with profane carvings. He had sat on one and rested his feet on the other while he wrote his jokes, blissfully happy, happily alone.
For the first time in his recent memory, Edward was working on something, and the boxes around him, empty but designed for transitions, seemed to urge him forward. He had spent the first day trying to assemble a title for his memoirs and emerged with several possibilities: Friends and Enemas; Not Funny: A Life. The prospect of summing up his years had left him largely in thought-driven repose on the couch, periodically taking breaks from doodling tits to stand barefoot by the open fridge and shovel cold pieces of turkey into his mouth. He knew nothing about writing save the hustle and brevity of the screenplay, but his checking account held enough to pay the rent on possibly a bathroom somewhere in New York City, or to purchase a bus ticket to the Midwestern town where his brother sold life insurance, and so he had decided perhaps it was time to write and sell a book.
He was struggling to nail down words, already exhausted, when he heard the sounds in the hallway. He could tell from the approaching steps—the arrhythmic stabs of high heels worn by someone better suited for all-weather hiking boots—that it was Claudia, and when she knocked he rose from the empty screen, arranged his face as one pleasantly overwhelmed by too many erudite thoughts before opening the door.
Claudia settled her substantial frame horizontally onto Edward’s couch. They had drunk with each other until three in the morning the night before, and he had found himself talking again, in excess, about his late mother, and she had described what it meant to be the sister of Paulie.
“Because honestly,” she had said, gesturing on the crooked back patio of a local bar, a long-thriving dive where the money was always damp and the chairs slightly broken, “why should someone who does the most convincing impression of a Christmas tree, who calls me Rosebud right after I’ve lost my temper and wants to tell me he loves me through the bathroom door even while I’m shitting the worst shit that’s ever been shat—why should that person ever have to be alone?”
At that Edward had snorted into his meaty fingers and chucked her under the chin and cheered his fifth bitter ale at her; they had laughed all over the bar, out the doors, and all the way home. He remembered this fondly as he looked at her now, slumped in the work clothes that clung in unseemly shapes to her body. Two people in the bar had asked whether they were brother and sister, and it was true that they shared a stockiness, as well as deep-set brown eyes and a way of tipping up the chin to smile. Today in his apartment, the afternoon made her hangover visible: the side zipper of her skirt a few inches undone, the bun on her head dramatically crooked.
“I have to talk to him, right?”
“Who.”
“My husband.”
“Claudia,” said Edward, “did he give you a ring or a life sentence in a marriage-shaped prison? You know, Hitler had a gentle side, too. He painted.”
“He wants me to put Paulie in some kind of assisted living community. He won’t let him come live with us. My reaction thus far has been to ignore the issue entirely and sleep on Paulie’s couch which has, as you may know, three pillows shaped like daisies.”
With one hand Edward rearranged Claudia’s legs so that he could share the couch, then sat and sighed. “Not once,” he reasoned, “have you given me any indication that this guy is someone whose bullshit is worth sticking around for. Why stay?”
Claudia’s face was pressed between two cushions that muffled her speech. Her words moved through them slowly, traveling in thick surges to convey their message.
“He wasn’t always—he was softer. And, you know, our parents are gone and he—he wanted to be family.”