Hawke (Carolina Cold Fury Hockey #5)

“I’m going to come again,” I gasp as he hits me extra deep and I feel the telltale prickles in my lower back and between my legs.

Hawke likes that proclamation too, because he knifes upward into a sitting position, his long legs stretched out. He wraps my legs around his back, places his strong hands under my ass, and presses his chest into mine. Then with the strength of his upper arms, he propels me along, bouncing me up and down on his shaft until I’m starting to mewl like a kitten in need.

“Come on, Vale,” he urges me. “Want you to come all around me. Let me feel it. Let my cock feel it. Give it to me.”

With every word he utters, my orgasm pulses…breaks free.

“Fuck, I’ve missed this so goddamn much,” Hawke groans, and with those words, just from the mere emotion and gravity of what they mean to me, I scream out my release. He pulls me up by my hips one last time, slams me back downward as his hips punch up, and goes deeper into me than he ever has before.

He goes straight to my soul as he starts to come inside of me.

His face drops to my shoulder and he moans, “Fuck, fuck, fuck. Fuck that’s good. So fucking good.”

He pulses and shivers in my arms. My body shudders with overwhelming physical and emotional release. My heart splits wide open, right down the middle, and I’m flooded with such passionate feeling for this man that I do the only thing that can possibly be done in this moment.

I brush my lips against his temple and whisper, “I love you, Hawke.”

Letting out a long exhale of relief that I’ve said what’s been in my heart for probably forever, I pull back and look at him with a soft smile. I expect the words to come back to me at any moment. I expect his mouth to curve up gently and with appreciation for my honesty in helping to move us back to that special place we once inhabited.

Instead, his head sort of jerks back in surprise and his brow furrows into a pained wince of an expression. He opens his mouth to say something, and when nothing comes out, my stomach drops in keen disappointment. Hawke drops his gaze, down and to the left, staring aimlessly at the blanket and discarded paper cups.

While his hands are still resting softly on my hips and he’s still hard within me and buried deep, I feel exquisite emptiness make a hollow cavern out of my chest.

“But you don’t feel the same,” I hazard a whispered guess.

His eyes snap up to mine and his gaze is sympathetic. He even leans forward and gives me a soft kiss before saying, “I’m sorry…I feel something. I’m just not sure it’s love, Vale.”





Chapter 25


Hawke


“You seriously can’t be leaving,” I say as I watch her helplessly put another suitcase into the trunk of her car.

“It’s for the best,” she says quietly, refusing to look me in the eye. She stuffs a duffel bag into an empty nook beside the suitcases. I want to rip them out and toss them to the ground, slam the trunk, and demand she stay.

“So everything that we’ve been building back up…that’s not worth staying for,” I growl at her, my frustration starting to overtake my emotions.

“I’m sorry,” she whispers, and places the last bag in place. When she shuts the trunk, she turns to look at me with sad eyes but a clear conscience. “But it’s for the best.”

I don’t beg. I will not beg. But I come close when I ask, “Is there anything I can do to get you to stay?”

If I thought her eyes were sad before, they go positively morose. She looks as if her entire world just got plunged into darkness. And she tells me the one thing I cannot give her. “You can tell me you love me.”

I jerk awake, the strains of “Let It Be” by the Beatles ironically filtering from my earbuds to my consciousness. I rub my eyes, pull the minispeakers from my ears, and look to my right. Max sits in the plane seat next to me, staring at me with a knowing look in his eyes. “Bad dream?”

“Something like that,” I mumble.

“You okay?”

“Sure,” I say as I wind the cord of the earbuds around my iPhone and stuff it in the seat pocket in front of me.

But I’m anything but fine.

Things are fucked up.

Fucked up so bad I feel absolutely helpless and without any clear direction on how to make it better.

I haven’t seen Vale in four days. Since that awful fucking night out by the airport when I had the best orgasm of my entire freaking life, and then proceeded to lose the girl. I’m not sure that’s how things are supposed to happen.

I’m not kidding.

Best. Fucking. Orgasm. Ever.