She lowered her voice then, and her words fell into something else – a plea. ‘Girl, you might think you love one of them, but that is the Falcone game. Don’t make the mistake my sister made. Angelo Falcone might have once been a shining star but he was violent and cruel. Do you know what he gifted to my sister on the night of their wedding? My father’s death. Elena and my father never saw eye to eye, and her elopement with Angelo Falcone didn’t help things, but to kill a girl’s father simply to remove a nuisance from her life? That’s no gift. Yet she was so wrapped up in his glittering eyes and his wealth, she fell more in love with him for it. You can curl your lip because your uncle and I deal in the business of drugs, but the game of murder for murder’s sake is a twisted one. The path is dark and there is no going back.
‘The next time you think about those boys, ask yourself how many fathers, mothers, sons and daughters they have killed. Ask yourself who dumped my daughter’s body into that lake? Who carved “La nostra vendetta” across her heart?’ Her voice cracked and she stopped abruptly, covering her mouth with her hand and pressing her lids tight shut. ‘Mia bella bimba.’
‘I don’t—’
‘You will help us destroy them,’ she interrupted, ‘and I will forgive you for the mystery of how Valentino Falcone knew where to send his soldati the night my daughter was taken from me.’ She caught me by the wrist, pulling me into her until her perfume rolled over me.
‘Yes,’ I said, breathlessly. ‘I promise.’
‘For Sara.’ For a passing second, she wore her grief plainly on her face – it aged her, made her human, and I felt something squirm inside me at the sight. She was being ravaged by her loss, and it was driving her to bloodshed and madness.
My throat was starting to quiver, making the words thick and heavy as I forced them out. ‘For Sara,’ I said.
‘You must see sense.’ She placed her other hand on my shoulder and squeezed it, as though to strengthen me, but all I felt was frightened and full of guilt. ‘Fidelitate Coniuncti.’
She turned from me and charged into the heavy evening, taking her place in her blacked-out convoy. It had appeared from nowhere but I knew it had been there, somewhere close by, all along. The Marinos wouldn’t send their queen anywhere unaided. I wondered if Jack was with her now, sucking up to her like a lapdog.
A hand brushed across my back as my mother came to my side.
I watched as Donata drove away from us, my heart hammering violently in my chest. ‘What’s “Fidelitate Coniuncti”?’
‘I don’t know, sweetheart.’
A familiar surge of regret flooded through me. I should never have gone to Eden. I would go to my grave regretting that decision. Maybe Jack would have come to me in the end, but it would have been on my terms. It would have been on my turf. But now the choice was gone.
‘What did you promise her?’ I asked.
‘Something I have no intention of delivering.’
I turned to her.
‘I told her I would get you to cooperate,’ my mother continued. ‘She said she would hurt you if you didn’t. I would have promised her the moon if it got her out of my house.’
‘I’m not going to help her. I don’t care what she wants. I’m not hurting anyone.’
She looked alarmed. ‘Of course you’re not.’ She pulled me back into the darkness of the house. ‘You’re not getting involved in any of this. It’s not our world.’
‘Dad says we have to leave Cedar Hill.’
She nodded, a shadow passing across her face. ‘I see now he’s right. Sophie,’ she tugged at my arm and took my hand in hers, ‘you know everything I do is to keep you safe. You know I would die before I let anyone put you in danger, right?’
‘Yeah,’ I said. ‘Of course I know that.’
‘Good,’ she said quietly. ‘Because sometimes it’s hard to know what the right thing is. Sometimes … especially lately, everything seems so fuzzy. But we have each other, and that’s what matters. I’m sorry Donata Marino lost her daughter, but I have no intention of letting her gamble with mine. Not ever.’
I squeezed her hand. ‘We’ll be OK.’
She nodded, but her gaze was lost somewhere over my shoulder. ‘We’ll go away from here. I just have to find the money.’ Her face crumpled but she caught it, stretching a smile as her eyes turned watery. ‘I’ll think of something, sweetheart.’
‘Don’t worry,’ I told her. ‘I already have.’
In the kitchen, I filled a glass and put the violets inside it. I placed the makeshift vase on the windowsill and swallowed my nerves. We’ll come back for you soon. Soon the world would tilt into darkness. Just how soon was soon? I wasn’t going to stick around and find out. Tomorrow my mother and I would disappear.
I pulled out my phone and dialled Millie’s number. She answered on the third ring.
‘What are you doing tomorrow morning?’ I asked her.
‘I don’t know,’ she replied, cagey as ever. ‘Why?’
‘I need a ride to Evelina.’
CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
THE LIE
When I woke up the sun had risen somewhere behind a thick sheen of dark clouds and even the air inside was crackling. I showered, washing off the fear and the sweat, and by the time I emerged again, freshly clothed in denim shorts and a tank top, I looked a little less like death-with-frizzy-hair.
I found my mother hovering in her room. She had changed into a tracksuit and white sneakers, and had clipped her hair back behind her ears. She stopped folding a T-shirt when I came in. I could never tell her what I was about to do. I couldn’t explain my intentions because she wouldn’t understand them, and she wouldn’t let me go. Not after everything Donata had told her about the Falcones. She’d think me a lunatic for going to the murderers’ palace.